joinedintime

IO Storm, Thank you for the hope and the prayers. At this point she doesn't want help. It's like an addict/alcoholic that admits that there is a problem but doesn't want, or is afraid of, help and/or change. You can't make them change, they have to want it and accept it.

Did you have that "phase" as some point? If so, what made you decide to get out of it?

Anyone else been though this from either side of the coin?

joinedintime

Philly, you have way more than 111 out 17,942 days sober in your life. You did have milk in that bottle in the crib, right?

Thanks for making me smile.

scoob

My dad started feeding me sips of his beer when I was 8.

SlvrMag

I was gonna say the same thing!!!

joinedintime

That sounds about when I got sips too. Maybe a little later.

Ahh, German and Irish heritage...hmmmm, wonder how did I ever become a beer drinker.



SlvrMag, what do they say? Great minds think alike.

least

Where do I find the sober time calculator? I'd like to see how many days I've been kicking and screaming!

bostonluv

I was given mickeys when I was a baby and I remember my mama making me brandy and hot milk when I was 5 and couldn't sleep. I was always an insomniac. But I believe we are hard wired this way - wouldn't matter if we got sips of beer at 8 and weren't already predisposed to being an addict. That's just my opinion though. I could be totally wrong and probably am. That wouldn't be a new feeling for me.

I'm so sorry for your mother's experience at the funeral. I can't imagine how awful that must have been. To be ignored after the love of your life drops dead on you. Oh..my heart just aches for her.

It makes the grieving process more complicated. I am ever thankful that my father and I had a good relationship for about 4 years before he suddenly died in his sleep.

I'll get my post from last night back in a minute. I'm just reposting so that you all know I had more to say than just a little poem and that I was thinking of you.

I'm exhausted. I hope I didn't make too many spelling errors.

SlvrMag

That's what I hear!

rurdy2rk

Wow - I could not find the thread! Just checking in, and hoping everyone is doing OK. I've been vert busy at work (which is a good thing), and I'm at day 130 today!

Best wishes to all

joinedintime

Least, the calc is here
SoberRecovery : Sober Time Sobriety Calculator
and there's a link to in the upper left of this screen that says Sobertime.
Don't feel bad, I didn't know there was a "New Posts" link until someone mentioned it in a PM. I didn't know what a PM was a one point either, but hey, I'm only in a computer related job so how would I know?

A few people have mentioned that they had to search for the thread. An easy way to find the thread is click My Posts and go from there and if you've posted to the thread any time in your last 20 posts it will be on the first page. Otherwise if you have to search pages of your posts to get here then it's not really worth it.

While we're on the topic of getting around the SR site. Anyone pay any attention to the blogs? I glanced one time but that was about it.

Ananda

wow...18,246 days old

least

Wow! I've been living for 20,903 days! But have been sober for 122 days - those are the days I've been truly living!

BreakFree

Good Morning Everyone! :)

Just wanted to pop in and say "hello" and wish everyone a GREAT day! :) :) :)

Time2Surrender

I had to check mine too. 16,861 days old.

rurdy2rk

16,845 days old here and 131 sober!

joinedintime

The good, the bad and the ugly.

Good - it's been 122 days since I had alcohol (4 months to the day because it was July 12th was my 1st blackout and my last drink)

Bad - it's been 36565 days since my Chicago Cubs (yeah, like I'm the owner or something) have won the World Series. Do they know how to abstain or what?

Ugly - it's only been 4 days since my wife attempted suicide


As you might imagine, that has not been off my mind for very long at a time for the last 4 days. It pretty much colors everything I do. I feel like I should say "sorry for bringing everyone down" cause I keep posting about it, but I know I shouldn't say that because that's what SR is for - getting and giving support.

Ananda

JIT, I feel bad for what you are going through. When something is on my mind and keeps poping up one thing i do is

pause
ask my self if there is anything I can do to help the situation today
If there is I make a note and plan to do one thing that will help today
If there isn't than I move on

OK OK it's not quite that pretty in execution...but it does help.

example....what can i do about my crap living conditions today?
yep...a number of things...so what WILL I do today
I will contact the bank for pre-approval letter and I will be sure the house is nice looking for the 4:15 showing.
There is alot more I can do, but I only have so much time...so that is it for today.

It helps me to see that I am and can make progress, but helps to relieve me of the thought that I have to fix everything right now.

JIT :ghug

IO Storm

JIT

It wasn't my decision to make.

Others got tough with me. I was lying on a bed in a motel room..thrown

out my mother's home (rightfully)...health gone, money gambled away.

Family decided to practice "tough love". I planned to ill myself that

afternoon. How dare they treat me like this? of course..the shame

was underneath it all..I couldn't face it...I had a knife in my purse.

This time there were no threats..no hysterics. I was actually praying

to my Daddy for courage. He passed 8 years ago. You see, I thought God

had abandoned me..and had stopped listening.

Then ...I heard these words.."You will not kill yourself today."

I opened my eyes..and sat up. I had not even realized the television set was

on..a minister, an African American Bishop pointed right at "me" and said,

"You! Will not commit suicide today because you are too precious a child

to the Most High God."

I scooted to the edge of the bed and said "Okay."

I think that was the first of many prayers directly spoken to my

Higher Power..

My journey back began that day.6/8/06.

I was not not diagnosed with severe bipolar Type I disorder until after

I got clean and sober..

It has not been easy...I have to work that much harder on my program and

my attitudes..and pull in close to my HP when the going gets rough..

But..as I said, JIT..

If there was hope for me, there is hope for anyone.

Hugs!

dancinggirl

Wow IO...that gave me chills!

IO Storm

Thanks DG...

Whoo..had to edit...my last drink was February 17, 2006. This experience ..

I had continued to abuse speed...amphetamine pills...fooling

myself..thinking I was sober. Sheeeeesh. My last pill was that morning.

June 8, 2006. I felt the drug leave me...really.

I knew I was clean, and had no withdrawals.

An awesome experience, I will never forget.