cinderellawkids

Thanks Palm I dont feel like it. I ignore them alot and cant handle noise and I sure havent put them first everytime I take AH back. I wish I could erase him from my head, think Im having similar feelings as Teke

teke

anvil, you always describe such pretty sites

Live

Loves...I am no higher power...but I am taller than you! LOL

I do know what I think the best choice would be in your torn dilemna but I feel really inadequate to articulate it well.

If you want me to share what I think, to sort of the best of my ability..pm me.

Lovestoomuch

Who isn't taller than me? LOL My 11 year old has me beat by an inch at least.

cinderellawkids

Everyone go post something positive on my positive thread. I think we could all us some positive focus

cookconfay

Glad to see everyone up and quite chipper this morning Hope you all have a wonderful day. As for me, well the insomnia, the 3 yr old that won't sleep which makes her quite cranky the next morning, and like I'm not????? Oh hellacious t-storm in the middle of the night that makes psycho dog dig, chew and try to escape, to where I have no clue! So. . .one of those days I'm wondering where is the person or better yet who is the person to just come "take care of me" for a while? Oh, I get it. . .that would be me also! Ha, just trying to make lite of my not so terrific or well rested mood

Live

Loves, when you are in Texas, where is the 11 yr old?

cinderellawkids

Thats what Ive been searching for and also promised all these years. My son said when he's an adult he'll take care of me

Lovestoomuch

She lives with her dad. He won the house in the divorce so basically he got temporary full custody. I can fight for custody anytime I'm ready. I just haven't been able to support her in the way her dad can. He makes 3 times the amount I do..........not that money matters, but I need to have a home that's just as decent as the one I would be pulling her away from..........not to mention he's a really good father.

cinderellawkids

Im not feeling happy right now.
I want to feel happy darn it.
If happiness lies within me, why cant I be happy right now.

Stupid me I scrolled down to post a comment on myspace and saw AHs pic again with his sister, grrrrr, why do I feel warm love feelings when I se his face....grrrr
I want to stay feeling to good for him

nevergivingup

Cinder - Try write down a whole narative about all the crappy thing he's done in the past. All the reasons that drove you to not wanting him there. And then everytime you start to feel like you want/need him back in your life, take it out and read it. It really, really, really helped me to get through all of it. It was also very cleansing and very eye opening!

teke

ok, cinder, you are doing so good i think, i also think that it might be a littel normal for you to feel the love when you see him like that. i'm sure it reminded you of what you had in the sober him. i don't know anything about my space, but is there a way that you can avoid looking at your sil's my space page? if so maybe it would be something that you might want to focus on avoiding until you are a litte more comfortable with seeing his pics,

most of the time people only post pics of how it was if how it is, is not so pleasent. then you never know, maybe that is the plan, for you to take a peak and see something that may upset you, i'm hoping that thats not the case, just something to think about, huh, what do you think

Lovestoomuch

Why don't you just delete that profile from your list?? If SIL gets her nose bent out of shape then that's her problem. IMO.........and I could be COMPLETELY off base here, but I think she put those pics up of your AH on purpose so you would have to see him. Take back your power Cindi.

teke

cinder, i'm with loves, is it possible that she may have done that on purpose. do your ah, have any knowledge about yours and her my space? how close are they?

i think that if my mil had a myspace page, she would post all kinds of good pics of my ah, and i would think it would be out of spite, if she knew that i was gonna see it.

Lovestoomuch

Personally .............I think that's what's happened..........but I'm a conspiracy theorist myself LOL

eaglesgirl

I dont know much about myspace...but there has to be a way to block a particular user from yours?????

nevergivingup

I took the day off of work!!! Woo Hoo!!!! Any suggestions????

Lovestoomuch

Lets see........you got paid and have the day off. ........thinking........thinking.....I have no clue LOL.

teke

good for you never, why not do something just for you today or you can always do something like relaxing. hope your day is a peaceful one.

nevergivingup

Yeah, I have J with me, so I don't know how relaxing it well be! LOL!