Class of May 2020 Part 4
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Thanks for the new thread Dee!
I thought I'd claim shotgun (I've only just learnt this term)!
End of day 20 for me, so tomorrow I'll hit the three week milestone. The first week was pretty awful, but since then, I think I have a good recipe for success - but trying not to be too confident and steer towards vigilance in my plan.
Lots of great milestones being reached - fantastic effort from all the May class. I really hope that we can continue on this thread when June comes around?? It has been a fantastic daily read and post support for me - one fantastic bunch of soberites - thank you!
I thought I'd claim shotgun (I've only just learnt this term)!
End of day 20 for me, so tomorrow I'll hit the three week milestone. The first week was pretty awful, but since then, I think I have a good recipe for success - but trying not to be too confident and steer towards vigilance in my plan.
Lots of great milestones being reached - fantastic effort from all the May class. I really hope that we can continue on this thread when June comes around?? It has been a fantastic daily read and post support for me - one fantastic bunch of soberites - thank you!
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Ive been following along a few days and i figure it time i join. Kinda late in the month but never too late to quit, right? My day 1 stands at May 25 so I'm on a day 4.
I've been here many times before and have an unfortunate habit of retesting the moderation waters. My drinking escalates to binging levels everytime. Certainly enough to be unhealthy and take away from my enjoyment in life. I've also been at the blackout stage in the past and really dont wamt to return there. My wife is fighting her own battle.with drinking but I'm resigned to the fact i can only help myself
Congrats to Dig for 60days and 1 week to freedomfries!
I've been here many times before and have an unfortunate habit of retesting the moderation waters. My drinking escalates to binging levels everytime. Certainly enough to be unhealthy and take away from my enjoyment in life. I've also been at the blackout stage in the past and really dont wamt to return there. My wife is fighting her own battle.with drinking but I'm resigned to the fact i can only help myself
Congrats to Dig for 60days and 1 week to freedomfries!
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AV wants to try drinking two cans "to see if the higher dose works"
"maybe you could drink two cans, get sick and that would motivate you to stay sober"
It's absurd. I don't want to drink and drinking as a way of getting sober is nonsense. I'm not going to drink no matter how much my AV pleads.
"maybe you could drink two cans, get sick and that would motivate you to stay sober"
It's absurd. I don't want to drink and drinking as a way of getting sober is nonsense. I'm not going to drink no matter how much my AV pleads.
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Good morning, classmates. Welcome nmd.
FF, good for you, recognizing the AV and the twisted nonsense it spews.
Coz, three weeks just around the bend -- awesome!
Day 36 for me.
There's a bottle of vodka in our freezer. It belongs to my husband. Actually, there is about 1/4 of a bottle in the freezer. Over the years, I have put away a lot of vodka in diet coke. But aside from a rare fleeting thought when I open the freezer to get ice -- "I could put a shot in my diet coke" -- it is not speaking to me. If it starts speaking to me (or rather, if my AV starts focusing on it), I will ask my husband to move it somehwere.
FF, good for you, recognizing the AV and the twisted nonsense it spews.
Coz, three weeks just around the bend -- awesome!
Day 36 for me.
There's a bottle of vodka in our freezer. It belongs to my husband. Actually, there is about 1/4 of a bottle in the freezer. Over the years, I have put away a lot of vodka in diet coke. But aside from a rare fleeting thought when I open the freezer to get ice -- "I could put a shot in my diet coke" -- it is not speaking to me. If it starts speaking to me (or rather, if my AV starts focusing on it), I will ask my husband to move it somehwere.
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Originally Posted by nmd 
Ive been following along a few days and i figure it time i join. Kinda late in the month but never too late to quit, right? My day 1 stands at May 25 so I'm on a day 4.
I've been here many times before and have an unfortunate habit of retesting the moderation waters. My drinking escalates to binging levels everytime. Certainly enough to be unhealthy and take away from my enjoyment in life. I've also been at the blackout stage in the past and really dont wamt to return there. My wife is fighting her own battle.with drinking but I'm resigned to the fact i can only help myself
Congrats to Dig for 60days and 1 week to freedomfries!
I've been here many times before and have an unfortunate habit of retesting the moderation waters. My drinking escalates to binging levels everytime. Certainly enough to be unhealthy and take away from my enjoyment in life. I've also been at the blackout stage in the past and really dont wamt to return there. My wife is fighting her own battle.with drinking but I'm resigned to the fact i can only help myself
Congrats to Dig for 60days and 1 week to freedomfries!
You were really missed love....so glad you are back with us.
Sorry to hear that your wife is also dealing with alcohol issues....it will surely be helpful to her that you are no longer drinking I would think.
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Originally Posted by freedomfries
AV wants to try drinking two cans "to see if the higher dose works"
"maybe you could drink two cans, get sick and that would motivate you to stay sober"
It's absurd. I don't want to drink and drinking as a way of getting sober is nonsense. I'm not going to drink no matter how much my AV pleads.
"maybe you could drink two cans, get sick and that would motivate you to stay sober"
It's absurd. I don't want to drink and drinking as a way of getting sober is nonsense. I'm not going to drink no matter how much my AV pleads.
Also, remember your motivation.....the tuition for college. Hold onto that.
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Hang in there, Freedom! On your higher dose, a drink could make you seriously ill. Celebrate your week in some way. What can you do for yourself that would make you feel really good?
Lily, I also would ask for the vodka to be moved. You don't want it there during a sudden weak moment. Congrats on 36 days!
Welcome nmd! I hope today goes easy for you.
Lily, I also would ask for the vodka to be moved. You don't want it there during a sudden weak moment. Congrats on 36 days!
Welcome nmd! I hope today goes easy for you.
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RAL you asked about my blood pressure. I have a monitor at home that I got last year after my hospital visit. I monitor several times a day since I stopped drinking. Usually once or twice if I feel weird on regular days.
BP was up again today and I have absolutely no idea why. I had some things planned for today but feel really crappy. Already had to take 1/2 extra pill to try and bring it down. I know some would say call your doctor but my cardiologist is not that much help. The last time it was up for a few days he prescribed me the extra dosage per day as needed. It didn't try to figure out why. I didn't know but later discovered that I was taking lots of melatonin at night. I had not been taking it for a long time. Called my pharmacist and he told me it could raise BP in people that already have high BP. So I don't think he would tell me anything but take the extra dosage.
It's discouraging because I wanted to do some things around the house but I don't feel like it now. I don't feel like drinking. That's a good thing. Just want to feel better. I just wish I knew how long this was going to be up since I quit drinking. I had it under control - just an occasional up every so often. I'm on day 5.
Coz congrats on Day 20!
WL so glad you got some sleep. That is the best feeling in the world after you've gone for days.
Have a great day everyone!
Hope
BP was up again today and I have absolutely no idea why. I had some things planned for today but feel really crappy. Already had to take 1/2 extra pill to try and bring it down. I know some would say call your doctor but my cardiologist is not that much help. The last time it was up for a few days he prescribed me the extra dosage per day as needed. It didn't try to figure out why. I didn't know but later discovered that I was taking lots of melatonin at night. I had not been taking it for a long time. Called my pharmacist and he told me it could raise BP in people that already have high BP. So I don't think he would tell me anything but take the extra dosage.
It's discouraging because I wanted to do some things around the house but I don't feel like it now. I don't feel like drinking. That's a good thing. Just want to feel better. I just wish I knew how long this was going to be up since I quit drinking. I had it under control - just an occasional up every so often. I'm on day 5.
Coz congrats on Day 20!
WL so glad you got some sleep. That is the best feeling in the world after you've gone for days.
Have a great day everyone!
Hope
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Oh love, that is so hard. s
As I think I mentioned, my husband has...well did have.....extraordinarily high BP. As in the highest it can get before you have a stroke.
I am an Aussie, and used to advocating for myself as far as doctors go, so I kind of insisted we go back to the doc as many times as it took for her to get his meds right and his BP down.
And yes, so many things affect it and can make it higher.....otc pain killers that you guys must not take, allergy meds.....lots of stuff.
Your GP should know all of this. Perhaps it might be worth doing a tele appt with this doctor?
And I do feel that your cardiologist should be fully invested in getting your BP down. That is this person's job. s xx ❤️
sAs I think I mentioned, my husband has...well did have.....extraordinarily high BP. As in the highest it can get before you have a stroke.
I am an Aussie, and used to advocating for myself as far as doctors go, so I kind of insisted we go back to the doc as many times as it took for her to get his meds right and his BP down.
And yes, so many things affect it and can make it higher.....otc pain killers that you guys must not take, allergy meds.....lots of stuff.
Your GP should know all of this. Perhaps it might be worth doing a tele appt with this doctor?
And I do feel that your cardiologist should be fully invested in getting your BP down. That is this person's job.
s xx ❤️
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Loss of Job/Career
I'm experiencing a lot of sadness/grief: I lost my job and the time has come for me to turn in the keys to my office; my ID, my computer, and everything else. It is a very sad situation that the negative voices in my head self-sabotaged. It's very hard to get a job in my field at all and you spend 15 years preparing for this and I totally ****** it up because I couldn't function because of alcohol. I did not realize that I would also be facing looking for employment when 38 million are out of work in the United States. I just did not know that this would be the case.
I'm lucky to have a temporary gig at a decent place for nine months but the fact that I lost a job and under-preformed is just killing me inside. My job was everything to me and I worked so hard.
I want to drink to avoid these uncomfortable, painful feelings but I'm devastated inside: just can't believe what I did.
I'm experiencing a lot of sadness/grief: I lost my job and the time has come for me to turn in the keys to my office; my ID, my computer, and everything else. It is a very sad situation that the negative voices in my head self-sabotaged. It's very hard to get a job in my field at all and you spend 15 years preparing for this and I totally ****** it up because I couldn't function because of alcohol. I did not realize that I would also be facing looking for employment when 38 million are out of work in the United States. I just did not know that this would be the case.
I'm lucky to have a temporary gig at a decent place for nine months but the fact that I lost a job and under-preformed is just killing me inside. My job was everything to me and I worked so hard.
I want to drink to avoid these uncomfortable, painful feelings but I'm devastated inside: just can't believe what I did.
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Well, my building decided to go ahead with a pre-planned fire drill this afternoon as it was pouring rain outside. The alarm is very loud and there is a speaker in each unit. It goes on for 10 minutes before they shut it off. So either you stand in the rain or you endure a sonic assault on the eardrums. I question the competence of management.
Listae, I have been in your position about 5 times already. Each time I got fired, I went straight to the nearest pub. I hated the jobs anyway. Or maybe I just wanted to drink more than work....
Listae, I have been in your position about 5 times already. Each time I got fired, I went straight to the nearest pub. I hated the jobs anyway. Or maybe I just wanted to drink more than work....
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Listae- I am so sorry. That is so rough. But I have to keep reminding myself of the same thing - Drinking won't make it better. It will make it worse. Your problems will be worse. tomorrow if you drink. So don't drink please! So sorry you are going through this.
WL- sounds like a stupid management company. I would stand in the rain. Loud sounds make me crazy.
Hope
WL- sounds like a stupid management company. I would stand in the rain. Loud sounds make me crazy.
Hope
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