Blueyesgrn

Today is day 25 for me, I never believed that I could go a week without a drink and here I am. This morning though I experienced my first urge of wanting a drink after finding out a close friend of mine had passed away. I'm going to try and stay strong for I know alcohol is not the answer right now. My friend was a paramedic who suffered a back injury lifting a gurney. She slowly became dependent on pain killers. Those pain killers got the better of her in the end. I had already expected this week to be hard as I am approaching my grandmas one year anniversary of her death on Friday. Finding this out after work about my friend is just mind blowing. I'm not going to drink, I will make it to 30days and beyond. I will keep repeating that to myself. Sorry so long. Just needed to vent for a minute. Thanks

JackieC

Blueyesgrn, I am so, so sorry to hear about your friend passing away. You have my condolences. I can hear in your voice that you are committed to not drinking. Keep up the good work.

Day 17 here for me. Back to work, kids back in school, routine officially started back up. Physically, I feel great. Sleeping better, losing some weight/bloat, being calmer and more at peace in general. This is so much better than how I was feeling and living before. I start to stress about the future but then I remember I only need to make it through today. That I can do.

Peaceful Tuesday to everyone,
Jackie

TigerLili

I am so sorry to hear about your friend, Blueyesgrn, and about your grandma. It's definitely a hard time for you to be going through. We're all here to support you through it.

Dee74

I'm sorry for your loss blueseyesgrn.

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MariahGayle

Blueyesgrn - Great job on 25 days I'm sorry for the loss of your friend...take care of you.

Jackie - Great for you too on 17 days- keep it up Tiger - Good to see you here too

Dee thank you for all you do & the encouragement - Appreciate it much!!

11 days for me today & about to call it a night. Hope everyone has a great sober day tomorrow

Beanie25

Checking in at 26 days..

Blueyesgrn

Thank you everyone for your support. Yesterday was hard but I made it through it. I'm now 26 days sober and staying strong.

ActualAlcoholic

well done, i can't imagine how tough it is right now. mad props!

JackieC

Day 18. You know what I absolutely love now that I've stopped drinking? The part of the night where I put my book down and turn off my lamp. To put my head down on that pillow sober and guilt-free is such a fulfilling and peaceful feeling.

When I feel a craving or urge to drink, I close my eyes and imagine that feeling of putting my head on the pillow sober. I harness all those positive emotions I associate with that act and it centers me.

I hope you are all having a good day in your recovery.

Jackie

Dee74

so great to see so many folks powering on - awesome

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TigerLili

11 days!

Babs78756

Hey Team! Checking in on day 32! Traveling again tomorrow... less nervous about the airport drinking I used to 'love' so much. These days, I'm happy to stroll the terminal wearing my daughter, clocking in more steps on my fitbit. Will stay close to SR through my travels. How is everyone doing?

ActualAlcoholic

Checking in on Day 10

I've got a tough one tomorrow though.. work birthday parties and everyone goes to the pub to drink. There will be a lot of pressure as I have been a participant in the pub activities for 2 years straight, every week. Everyone is going to be wondering why i'm not partaking... Think I'm going to mention a "health kick" or something.

Any advice??

Dee74

Actual - if you don't feel it's safe to go...don;t go.
I guarantee after the first round noone will care who's there or not.

I missed a few things - later on I went to the next one...or the one after that.

If you do go, think out all the likely scenarios - people offering you drinks, asking you're not drinking, feeling left out or resentful...and have plans

definitely have an escape plan for if things get too hot.

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JackieC

Actual, I'm Day 18 and have only been one place in those 18 days where someone offered me a drink. I hated that moment and it was very hard for me (though I think the person offering didn't notice or care one way or the other that I didn't say yes) so I've been steering clear of that stuff for now. I think I'd have a hard time in a pub right now, particularly with my drinking friends there.

You can always make a point to go find the birthday person before everyone leaves, wish them a happy bday and say you've got an appointment or something. As Dee said, no one will be offended.

Everyone keep up the good work!
Jackie

Dan Dare

Wrapping up day 23...

Battling a virus so I feel kinda crappy.
Stay in the Captain's chair all...

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MariahGayle

Can someone explain how the "quote" option works....can't seem to figure it out.
Loved your post ((Jackie))...brought tears to my eyes - that IS such a peaceful/content feeling ((Actual)) - My experience has been that putting myself in that environment is not a good idea. I have tried & failed with that several times....take care of you Great job Babs, Beannie & Blues. Hope you are feeling better Dan

JackieC

Thanks for your sweet words, Babs.

To quote, you click on the "quote" icon/word that is at the bottom right of each post.

Goodnight all!

Jackie

Dee74

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post2151684

MetalMatt

So I caved today on a 6 pack.

I don't feel any better, and I feel awful for letting everyone down.

I will start from day 1 right now, the beast is strong within me.