Anna

Wow, Convalesence, you're doing great. Have a wonderful weekend.

Convalescence

Thanks all. I am, just keeping busy and getting back into the swing of sobriety.

Four weeks!

Dee74

well done

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Mizz

YAAASSSSS!!!!!!
Happy Saturday. So proud of you.

Convalescence

Thanks so much Dee, Mizz, and Anna. Just being consistent and honest here again.

Day 29. Almost a month of freedom.

Convalescence

Day 30!

Dee74

Congrats on 30 days Convalescence

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Mizz

Convalescence

Thanks guys,

Unfortunately, I relapsed on Monday and took some time to process my emotions. I felt ashamed but wanted to be honest about what happened and be accountable for my behavior.

I think I was treating things a bit mechanicallly again. I would come in here to post last at night at the end of my day, not prioritizing things like I need to. I'm on day 2 now.

I'm confident that I'm healing and going to move on from this. I want a better life and to leave this behind me before I turn 30.

Dee74

I'm not asking cos I want to pry but do you think maybe you could make more use of SR than just count off the days Convalescence?

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Mizz

It sounds like you may need a few more "tools" in your tool box.

My own sobriety requires a lot of work and a lot of structure.

It would be good to know more about you and see you more around in the community. There are many threads that could be joined where you can participate and support others.

Just some thoughts.....

Convalescence

I agree Dee and Mizz, I have been browsing the old subforums I used to read over on here in addition to merely counting. Seeing real stories from others helped encourage me and remind me while I was doing this.

Day 3.

Convalescence

Onto day 4.

Making sure to use this is a place to vent when I need too, and not merely making it a mechanistic process. So far I'm feeling encouraged and well, and will continue to make progress in my recovery. Don't want to phone things in.

Convalescence

Day 5,

Feeling under the weather and going to take it easy over the weekend. Will journal more soon after I get some rest, but feeling calm and at peace currently.

Convalescence

Day 6.

Going to continue healing tonight, heading to bed early.

Things feel stable and I'm at peace though, seems as if I'm doing the right thing here by engaging and venting as needed.

Mizz

Awesome.
I am sure there are others who could benefit from your struggles and successes in sobriety. Have you considered joining one of the classes or engaging on some of the threads?

Convalescence

Hey Mizz,

I feel like right now I need to focus on my own healing to have a healthy perspective on things. Sometimes I will chime in to encourage others I see on here, and I've made some solid friends and connections. But I mostly lurk and read for my own benefit.

Onto day 7.

Dee74

You're gonna do what you're gonna do but both Mizz and I are trying to get you to be more connected Convalescence for what I suspect is the same reason - connection works and isolation and introspection on its own often doesn't
Self reflection has it's place but so does letting go of the struggle in your own head every so often and simply helping someone else with their struggle.

You never have to reveal details of your struggle if its too personal.
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Convalescence

I understand Dee. And I agree, isolation isn't a good thing. I just have a lot of emotions to deal with right now, and sharing them here has helped me before. I want to continue doing that and staying integrated with my virtual community.

Day 8.

Convalescence

Day 9.

Continuing to read threads on the 'Friends and Families of Alcoholics' section. Seeing the pain long-term addiction causes for your loved ones is something that has helped me before, so I want to continue being more empathetic and using those as a helpful resource as I work towards healing.

I'm feeling better now and am confident I'm on the right track. Have a great week all, much love.