Originally Posted by Dee74

hey guys

I just wanted to share my recent experience with recovery.

at the start of this year, I certainly did not expect to be spending my days in lockdown.

When news of the pandemic broke, I was scared.
I'm in 4 or 5 risk factor groups.

I spent a couple of days simply panicking - it seemed inevitable to me then that I'd end up in hospital on a ventilator, or worse.

I was having panic attacks and not sleeping, barely eating, not engaging here much...

That kind of stress, or me at least, is not tenable for long.

Of course, the outcome is not inevitable.
Mrs Dee as always helped talk me down off that ledge.

I'm still wary, still doing all the right things - but if I get it I get it...and I intend to get through to the other side

One thing that did not occur to me - and this really is miraculous - was drinking or toking.

I faced the fear - more real and disconcerting that any fear I've had since I got sober - and made my way through it to a new normal.

I can't live in fear. For me that's where faith comes into it. and I've prayed more this year than a lot of years before it.

Others have their own ways.

I'm not telling anyone not to fear - as I was reminded recently quite rightly people have good reason to fear right now - but it is possible to stay in a state of recovery



Thanks to everyone here . This community is very special to me...and today I have 13 years

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