Dee74

hey guys

I just wanted to share my recent experience with recovery.

at the start of this year, I certainly did not expect to be spending my days in lockdown.

When news of the pandemic broke, I was scared.
I'm in 4 or 5 risk factor groups.

I spent a couple of days simply panicking - it seemed inevitable to me then that I'd end up in hospital on a ventilator, or worse.

I was having panic attacks and not sleeping, barely eating, not engaging here much...

That kind of stress, or me at least, is not tenable for long.

Of course, the outcome is not inevitable.
Mrs Dee as always helped talk me down off that ledge.

I'm still wary, still doing all the right things - but if I get it I get it...and I intend to get through to the other side

One thing that did not occur to me - and this really is miraculous - was drinking or toking.

I faced the fear - more real and disconcerting that any fear I've had since I got sober - and made my way through it to a new normal.

I can't live in fear. For me that's where faith comes into it. and I've prayed more this year than a lot of years before it.

Others have their own ways.

I'm not telling anyone not to fear - as I was reminded recently quite rightly people have good reason to fear right now - but it is possible to stay in a state of recovery



Thanks to everyone here . This community is very special to me...and today I have 13 years

D

Kjma

Thanks for that message, Dee. Congrats on your 13 years. That's wonderful! I'm still counting date-- 48 today and thankful that the fear is not making me think alcohol is a good idea either.

Spacegoat

Thanks for everything that you do Dee

suki44883

Thank you, Dee. Congratulations on 13 years sobriety! That is really fantastic!

DriGuy

Not engaging? I never noticed that. I wonder how many others noticed it?

I happy you made it through that. It's one of those things beyond our control. At best we can influence it a bit, but the rest is pure fate.

ZIP

13 years!? Cool beans! Congratulations!

Zebra1275

Congratulations Dee on 13 years of sobriety!

Duffster

Dee74

yeah I was 'here but not here' for a few days.
Dunno if its good that people didn't notice or not

thanks everyone for the well wishes

D

nez

Yeah I know what you mean. What a gift!!! It is true freedom. Thanks for your share and congrats on the 13 years. That is awesome!!!

courage2

Congratulations on 13 years, Dee - I thought it was tomorrow and was waiting to send you a big hug & a kiss But here it comes, virtually speedy

Dee74

Well it is tomorrow US time Cour - April 6 - but thank you

thanks again to everyone.

D

Anna

Dee, I'm so glad that you were able to face that fear and deal with it. These are very scary times and you are a great example of how we can and must manage the fear we are feeling. Having someone important in your life to talk to helps a lot.

Dee74

It really does Anna

Thank you

D

RecklessDrunk

This, thank you Dee.

You seem to show up at almost every thread with good, calm, common sense advice. I'm amazed at how often any one person can do all this.

Steely

Thank you for everything you do as well, Dee. Always balanced and sane moderation. Not easy to do, particularly with us, newly struggling with alcohol and other drugs. Thanks.

I do not doubt that you pushed through the fear barrier and thank you for sharing.

Keep the faith. It's def worth keeping. 🌠

Congratulations on 13 years Dee 🎏

least

Dee, you share an anniversary date with DaisyBelle - she has two years on the 6th.

Thanks for all you do.

Hevyn

Dee - You're a super hero around here, always helping us be strong & determined. It never crossed my mind you might be going through a time of doubt & fear yourself. I'm glad you wanted to talk about it.

Congratulations on your 13 yrs. sober. What a blessing to know you & to be part of the miracle.

Lillith

That's wonderful about your 13 years - huge accomplishment D! Congrats!! And I'm wishing you good health throughout all this virus mess. I certainly miss normalcy - when I wasn't anxious about going to the grocery store or the gas station. But hopefully we'll all come out the other side of this even more resilient.

gypsytears

Much love & respect Dee Dee. Thirteen years is inspirational to say the least. Thank you for all that you do, mostly for just being you.