Day 1
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Originally Posted by jr67 
Mutual congratulations, Sober45 et al. My Day 1 was your Day 1, S45, and here we are at Day 8 already.
It is challenging enough to acknowledge and address our own, umm, challenges, meaning, in this space, substance abuse. Even moreso in situations that are intertwined with another's well-being.
Brings to mind, in a way, those airplane instructions, something like "... be sure to affix your own oxygen mask before assisting other passengers."
May tomorrow be Day X-plus-1 for all reading this. One breath at a time.
It is challenging enough to acknowledge and address our own, umm, challenges, meaning, in this space, substance abuse. Even moreso in situations that are intertwined with another's well-being.
Brings to mind, in a way, those airplane instructions, something like "... be sure to affix your own oxygen mask before assisting other passengers."
May tomorrow be Day X-plus-1 for all reading this. One breath at a time.
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Originally Posted by Sober45
100%....it's the rationalizing. One thing I've learned is the difference between the subconscious and conscious mind. Once a habit like drinking makes to the subconscious level it's HARD to break and requires a huge amount of conscious purposeful thinking. And the way I look at now is even if I was able to moderate...what would I be doing really...I'd be living my life waiting for my next drink. Day 2.
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Day 9-write it down
aaahhhhh...Day 9 baby!
I bought a new planner and have been putting a ton of effort into making a daily plan and carrying it out. It's working. I even made my bed this morning before coming to work which is something I haven't done my whole life...never seen the point until now.
Between that and reading on SR I think I'm going to make it long term.
Today I'm rewarding myself by going shopping with the money I didn't spend on alcohol.
I also took a picture of myself on day 1 and compared it to what I look like now. The difference after just 9 days is shocking. My face was swollen and puffy and I didn't realize it. Damn, I'm looking pretty good now...might even post a pic of FB soon!
If I plan to learn I must learn to plan. Day 9.
I bought a new planner and have been putting a ton of effort into making a daily plan and carrying it out. It's working. I even made my bed this morning before coming to work which is something I haven't done my whole life...never seen the point until now.
Between that and reading on SR I think I'm going to make it long term.
Today I'm rewarding myself by going shopping with the money I didn't spend on alcohol.
I also took a picture of myself on day 1 and compared it to what I look like now. The difference after just 9 days is shocking. My face was swollen and puffy and I didn't realize it. Damn, I'm looking pretty good now...might even post a pic of FB soon!
If I plan to learn I must learn to plan. Day 9.
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That's a 9-er for me, too, S45. See you in double digits tomorrow.
Today, it's (beyond) time for me to head to work. I'm self-employed, meaning no one besides me is keeping close track on any given day, and I confess (this is anonymous, right?) that while I've been pretty consistent with various good practices to maintain my sobriety, I have been hibernating to a degree, insulating myself away to lessen the stresses of my work responsibilities.
For the short term, that is. The stresses only multiply if I ignore them too long. I know this from a lifetime of procrastination. But that's another story.
Or is it?
Ok, jr67, correlation is not necessarily causation, but when did you start developing your substance-abusing habits? And when did you start developing your procrastinating habits?
All right, this is S45's thread. Maybe I'll start one of my own about the big P. But not right now. Right now, off to work.
Ciao.
Today, it's (beyond) time for me to head to work. I'm self-employed, meaning no one besides me is keeping close track on any given day, and I confess (this is anonymous, right?) that while I've been pretty consistent with various good practices to maintain my sobriety, I have been hibernating to a degree, insulating myself away to lessen the stresses of my work responsibilities.
For the short term, that is. The stresses only multiply if I ignore them too long. I know this from a lifetime of procrastination. But that's another story.
Or is it?
Ok, jr67, correlation is not necessarily causation, but when did you start developing your substance-abusing habits? And when did you start developing your procrastinating habits?
All right, this is S45's thread. Maybe I'll start one of my own about the big P. But not right now. Right now, off to work.
Ciao.
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Originally Posted by jr67
That's a 9-er for me, too, S45. See you in double digits tomorrow.
Today, it's (beyond) time for me to head to work. I'm self-employed, meaning no one besides me is keeping close track on any given day, and I confess (this is anonymous, right?) that while I've been pretty consistent with various good practices to maintain my sobriety, I have been hibernating to a degree, insulating myself away to lessen the stresses of my work responsibilities.
For the short term, that is. The stresses only multiply if I ignore them too long. I know this from a lifetime of procrastination. But that's another story.
Or is it?
Ok, jr67, correlation is not necessarily causation, but when did you start developing your substance-abusing habits? And when did you start developing your procrastinating habits?
All right, this is S45's thread. Maybe I'll start one of my own about the big P. But not right now. Right now, off to work.
Ciao.
Today, it's (beyond) time for me to head to work. I'm self-employed, meaning no one besides me is keeping close track on any given day, and I confess (this is anonymous, right?) that while I've been pretty consistent with various good practices to maintain my sobriety, I have been hibernating to a degree, insulating myself away to lessen the stresses of my work responsibilities.
For the short term, that is. The stresses only multiply if I ignore them too long. I know this from a lifetime of procrastination. But that's another story.
Or is it?
Ok, jr67, correlation is not necessarily causation, but when did you start developing your substance-abusing habits? And when did you start developing your procrastinating habits?
All right, this is S45's thread. Maybe I'll start one of my own about the big P. But not right now. Right now, off to work.
Ciao.
I have been working on this issue for a long time now and have made a some improvements in the past few years (getting a $15000 tax bill will do that to you!). But also in the past few years my drinking has gotten so much worse. I was using drink as a reward for getting sh** done...and also to numb myself from the things I had not gotten done! Everything became a reason to drink.
That said, sobriety for me I believe is very much dependent on self-discipline. I’m writing everything down now and checking them off one at a time. I just look at my next item and say to myself “Don’t think...DO!”. Seeing results and rewarding myself is really motivating me to stay sober. I believe whatever I put my time into now is going to shape my future daily routine So I must choose wisely and most of all stay focused. And I should say that SR is playing a major role in that.
In time, these new things I’m doing will Lead to a happy life where I’m not consumed by thoughts of alcohol anymore. That is the underlying belief that is getting me through these early days.
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Well, would you look at you, Sober!
Not only are you looking better in the mirror, but the view from over here is pretty great too. Only nine short (I know it's been an eternity, probably) days ago, all you wanted to do is crawl into a hole, and now you're popping out all over buying planners and Doing Things! It's a beautiful sight, it is.
How nice that jr67 has arrived to join you in this mission. It's always good to have a travel buddy.
Moving right along...
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Not only are you looking better in the mirror, but the view from over here is pretty great too. Only nine short (I know it's been an eternity, probably) days ago, all you wanted to do is crawl into a hole, and now you're popping out all over buying planners and Doing Things! It's a beautiful sight, it is.
How nice that jr67 has arrived to join you in this mission. It's always good to have a travel buddy.
Moving right along...
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Hey S45. May I be the first to welcome you (us) to Day 10?
How's Second Saturday going?
I've been up for a while (it's 9 a.m. now) enjoying the clearheadedness (actually l attempted a nap but the synapses were firing away). Soon I'm gonna hafta roll out from under this dog on this cozy couch and head to the gym, an errand or 2, etc. etc. Wonder if I'll still be awake for Saturday Night Live at 11:30 p.m. after I return from dinner (sober for a change).
Thanks for the mutual support, to:
-- S45 (look at that, we have at least one more thing in common); and
-- the rest of you SR folks especially ... (well, you know who you are).
Catch y'all l8r.
How's Second Saturday going?
I've been up for a while (it's 9 a.m. now) enjoying the clearheadedness (actually l attempted a nap but the synapses were firing away). Soon I'm gonna hafta roll out from under this dog on this cozy couch and head to the gym, an errand or 2, etc. etc. Wonder if I'll still be awake for Saturday Night Live at 11:30 p.m. after I return from dinner (sober for a change).
Thanks for the mutual support, to:
-- S45 (look at that, we have at least one more thing in common); and
-- the rest of you SR folks especially ... (well, you know who you are).
Catch y'all l8r.
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Originally Posted by jr67
Hey S45. May I be the first to welcome you (us) to Day 10?
How's Second Saturday going?
I've been up for a while (it's 9 a.m. now) enjoying the clearheadedness (actually l attempted a nap but the synapses were firing away). Soon I'm gonna hafta roll out from under this dog on this cozy couch and head to the gym, an errand or 2, etc. etc. Wonder if I'll still be awake for Saturday Night Live at 11:30 p.m. after I return from dinner (sober for a change).
Thanks for the mutual support, to:
-- S45 (look at that, we have at least one more thing in common); and
-- the rest of you SR folks especially ... (well, you know who you are).
Catch y'all l8r.
How's Second Saturday going?
I've been up for a while (it's 9 a.m. now) enjoying the clearheadedness (actually l attempted a nap but the synapses were firing away). Soon I'm gonna hafta roll out from under this dog on this cozy couch and head to the gym, an errand or 2, etc. etc. Wonder if I'll still be awake for Saturday Night Live at 11:30 p.m. after I return from dinner (sober for a change).
Thanks for the mutual support, to:
-- S45 (look at that, we have at least one more thing in common); and
-- the rest of you SR folks especially ... (well, you know who you are).
Catch y'all l8r.
Day 10 almost in the books! It was a hard one but I pushed through and got a lot done. Made my bed again! Lol spending lots of time decluttering and in the kitchen preparing healthy meals because all I want to do is eat!
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Hi S45. Our Day 11 is winding down. Today was a good one for me. From the great weather that induced me to dig out my roller blades (I haven't used them in 5 years or so) (I didn't get very far but all my bones are intact, so it was a success), to an out-of-season barbecue at the neighbors' (no just water for me, thanks), to an informal work meeting this evening that someone scheduled at a pub (ditto).
Some of the aforementioned procrastination hits the fan tomorrow afternoon unless I hit the hamster wheel with a vengeance in the morning. Wish me luck. Hope 11 went well for you.
Some of the aforementioned procrastination hits the fan tomorrow afternoon unless I hit the hamster wheel with a vengeance in the morning. Wish me luck. Hope 11 went well for you.
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Originally Posted by jr67
Thanks, wisc and those wisc spoke for.
We appreciate it (right S45?).
We appreciate it (right S45?).
You're doing awesome jr....dusting off the old roller blades like that. And facing the day with vigor even though there are obstacles ahead.
Today i'm feeling grateful for the clear head I have and my confidence in facing things without drink is really growing.
The biggest plus right now is my daughter, I have so much more patience in helping her through her own challenges. I'm solid.
And thank you to those who posted messages of support, it means everything to me!!
Time to check off some work goals.
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And just a quick note for other newbies who may be struggling with anxiety and reading this thread. During xmas this year I was super paranoid about everything to the point of having panic attacks most days. After I quit it got worse but only last for a few days. At the time, I honestly didn't know if it was me or the alcohol. Now I know...it was the booze! I can see now that I was withdrawing from alcohol during the day time at work....because I drank every night. So alcohol was causing the problem I was using alcohol to fix!
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E-hugs, S45, on our Day 13.
Yeah, the roller blades outing on Sunday was cool (did I mention I went no farther than my driveway?). Sometimes enough is enough. (Felt it in my buns today lol.)
Ler's see, what was new on Day 12? Oh yeah, I made a risotto dish to perk up the chicken and brocolli. Love to order risotto when out, but I hadn't made it since, oh, I don't know, about the time I hung up my roller blades. Is there a pattern developing here?
And for 14? Well, first, to bed.
[Quote:]
It's 3 a.m. and there's too much noise,
Don't you people ever go to bed?
[Close quote.]
Ok boomer, who was that?
And new on 14? It's back to winter after a brief hiatus, so no blading. Umm, to the gym for sure, but I've been doing that ... so, .... Dunno. Something will come up, I didn't know I was going to be making risotto till a half hour before it was sizzling in the pan before I started ladling in the broth, so, something will pop up. Or not, is cool. I'll let you know.
And a voice says Hey, hello, how are ya?
Well I guess I'm doin' fine.
Yeah, the roller blades outing on Sunday was cool (did I mention I went no farther than my driveway?). Sometimes enough is enough. (Felt it in my buns today lol.)
Ler's see, what was new on Day 12? Oh yeah, I made a risotto dish to perk up the chicken and brocolli. Love to order risotto when out, but I hadn't made it since, oh, I don't know, about the time I hung up my roller blades. Is there a pattern developing here?
And for 14? Well, first, to bed.
[Quote:]
It's 3 a.m. and there's too much noise,
Don't you people ever go to bed?
[Close quote.]
Ok boomer, who was that?
And new on 14? It's back to winter after a brief hiatus, so no blading. Umm, to the gym for sure, but I've been doing that ... so, .... Dunno. Something will come up, I didn't know I was going to be making risotto till a half hour before it was sizzling in the pan before I started ladling in the broth, so, something will pop up. Or not, is cool. I'll let you know.
And a voice says Hey, hello, how are ya?
Well I guess I'm doin' fine.
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Here we are, Day 13! Oh how I wished I could stay in bed this morning but work it is.
Reflecting on some old notes I have here from my last quit attempt in Sept 2019. I was going strong until Day 12. This what I wrote on my last sober day:
"Huge fight with my daughter last night....yesterday was horrible. Many thoughts of drinking occasionally
. My body is getting so much stronger. My face looks clearer. I can really feel a difference. This biggest issues is going to be travelling because I have never done that without drinking".
I drank every single day after that until Jan 2/20. The "many thought of drinking occasionally" seems to be my demon.
Reflecting on some old notes I have here from my last quit attempt in Sept 2019. I was going strong until Day 12. This what I wrote on my last sober day:
"Huge fight with my daughter last night....yesterday was horrible. Many thoughts of drinking occasionally
. My body is getting so much stronger. My face looks clearer. I can really feel a difference. This biggest issues is going to be travelling because I have never done that without drinking". I drank every single day after that until Jan 2/20. The "many thought of drinking occasionally" seems to be my demon.
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