Snufkin....Snuuuufkin, c'mere.
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(((dear Snuf)))
You are 1000% worth a beautiful, happy and fulfilling sober life. You are worth the world to us.
Keep your plan simple today:
“I will not drink today. I will not change my mind.”
Sending you love. Please stay close.
You are 1000% worth a beautiful, happy and fulfilling sober life. You are worth the world to us.
Keep your plan simple today:
“I will not drink today. I will not change my mind.”
Sending you love. Please stay close.
Marchia in Aeternum
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
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Snuf, in your situation, when you get the urge to drink and know you'll hurt yourself, go to the emergency room and tell them you're going to hurt yourself. They'll help you through it.
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Ohh thank you Trach, you’re so kind... but if I had to go to the ER every time I get the urge, I’d probably have to just sit there all day. 
And if I’m drunk, it’s already too late.
I have to think of something...
I’m just so tired.
And if I’m drunk, it’s already too late.I have to think of something...
I’m just so tired.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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Ehh I don't think it's a good idea... First thing I did after you posted, was to google how much do I have to drink on Antabuse to die.
I think I should start with the meetings again... it's just I'm so anxious it takes me a very, very long time to talk to anyone.
I think I should start with the meetings again... it's just I'm so anxious it takes me a very, very long time to talk to anyone.
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Join Date: Jul 2018
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You know another thing that helped me through some of my darkest moments is the following:
If I want to harm myself or drink or do anything else that is stupid and highly regrettable, I force myself to do something else before. Like I will sit down and journal for an hour and if I stil feel like X then, I can still do it then. Or I go to sleep and if I still really want X tomorrow, I'll do it then. Or I paint for an hour. Or take a nice long bath with a candle on. When you feel like harming yourself in any way, just do something that is good for you instead. And see if that changes your mood in a tiny way at least.
And another thing, make it as hard as possible for you to engage in harmful behaviour. Someone in a meeting once shared that he'd tie his shoes together so if he has a craving it'll just take him those 5 minutes longer to run to the liquor store and every second that is between him and the booze may help him to realise what he's about to do and make it more likely that he might change his mind before it's too late.
Lock all your sharp knifes in a box, bring them to your cellar. Don't keep any cash with you so you can't buy booze so easily. Just do anything that could make it harder for you to do something stupid. It saved me a few times.
If I want to harm myself or drink or do anything else that is stupid and highly regrettable, I force myself to do something else before. Like I will sit down and journal for an hour and if I stil feel like X then, I can still do it then. Or I go to sleep and if I still really want X tomorrow, I'll do it then. Or I paint for an hour. Or take a nice long bath with a candle on. When you feel like harming yourself in any way, just do something that is good for you instead. And see if that changes your mood in a tiny way at least.
And another thing, make it as hard as possible for you to engage in harmful behaviour. Someone in a meeting once shared that he'd tie his shoes together so if he has a craving it'll just take him those 5 minutes longer to run to the liquor store and every second that is between him and the booze may help him to realise what he's about to do and make it more likely that he might change his mind before it's too late.
Lock all your sharp knifes in a box, bring them to your cellar. Don't keep any cash with you so you can't buy booze so easily. Just do anything that could make it harder for you to do something stupid. It saved me a few times.
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Join Date: Jul 2018
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Have you considered going to rehab? Or was that the thing you applied for but the NHS didn't want to pay for?
It's so irresponsible of them to let you deal with this alone. Did you tell your doctor honestly how bad you feel? Or maybe if you actually went to the ER every time you feel like this, they'll get the idea and offer you more help and access to better treatments
It's so irresponsible of them to let you deal with this alone. Did you tell your doctor honestly how bad you feel? Or maybe if you actually went to the ER every time you feel like this, they'll get the idea and offer you more help and access to better treatments
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Yeah... I want to, but I don't know... I have to talk to my manager if I could take some days off now, although August supposed to be like my last month before I leave (I handed in my notice), but now I'm not even sure if I'm moving after all...
Or I could just work till the end of August as planned, leave my stuff here with Mark, stay with my family for a while, first Germany, then Poland, and maybe I will figure something out afterwards.
Edit: Than you Kev & Aly. I'm gonna be fine! I can't afford rehab and can't even get a therapist through NHS. They would probably tell me to call Samaritans or whatever anyway.
Or I could just work till the end of August as planned, leave my stuff here with Mark, stay with my family for a while, first Germany, then Poland, and maybe I will figure something out afterwards.
Edit: Than you Kev & Aly. I'm gonna be fine! I can't afford rehab and can't even get a therapist through NHS. They would probably tell me to call Samaritans or whatever anyway.
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Getting support is very important I think Snuf.
Often we find our strengths by the help of others.
Rehab is a great idea..
Family can offer a safe place to work from, but they are not professionals...and we should not rely on them to be our counselors...
Support to you.
Often we find our strengths by the help of others.
Rehab is a great idea..
Family can offer a safe place to work from, but they are not professionals...and we should not rely on them to be our counselors...
Support to you.
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