Day 27 - Can't do it - about to relapse
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Originally Posted by Peppermintea 
I cannot cope with the anxiety and painful feelings I am experiencing. I literally cannot tolerate these feelings any longer. I am overwhelmed. Maybe I am weak....but I cannot bear the feelings.
and yet have to keep repeating the viscious cycle?
with no relief?
howz about talkin about what is causing the anxiety and pain?
i had days that one day at a time was way too long.
i had to go down to one second at a time.
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Peppermint....hang in there...you will be soooooo Happy in the Morning...stressful days push me to the edge as well...I have been back here so many times I cant count...that is because I gave into that nasty little voice in the past...it is lying.... I know I don't know you but sending hugs to let you know you are not alone. Stay the course! D
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Thank you so so much to everyone who has wrote on here. You have helped me so much. If I can ever help anyone else in the same way I want to be here for you.
I had a run (and walked a bit!). Didn't take any money. Stayed out until after 11pm (UK time)....so the shops are now closed. I got home and had a hot shower. Then drank some water and tidied around my flat for a bit. I feel better. The AV is still asking for drink, but its much weaker now. Much, much weaker.....and its to late to get alcohol now
While running I imagined I was running away from the AV. Running for my life!!
Gosh, that really felt like an emergency situation. I hope I wont have to much more of these...but I might cos im so worried about the potential mental health diagnosis. I need to be prepared next time.
I am seeing the GP tomorrow morning and have a smart meeting tomorrow evening. I might write on this thread at some point tomorrow, just to say how I feel as a result of waking up tomorrow, without having had the drink.
Thank you guys and ladies for getting me through this
I had a run (and walked a bit!). Didn't take any money. Stayed out until after 11pm (UK time)....so the shops are now closed. I got home and had a hot shower. Then drank some water and tidied around my flat for a bit. I feel better. The AV is still asking for drink, but its much weaker now. Much, much weaker.....and its to late to get alcohol now
While running I imagined I was running away from the AV. Running for my life!!
Gosh, that really felt like an emergency situation. I hope I wont have to much more of these...but I might cos im so worried about the potential mental health diagnosis. I need to be prepared next time.
I am seeing the GP tomorrow morning and have a smart meeting tomorrow evening. I might write on this thread at some point tomorrow, just to say how I feel as a result of waking up tomorrow, without having had the drink.
Thank you guys and ladies for getting me through this
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I'm so glad you posted, Pep! I've had too many of those "f-it" moments and the turnout was never good....you did what needed to be done! It's so encouraging to see the support on here as well.....Awesome job, everyone! 
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I was reading this thread again today. It's amazing to me how we've all felt those powerful urges. The ones that just seem to overtake us. I find it awesome that the entire community answered the "911" call for help. I find it even more awesome that you reached out peppermint and LISTENED to the many voices of reason. When I've relapsed on these urges, I did not reach out. Too ashamed, too embarrassed to come here or anywhere really. Kudos again for becoming stronger for fighting your AV. I can imagine you feel so much better and stronger because of it. Great job!
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Just had to come check the thread today Peppermintea...you should be super proud of yourself...for what it's worth I'm proud of you 💜
And also I get goosebumps when I see how many people rallied round and so quickly to provide support...what a fab community 😘
And also I get goosebumps when I see how many people rallied round and so quickly to provide support...what a fab community 😘
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