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Day 27 - Can't do it - about to relapse

Old 07-27-2017, 02:57 PM
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Originally Posted by Peppermintea View Post

I cannot cope with the anxiety and painful feelings I am experiencing. I literally cannot tolerate these feelings any longer. I am overwhelmed. Maybe I am weak....but I cannot bear the feelings.
you are NOT weak! i think what could be the problem there is you, like myself, never faced the feelings?never learned how to cope with them? keep thinkin drinkin takes care of it?
and yet have to keep repeating the viscious cycle?
with no relief?

howz about talkin about what is causing the anxiety and pain?

i had days that one day at a time was way too long.
i had to go down to one second at a time.
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Old 07-27-2017, 03:02 PM
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Peppermint....hang in there...you will be soooooo Happy in the Morning...stressful days push me to the edge as well...I have been back here so many times I cant count...that is because I gave into that nasty little voice in the past...it is lying.... I know I don't know you but sending hugs to let you know you are not alone. Stay the course! D
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Old 07-27-2017, 03:45 PM
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Thank you so so much to everyone who has wrote on here. You have helped me so much. If I can ever help anyone else in the same way I want to be here for you.

I had a run (and walked a bit!). Didn't take any money. Stayed out until after 11pm (UK time)....so the shops are now closed. I got home and had a hot shower. Then drank some water and tidied around my flat for a bit. I feel better. The AV is still asking for drink, but its much weaker now. Much, much weaker.....and its to late to get alcohol now

While running I imagined I was running away from the AV. Running for my life!!

Gosh, that really felt like an emergency situation. I hope I wont have to much more of these...but I might cos im so worried about the potential mental health diagnosis. I need to be prepared next time.

I am seeing the GP tomorrow morning and have a smart meeting tomorrow evening. I might write on this thread at some point tomorrow, just to say how I feel as a result of waking up tomorrow, without having had the drink.

Thank you guys and ladies for getting me through this
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Old 07-27-2017, 03:47 PM
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Well done that's fab
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Old 07-27-2017, 04:06 PM
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I'm absolutely thrilled for you pepperminttea...... you dug deep and my God you got through it!
Bloody brilliant!!!!!!
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Old 07-27-2017, 04:35 PM
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Great job!!
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Old 07-27-2017, 04:37 PM
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Way to go Peppermint!!!!!
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Great job Peppermint! Know that every time you move past the urge, you become stronger...the next time you should feel confident that you are able to get through the craving because you were able to do it tonight.
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Old 07-27-2017, 07:54 PM
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So happy for you! Great job getting through the rough patch! You did just what you needed to do.

Rest well.. you will feel so good in the morning.
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Old 07-27-2017, 07:58 PM
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Awesome job and a strong example. Keeping the run w no money and putting in my tool box!
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While running I imagined I was running away from the AV. Running for my life!!
I love this! Great job, Peppermintea.
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I'm so glad you posted, Pep! I've had too many of those "f-it" moments and the turnout was never good....you did what needed to be done! It's so encouraging to see the support on here as well.....Awesome job, everyone!
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Old 07-28-2017, 03:06 AM
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Well done Peppermint for overcoming the urge. I have been thinking of you. This is only going to make you stronger - Hope the GP appointment has gone ok for you X
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Old 07-28-2017, 04:51 AM
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Hi, Peppermintea how you doing today, good I hope
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Wow, I'm so proud of you! Great job!

How do you feel today?
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Old 07-28-2017, 05:05 AM
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Just reading the thread for first time.. this morning

So proud of you Peppermint !
Also to this community for stepping in..
Powerful !
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Old 07-28-2017, 05:11 AM
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I was reading this thread again today. It's amazing to me how we've all felt those powerful urges. The ones that just seem to overtake us. I find it awesome that the entire community answered the "911" call for help. I find it even more awesome that you reached out peppermint and LISTENED to the many voices of reason. When I've relapsed on these urges, I did not reach out. Too ashamed, too embarrassed to come here or anywhere really. Kudos again for becoming stronger for fighting your AV. I can imagine you feel so much better and stronger because of it. Great job!
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Just had to come check the thread today Peppermintea...you should be super proud of yourself...for what it's worth I'm proud of you 💜

And also I get goosebumps when I see how many people rallied round and so quickly to provide support...what a fab community 😘
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I'm glad you stayed strong PT. And well done on posting here when the urges struck.
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