Thank you so so much to everyone who has wrote on here. You have helped me so much. If I can ever help anyone else in the same way I want to be here for you.
I had a run (and walked a bit!). Didn't take any money. Stayed out until after 11pm (UK time)....so the shops are now closed. I got home and had a hot shower. Then drank some water and tidied around my flat for a bit. I feel better. The AV is still asking for drink, but its much weaker now. Much, much weaker.....and its to late to get alcohol now
While running I imagined I was running away from the AV. Running for my life!!
Gosh, that really felt like an emergency situation. I hope I wont have to much more of these...but I might cos im so worried about the potential mental health diagnosis. I need to be prepared next time.
I am seeing the GP tomorrow morning and have a smart meeting tomorrow evening. I might write on this thread at some point tomorrow, just to say how I feel as a result of waking up tomorrow, without having had the drink.
Thank you guys and ladies for getting me through this