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Old 07-27-2017, 02:11 PM
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Day 27 - Can't do it - about to relapse

I am about to get dressed and go to the shops to buy wine.

I cannot cope with the anxiety and painful feelings I am experiencing. I literally cannot tolerate these feelings any longer. I am overwhelmed. Maybe I am weak....but I cannot bear the feelings. I just can't. Only a drink will give me relief. Just one. I am visualizing it now. I can only think in the short term at this moment in time. I know I am not being rational, but I think I have already made my mind up
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:14 PM
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Please dont pick up
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I felt the same way on Monday. However, I fast forwarded in my mind to the next morning ...reminding myself of the awful hangovers, stupid social media posts, arguments etc... and decided to wait the urge through.
I was so happy I did. Hopefully you will as well.
Remember - you're not alone here.
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:15 PM
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Keep talking on here or pm me and we can talk but dont drink
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Play the tape through!! I know how strong and powerful that inner voice can be. It's not you, it's your AV that's playing tricks on you! Can you go out for a run or walk, grab a bite to eat, drink a big glass of water, binge on ice cream!
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Well done for posting Peppermintea 💜 there is obviously a part of you which knows that drinking will only result in great anxiety in the long run...please listen to it x
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:17 PM
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If I can just hold on 40 minutes the shop will be closed. Im in the UK. I just need to wait 40 minutes.
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Nooooo!! Stay with us, we're here, don't drink tonight, that's all u need to think of right now. All the booze will do is make u feel worse tomo, uve done so well!!!
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:19 PM
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ok 40 mins not a problem, lets chat
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:20 PM
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Just think how bad you will feel in the morning spoiling your 27 day run. You are worth more - Stay strong X
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Old 07-27-2017, 02:20 PM
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Originally Posted by Peppermintea View Post
If I can just hold on 40 minutes the shop will be closed. Im in the UK. I just need to wait 40 minutes.
That's it Peppermintea...just take it one minute at a time x
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What did you think of girl on the train
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Originally Posted by Behappy1 View Post
Play the tape through!! I know how strong and powerful that inner voice can be. It's not you, it's your AV that's playing tricks on you! Can you go out for a run or walk, grab a bite to eat, drink a big glass of water, binge on ice cream!
Im going to go for a run. Right now. Its dark out (10.25pm) but safer to run than risk drinking. Will run away from home for 20 mins. Then run back. Won't take money. Gonna get ready now before I change my mind.

OMG this is the worst day so far. It was easy, now suddenly so hard
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Originally Posted by Mummyto2 View Post
What did you think of girl on the train
Still watching it. Have to keep rewinding and replaying cos my concentration is terrible. Im going to go for run right now. Will check in again when im back xx
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That's it brilliant run that AV away
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Yessss, get some fresh air & get through it, u can do it!!!
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I have just read that you are seeing the GP tomorrow - you don't want to have to tell her you relapsed after you have been so good. Please don't run to the shop. Its 1030pm in the UK - its too late to start drinking anyway X
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The same thing happened to me Sunday. I had 9 days sober. I've never even been able to go 3 days in almost 10 years. Anxiety creeped in and I needed that relief. But I didn't get the relief after I drank. I felt WORSE!!!
Please don't do it! You'll feel so much better once this passes. It WILL pass.
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Hang in there Pepper.. you can do it! For yourself. We are cheering you on!
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take a nice long hot shower - give your skin a good scrub, exfoliate as if your life depends on it! this helps to put you more back in touch with your BODY and less in your BRAIN. it also rejuvenates and revitalizes your skin, largest organ in the our body. then you'll be all pink and tingly, refreshed AND relaxed, and ready for some pj's and a good night's sleep.
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