Peppermintea

I am about to get dressed and go to the shops to buy wine.

I cannot cope with the anxiety and painful feelings I am experiencing. I literally cannot tolerate these feelings any longer. I am overwhelmed. Maybe I am weak....but I cannot bear the feelings. I just can't. Only a drink will give me relief. Just one. I am visualizing it now. I can only think in the short term at this moment in time. I know I am not being rational, but I think I have already made my mind up

Mummyto2

Please dont pick up

Flinders39

I felt the same way on Monday. However, I fast forwarded in my mind to the next morning ...reminding myself of the awful hangovers, stupid social media posts, arguments etc... and decided to wait the urge through.
I was so happy I did. Hopefully you will as well.
Remember - you're not alone here.

Mummyto2

Keep talking on here or pm me and we can talk but dont drink

Behappy1

Play the tape through!! I know how strong and powerful that inner voice can be. It's not you, it's your AV that's playing tricks on you! Can you go out for a run or walk, grab a bite to eat, drink a big glass of water, binge on ice cream!

nova84

Well done for posting Peppermintea 💜 there is obviously a part of you which knows that drinking will only result in great anxiety in the long run...please listen to it x

Peppermintea

If I can just hold on 40 minutes the shop will be closed. Im in the UK. I just need to wait 40 minutes.

loulou1981

Nooooo!! Stay with us, we're here, don't drink tonight, that's all u need to think of right now. All the booze will do is make u feel worse tomo, uve done so well!!!

Mummyto2

ok 40 mins not a problem, lets chat

Susiegirl

Just think how bad you will feel in the morning spoiling your 27 day run. You are worth more - Stay strong X

nova84

That's it Peppermintea...just take it one minute at a time x

Mummyto2

What did you think of girl on the train

Peppermintea

Im going to go for a run. Right now. Its dark out (10.25pm) but safer to run than risk drinking. Will run away from home for 20 mins. Then run back. Won't take money. Gonna get ready now before I change my mind.

OMG this is the worst day so far. It was easy, now suddenly so hard

Peppermintea

Still watching it. Have to keep rewinding and replaying cos my concentration is terrible. Im going to go for run right now. Will check in again when im back xx

Mummyto2

That's it brilliant run that AV away

loulou1981

Yessss, get some fresh air & get through it, u can do it!!!

Susiegirl

I have just read that you are seeing the GP tomorrow - you don't want to have to tell her you relapsed after you have been so good. Please don't run to the shop. Its 1030pm in the UK - its too late to start drinking anyway X

Sdjfam

The same thing happened to me Sunday. I had 9 days sober. I've never even been able to go 3 days in almost 10 years. Anxiety creeped in and I needed that relief. But I didn't get the relief after I drank. I felt WORSE!!!
Please don't do it! You'll feel so much better once this passes. It WILL pass.
❤️❤️❤️❤️

tealily

Hang in there Pepper.. you can do it! For yourself. We are cheering you on!

AnvilheadII

take a nice long hot shower - give your skin a good scrub, exfoliate as if your life depends on it! this helps to put you more back in touch with your BODY and less in your BRAIN. it also rejuvenates and revitalizes your skin, largest organ in the our body. then you'll be all pink and tingly, refreshed AND relaxed, and ready for some pj's and a good night's sleep.