Lightning Bug

Thank you. I know this is the right decision. It is just a scary unknown time. And I am terrified of not seeing my kids.

Lightning Bug

I can't believe i a am laying in bed with someone who wants me gone. In the last week he told me at least ten times to get out. But there he is laying there all happy and restful while i am awake and fuming at his insensitivities. Just an hour ago he said there was nothing saving us. Yet here i am in the bed. I wish my couch didn't hurt my back. I feel sick sleeping so close to someone who hates me.

trachemys

i can't believe you are, either. Leave.

Soberandhealthy

my husband is a good guy. im the problem.

Lightning Bug

You are so right. Now i am crying (which I rarely do) and the comfort i expect from my husband is nothing more than the snoring of the enemy.

I can't wait until the 15th.

trachemys

Best of luck on the 15th!

Lightning Bug

I hate to say this but the is the first time in 27 days I want to drink. I won't. But i want to.

trachemys

No drinking. We don't do that here. If nothing else, just go to sleep. Tomorrow will be better.

Upward2Enlightenment

You don't want to drink ... he will throw it in your face and say he was right.

Lightning Bug

He told me that if he ever saw me drinking he would pack the kids in the car and I would never see them again. So yeah, drinking would be a bad thing.

Upward2Enlightenment

I agree with what melki said, you definitely need to see a lawyer. I don't really know your situation but I highly doubt that he can keep you from seeing your children.

Best wishes.

fantail

I'm so sorry. What a painful mess.

I agree to see a lawyer before you move out. Given how aggressive he's planning to be about custody, I would check every major decision with an attorney from here on out.

Hang in there.

FarToGo

Lots of luck and hugs to you! Don't worry about the 15th, it's the start of something much better.
My escape date is the 4th, we can do this!
xx

ccam1973

Stay strong during all of this Earthsteps. Reach out to us if you feel like you are caving and drinking is becoming an option for you.

Bottom line, don't let your husband win. If you drink because of the situation, he wins. You deserve better, your kids deserve a sober mom who can reason and navigate her way through these temporary obstacles.

Congrats on your days sober, keep up the good work. Like the other's have said, you have us now. You're not alone in this.

Stay strong, stay positive and stick to your plan.

melki

How are you today?

thomas11

how is going today ES?

Bellamiaa

Hey ES. I know how you feel and just want to say I'm sorry this is happening but it WILL get better when you leave. You cannot begin to heal still around him. Thinking of you and I hope you check in soon xo

Lightning Bug

I am amazingly proactive. I have set up appointments to see some apartments. Thinkng positive.

fred59

hang in there earthsteps hopefully you find a good recovery group and a good therapist stay connected to SR we care

thomas11

It's unfortunate what you are going through (seperation), because its hard on everyone, especially your kids. But in time, hopefully things will be all for the better.