No Complacency Weekender May 20th
saoutchik
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I helped my elderly neighbours install a new fridge this evening (it amounted to little more than plugging it in).
In return they have just fed me most of the contents of the old fridge. They are from the Lebanon so it was delicious even though I don't know what most of it was called. What with the daytime chocolate I have probably equalled bims 4000 calories today
In return they have just fed me most of the contents of the old fridge. They are from the Lebanon so it was delicious even though I don't know what most of it was called. What with the daytime chocolate I have probably equalled bims 4000 calories today
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
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Quick check in and I'm curious if Ven said anything about the dinner last night??? Now that I think about it, was that last night or is it tonight? anyway...Ven, update please!! 
My day just got busier and that's fine by me! Friend is spending the night and then I'm babysitting all day tomorrow!. Yes Melina...take the day off from thinking about alcoholism! We got free of it so we could live our lives yay! 
Xo
My day just got busier and that's fine by me! Friend is spending the night and then I'm babysitting all day tomorrow!
. Yes Melina...take the day off from thinking about alcoholism! We got free of it so we could live our lives yay! Xo
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Originally Posted by mecanix 
complacency ,
arrogance to think i'm centre of the universe ,
rushing in to solve problems ,
working too hard ,
not working enough ,
running the past through my head thinking about what i should have said or did feeling those emotions re-run over me again , a furrow i let time and self absorption dig deep and plough through my psyche ,
projecting into the future and seeing death, hardship and old age, making myself feel inadequate and worried now about not doing enough , adding pressure to work harder , try harder .
Thinking this , thinking that ,
Far too much thinking going on, not enough being and doing .
You are welcome to your sober weekend ,
m
arrogance to think i'm centre of the universe ,
rushing in to solve problems ,
working too hard ,
not working enough ,
running the past through my head thinking about what i should have said or did feeling those emotions re-run over me again , a furrow i let time and self absorption dig deep and plough through my psyche ,
projecting into the future and seeing death, hardship and old age, making myself feel inadequate and worried now about not doing enough , adding pressure to work harder , try harder .
Thinking this , thinking that ,
Far too much thinking going on, not enough being and doing .
You are welcome to your sober weekend ,
m
It really is dark and lonely when I'm there.
You nailed it, mecanix. I feel like you peeked in my brain and saw the shell of the woman behind the curtain, behind the show. Frantically thinking of witty things to say and certain things to do so I "look" good.
What helps this? Therapy? Drinking certainly didn't.
I want to learn self care without arrogance and self absorption. Gratitude instead of entitlement. Etc etc. At least I would like to flip it from my default of 80/20 heavy on the negatives to 20/80.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: PA
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I've come to the realization that I must hire a full time gardener... wait - that's supposed to be me...
had a quick 'lunch' and deciding whether or not to just say heck it and go fishing...
I wish I had some Lebanon Bologna right now - A summer sausage sandwich with mustard = food of the gods...
I grew up on that stuff... best pack along on a hot day sandwich tho... add cheese if you are high brow...
what is Lebanon Bologna you ask?
The Pennsylvania Center for the Book - Lebanon Bologna
seltzer's is the best... not the sweet bologna - the red label stuff...
had a quick 'lunch' and deciding whether or not to just say heck it and go fishing...
I wish I had some Lebanon Bologna right now - A summer sausage sandwich with mustard = food of the gods...
I grew up on that stuff... best pack along on a hot day sandwich tho... add cheese if you are high brow...what is Lebanon Bologna you ask?
The Pennsylvania Center for the Book - Lebanon Bologna
seltzer's is the best... not the sweet bologna - the red label stuff...
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Canada
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Hi!
Just finished reading through xoxo
Lots of good thoughts and posts!
I'm not sure if I'm complacent or what I am.
I'm definitely the weak link sober wise compared to other weekenders.
But I'm not bothering with it today, today is just today and I'm happy.
Just finished reading through xoxo
Lots of good thoughts and posts!
I'm not sure if I'm complacent or what I am.
I'm definitely the weak link sober wise compared to other weekenders.
But I'm not bothering with it today, today is just today and I'm happy.
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Join Date: Nov 2014
Location: Canada
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Well I finally broke down and told my friend about the guy seeing his ex behind her back- I felt like I was lying to her by omission, had to tell.
She emailed the other woman and it turns out he's been both of their boyfriend for the last year.
Wouldn't want to be him today.....
She emailed the other woman and it turns out he's been both of their boyfriend for the last year.
Wouldn't want to be him today.....
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