Class of October 2015
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Join Date: Oct 2015
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My "take or leave booze" friend who is with me this weekend forgot all about my momentous decision to get sober, and opened two beers to bring out to the patio. Awkward! But she laughed, apologized and proceeded to drink them both. I still feel a little...I don't know...unnerved, "drove up". But I am okay.
I still really WANT sober more than I want a beer, and I still feel a lot of solid fear of drink. So. So far so good. I'll eat dinner and go to bed early. I've lost a lot of weight last few months, and have to remember to eat.
I still really WANT sober more than I want a beer, and I still feel a lot of solid fear of drink. So. So far so good. I'll eat dinner and go to bed early. I've lost a lot of weight last few months, and have to remember to eat.
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I understand Helpimalive. With too much 'space' in my mind, I can get completely overwhelmed in my thoughts. Having a good plan helps limit that space. I'm also really working on changing my thinking.....but early days it helps me not to think toooooo much....hence the list!
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I am writing this with my head hung low. I drank last night. Day 1 all over again. I need to get to AA or something. I can't figure out how to not turn to alcohol when i have a bad day, or am stressed, bored etc. I feel like this is also so hard because my husband is an alcoholic too. He wants to quit just as much as me but we are bad for each other when it comes to drinking. We talk each other in to doing it which is pretty easy to do when you are a drunk.
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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Going to bed sober..... full of too much chocolate and food, but sober.
needtostopthis - I agree, AA can help (or another group). I need to do this myself - find some outside support system. Like Women for Sobriety; I used to go to that. I wish you well and I hope that you can find something that works for you!!
Goodnight everyone!
needtostopthis - I agree, AA can help (or another group). I need to do this myself - find some outside support system. Like Women for Sobriety; I used to go to that. I wish you well and I hope that you can find something that works for you!!
Goodnight everyone!
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Join Date: Jan 2015
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Good night! I used to dread every new morning up through late afternoon when the hangover would subside. So looking forward to a good night's sleep (not merely passed out) and a sober breakfast. Life is great without that liquid poison.
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Originally Posted by needtostopthis 
I am writing this with my head hung low. I drank last night. Day 1 all over again. I need to get to AA or something. I can't figure out how to not turn to alcohol when i have a bad day, or am stressed, bored etc. I feel like this is also so hard because my husband is an alcoholic too. He wants to quit just as much as me but we are bad for each other when it comes to drinking. We talk each other in to doing it which is pretty easy to do when you are a drunk.
You can do it though, it just takes some work!
Xoxo
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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Morning all from sunny England. Day 3 completed, though I didn't find it a breeze, constant nagging in my head, but managed to get through it. Slept okay but feel quite tired this morning, have put my gym kit on, but not sure if I will actually make it.
Welcome SansaS, this is a great place to start, great people who will really help you through this, no one judges we all understand.
Needtostopthis - we have all been there, and we are all struggling on a hourly basis, don't hang your head - you know you can do this, just start again today, we are all here. Good luck.
Welcome SansaS, this is a great place to start, great people who will really help you through this, no one judges we all understand.
Needtostopthis - we have all been there, and we are all struggling on a hourly basis, don't hang your head - you know you can do this, just start again today, we are all here. Good luck.
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Originally Posted by SansaS
Hi everyone, can I join in here please? My day 1 starts tomorrow
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Nice work everyone......proud of you all for getting through another day!
Yesterday was a rough one. I was achy and tired and actually thought (shocker!) some Jameson would take care of that. Then, the wife wanted pizza which is right next to the liquor store, but fortunately I had already crushed the AV by then.
What helped me was playing the tape and realizing what a few hours of "what I think is content, fun and relaxing" will be all gone come morning time. And then comes the regret, thinking, I could be on day (5), not again!! And then the natural alcoholic urge to wait for the liquor stores to open because what is the point, I drank last night.
Furthermore, I actually played the other tape. The remorse tape of having to let my SR colleagues know that I drank. And then thinking, I cannot even do that and stepping away from SR for a while again.
So, thanks for your stories everyone. By reading them and building the relationship, I felt accountable. I often feel I'm not helping anyone on here if I pound my chest about sobriety and never drinking again. I've felt this way before on my SR journeys and it helped me through another day.
Thanks Class of Octsober!
Yesterday was a rough one. I was achy and tired and actually thought (shocker!) some Jameson would take care of that. Then, the wife wanted pizza which is right next to the liquor store, but fortunately I had already crushed the AV by then.
What helped me was playing the tape and realizing what a few hours of "what I think is content, fun and relaxing" will be all gone come morning time. And then comes the regret, thinking, I could be on day (5), not again!! And then the natural alcoholic urge to wait for the liquor stores to open because what is the point, I drank last night.
Furthermore, I actually played the other tape. The remorse tape of having to let my SR colleagues know that I drank. And then thinking, I cannot even do that and stepping away from SR for a while again.
So, thanks for your stories everyone. By reading them and building the relationship, I felt accountable. I often feel I'm not helping anyone on here if I pound my chest about sobriety and never drinking again. I've felt this way before on my SR journeys and it helped me through another day.
Thanks Class of Octsober!
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I'm gonna join this class. I joined one back in June or July and kept soberish (no more than one drink a day and no pills) for a month. The next two months went down hill after that.
Anyways, I'm starting day 4 and am mainly struggling with the anxiety and boredom. The first couple weeks just drag on.... I'll post more when I'm at an actual computer. Have a good day ya'll!
Anyways, I'm starting day 4 and am mainly struggling with the anxiety and boredom. The first couple weeks just drag on.... I'll post more when I'm at an actual computer. Have a good day ya'll!
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Welcome walk, and sansa! Happy Sunday all.
Needto, I've been there too often to count. Its disappointing, for sure, but start fresh again today. We have to keep trying, till we get it right.
Its a beautiful day here, after a gloomy, rainy week. I plan on doing something fun today, and good for myself. Perhaps a walk? No reason not too.
Hope everyone has a good day, or evening, wherever you hail from!
Needto, I've been there too often to count. Its disappointing, for sure, but start fresh again today. We have to keep trying, till we get it right.
Its a beautiful day here, after a gloomy, rainy week. I plan on doing something fun today, and good for myself. Perhaps a walk? No reason not too.
Hope everyone has a good day, or evening, wherever you hail from!
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Welcome to all the new people!
I'm just going to head to down the river with my fishing rod and symposium to read.
I might go to AA for a speaker series tonight, I don't really go to AA, but I like listening to speakers
I'm just going to head to down the river with my fishing rod and symposium to read.
I might go to AA for a speaker series tonight, I don't really go to AA, but I like listening to speakers
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Originally Posted by Jsbodhi
I made it, no booze. Yaaay! I only felt like getting wine about 12 times, so it wasn't an all day obsession.
I had a good day though!
I had a good day though!
That's about how many times I considered as well. Though I cannot figure out if that is a lot or not. I guess I'm so used to the battles!
What's your take?
In the grand scheme of a day, I think that we did pretty well.
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