ChristineC

Does it sound like I don't really give a sheeeeet right now? Thinking this is a joke? Well you know, I'm pretty much sick of it. I'm sick of dwelling on my alcoholism at this point, today anyway.

I can't cry anymore so I laugh.

1_day@_a_time

We can ALL get sick of it. BUT, just HOW did we get here anyway? Perhaps there were some questionable decisions along the way? Maybe we should change the way we handle things?

Christine, what have you done about getting a sponsor?

T

ChristineC

Ink Pink I Stink......well not really.

Hi all,

Sober today, go figure . I have a wedding to go to. I'll be a good little lady. No drinking and stumbling all over the place. That wouldn't be a very good picture...."Knock out, knocked out!!"

Hope everyone is doing well.

Peace Out.

Christine

1_day@_a_time

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2dayzmuse

Christine are you aware your missing? Well you are. You're now considered AWOL. You must report back ASAP. :nono:

Talia

ChristineC

:banghead:

peace2u

Christine,
How's that knot on your head?

ChristineC

Tight!

I'm ready to blow.... :headache:

peace2u

Well...I certainly wish you would!! My head hurts watching you go through it!
You look as if you're ready to donate blood...and I mean all 7 pints at one time!

ChristineC

OK, now I'm laughing...........

ChristineC

I've lost my focus. I met someone and I thought it was going to work....meaning me staying sober, but it hasn't. And I'm so effin' MAD. I'm not depressed or hurt or any of the ******** emotions I usually feel coming off a drunk. I'm EFFIN' MAD. This is not how it is suppose to be. I told this person, he knew, he said he would support me, he said he wanted a different life. But progressively, over the past month I've been drinking more and more. I drank 2 Sat.s ago, I drank last Wed., I drank on Friday, I drank on Sat. and there I went again last night!!! I WAS moving forward. I WAS going to meetings (daily, I might add), I WAS working the steps, I WAS feeling GREAT! And now I'm back right at the beginning. I quit going to meetings because I felt like an effin' idiot. Oh ya, I'm an alcoholic but still drinking like a muther *****!! What kind of hypocric (how ever you spell that) am I?

I'm going to a meeting today. I'm going back to my daily meetings again. Screw this!! And this person, he can get with MY program or take a flyin' leap!!!

You asked....LOL. Ok, I'm feeling better. These boards work wonders.

Thanks for reading.

peace2u

And if I ever see that stinkin' rat around here again...I'll kick his you know what!

ChristineC

First meeting in 3 weeks. Was good one. I've landed AGAIN back on earth.

No more La La Land for this Chic!

peace2u

I love the way you do the things you do! :heart:

1_day@_a_time

In men's stags we say "There is a slip under every skirt"..........not sure how to reverse the words, but I'm confident you ladies can come up with something!

Christine, now sure how to say it, but it's not really a surprise......that does not lessen how much we love you........be selfish!

No, really........

T

ChristineC

Good Day All,

Today is a day. I thought my mental stability would be better today. NOPE!!

WHAT-EV-A!!!

Meeting at noon and prayer meeting tonight. I'm going home finally after about 3 weeks of spending time with the new beau. Trying to re-group. All I know is that I'm glad I found out in about 3 weeks how my life can go from controlled, somewhat for that matter, to right off the wall.

Usually this would take oh........about 6 months. Something totally devestating would happen through my binging and I would crawl back into an AA meeting. This was fast.........so I guess I did learn something and am still learning.

Hopefully in a couple days I'll be glowing again

Wuv Me.

Brookie

Welcome back (((Christine))).

ChristineC

Feeling a little bit of that GLOW today.....tomorrow it will be back in full force.

Going to my noon meeting, will be there shortly. I hope it's a REALLY good one.

Glad to be back is all I know.

Wuv Me

1_day@_a_time

Good to hear from you...........what are you doing differently?

ChristineC

What am I doing differently? Nothing. I'm doing what I was before, putting ME first.

No one gets my pedestal anymore.

Great meeting at lunch and I'm not the only one who thought that. A couple people mentioned it was one of the BEST meeting they've been to. I needed a really good meeting today.

I just went to Booster Juice. I got a Red Sunrise (freshly made carrot, apple and beet juice) and 2 shots of wheatgrass...........FEEL THE LOVE BABY!!!

Maybe that glow is gonna come today....LOL. I'm off to the boxing club after work to beat up a bag....

Peace Out All

Christine