I just gave up.
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I posted before I'd even read page 4 - I'm actually a little teary! (hayfever 
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Lol Trimixer, pretty much spot on as to why I didn't post.
I really am so touched by you all.
You can kick my bum now and say get a grip
)Lol Trimixer, pretty much spot on as to why I didn't post.
I really am so touched by you all.
You can kick my bum now and say get a grip
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Originally Posted by Received 
Just like a third cousin, twice removed, we just keep showing up! Annoying buggers, aren't we?
I did write bugger there, but it all looked so very wrong.
Glad to be back.
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MTN..No judgements here sister. We are all in the same boat (shipwreck) together. One step back 10 steps forward that is what i say. Drink the coffee gallons of it if you need to. Get your plan back on track.
Today is another day ,,, and as they say you never have to feel like this again.
Being honest and doing something about it is Awesome.
You can do it!!!
Today is another day ,,, and as they say you never have to feel like this again.
Being honest and doing something about it is Awesome.
You can do it!!!
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Originally Posted by MyTimeNow
Needless to say I was feeling none too clever yesterday but as promised, paracetamol, grin on and up and out. We did stick to the garden and did some digging, chopping, frog hunting.
It was lovely to get up this morning and be in the shower at 7 and walking with DD to nursery at 8 in the sunshine.
On Saturday at my Mum's I was having a weird one - we're booking a May Day bank holiday weekend away somewhere for me & kids, mum and partner and brother and his 2 children. It's going to be lovely. But all I could think about was come 6pm they'll crack the wine open. They know I can't drink for toffee, but they also know I can drink in moderation with them (a form of self torture for me - he's had more than me, is that it? Shouldn't we get another couple of bottles? Humph and off to bed in a bit of a sulk. I know you guys know) but I didn't want them to feel awkward or not drink, so I'd already convinced myself that I'd go through the moderation torture for 3 nights... eh??
Anyway.
what did i miss there? i sounds to me like they are planning a weekend with alcohol and this will be tempting to you?
did i get that or miss something?
also, the frogs & worms & bugs thing with your little one is cute. i only wish i something like that to get sober, that's a great reason.
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Originally Posted by ntmu
what did i miss there? i sounds to me like they are planning a weekend with alcohol and this will be tempting to you?
did i get that or miss something?
also, the frogs & worms & bugs thing with your little one is cute. i only wish i something like that to get sober, that's a great reason.
did i get that or miss something?
also, the frogs & worms & bugs thing with your little one is cute. i only wish i something like that to get sober, that's a great reason.
Not temptation at all. More annoyance, annoyance only that I'm in this situation and it shouldn't even be an issue on a family holiday.
I know I'd rather have zero alcohol than 2 or 3 glasses of wine only to wonder where the next bottle is coming from. It's just something that jumped out at me. It won't be an issue. If I say I'm not drinking they won't try and tempt me. It will be an unspoken - wow!
But all this though about it in my head 2 months before it has even happened is the issue for me.
Hope you are on the up too ntmu
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Originally Posted by Jimuk
Hang in there MTN, great words of advice here which I also have taken onboard. Hope you feel happier soon hun, big hugs to you.
This is my day 2 again so let's crack this together once and for all. X
This is my day 2 again so let's crack this together once and for all. X
Big hugs to you too my old friend
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Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast
No need to be sheepish. We've all been there,done that bought the t-shirt etc
Coming back and starting again is brave and a good thing to dox
Coming back and starting again is brave and a good thing to do
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Mtn-
Yay... you are back... I am so glad. Jess
Yay... you are back... I am so glad. Jess
I know recovery isn't about making friends and being all hearts and flowers, BUT... I really have 'met' the most wonderful people here and that's where some of the shame comes from... feeling like I let everybody down.
I'm just me though. I think (I think... cue Robby lol) That I maybe need to step back from some of the more emotional posts and concentrate on myself. I like to help and give my experience, but I get too emotional about it. Get too drawn in. Think too much...
I need to make those changes for myself to continue posting and to continue posting positively.
I know I have made - I hope - lifelong friends. But if I'm not about so much it's because I am trying to be more 'clinical' ...
that's never going to work - I'm all heart or nothing!
Ok... thinks again...
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Originally Posted by Fallow
Hey MTN just wanted to say hello!
Maybe it is time to give up in the other direction?
You be good and take care of yourself
Maybe it is time to give up in the other direction?
You be good and take care of yourself
Are you meaning AA? It can't happen as it is only 8pm meets in my town.
I did do an online AA meet though a few weeks ago as I am open minded to anything. I enjoyed it and by the time I did my ! to talk... meeting ended
TBH that wasn't for me either. I sat for an hour and watched people type their stories. I enjoyed the politeness, the patience, the thanks, the listening and I think they are all basic manners... I posses empathy and listening skills - It just wasn't for me.My mind is quite clinical and scientific anyway. I would never knock something though until I've tried it.
I'm so glad to see you well X
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Originally Posted by Pamel
MTN, great to see you keep posting!
Beware the "moderation" stuff. Maybe people succeed at it but me? NEVER!! That said, good luck and hang in here, Pamel.
Beware the "moderation" stuff. Maybe people succeed at it but me? NEVER!! That said, good luck and hang in here, Pamel.
No I know I couldn't do it - and if I tried it would be personal torture as I said. It's ridiculous that it became such a big problem in my head really (or not!)
I hated the facts that the thoughts were there in the first place and I had no way of rationalising them.
This is a 3 day break away. I won't drink and moderation never enters my head in my day to day life as I know it is impossible.
It was just that plus a package of Hungarian sausage and wine... resolve crumbled - sense went out of the window. I sound like I'm making excuses now... I guess I am. There is no excuse.
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