FreeFall

Ken, I'm sorry you're dealing with this-please know that you're not alone and you have lots of friends here to help you through this. It sounds like it's been a horrible experience. I hope your eye is okay and will heal quickly!

You will get through this, and come out on the other side wiser and armed with new resolve-your pattern is to get back on the horse and I'm sure that will continue. How are things with your partner this morning?

Weasel1966

Live in the solution. If any drunk knew what that was we would all be better.

I am going to stop fighting. I take swings in the air with anger. I hate being gay. I hate that I am alone.

I am going to go back to AA. I will not drink today.

I have no idea what to do. I have this paperwork from the hospital. Wow. Wow

BabyJane

Ken so sorry to hear that you are struggling but every day above ground is another chance. Nothing will change unless you change your life drastically but I know it can be done. I hope you heal quickly. It will be ok. Tell yourself you're going to quit for good this time and do it.

Weasel1966

With all my heart.... Thank you.

MIRecovery

Going to AA and not drinking today is a very good and very obtainable goal and you are living in the solution. I would suggest trying for 90 meetings in 90 days and not drinking between meetings.

If you do this you will find things are a whole lot better than they are this morning

Thepatman

Ken! I'm so sorry about all you are going trough!
You were doing really good with sobriety. You can get back on the saddle friend!

I know it's hard not to but please don't beat yourself up over this! We will carry you, talk to us! We don't judge you at all

Weasel1966

My face hurts so dame bad. My eye swelled shut.

I will be fine. Ya know why? Because I will stay sober.

I was such an ******* last night. I was out of control.

I will NOT drink today. Or tomorrow.

Fallow

I know the feeling

Weasel1966

I have to see a plastic surgeon.

I can see what needs to happen. I understand that this is not ok. I will get better.

I am an eternal optimist.

Lol with a broken nose. OMG,!!

Fandy

Ken, I'm so sorry to read this...the last time I read a post from you yesterday? were very upbeat and positive, i thought you were fairly well rooted in your sobriety....but what's done can't be undone.

regarding your nose/eye...see a good ENT....your nose should probably be reset before the bone heals and has to be rebroken, not just for asthetics, but to keep you from developing further problems with breathing and your sinuses. i'm speaking from an accident (non-alcohol) where i had to undergo this surgery.

take care, I hope you feel better.

Hevyn

Ken - We love you. You have understanding and compassion here, & we get relapse.

You can get back to where you were before - you will heal again. This time I think you will be more determined, like I was the last time I thought I could have 'a few'. That's when I got my 3rd dui. All doubt was removed that I could EVER touch the stuff again. So maybe that's where you'll be now. You don't have to turn into your evil twin ever again.

Don't stop talking to us - we care, and we know you can do this. Your humor and optimism will see you through, and lead you to a brighter day.

Weasel1966

I will never give up. I just say f it. I drank a whole bottle. I wanted to give up. It all let loose.

If I did not care I would not be here.

Lol... I keep finding new sore spots.

All my neighbors were watching me on the gurney. Can you even believe that?

Hmmmm

Someguy23

Hey Weasel,

I'm really sorry to hear about this. Really.

I would strongly recommend you have a doctor look at your nose and monitor its healing a little.

I got my nose broken a few years back. Being 19 I was still indestructible at the time, so I figured I'd just walk it off. Still have a little piece of bone jutting out at a weird angle near the top of the nose and for all practical purposes I breathe through one nostril (1.3 max).

Take care of yourself.

Weasel1966

I punched a cop in the face. Lol I am not a big guy... But scrappy.

Ok... My sense of humor kicks in. I am sitting in the dark bedroom cuz I don't want to see my face.

I am strong. You have no idea.

FreeFall

I've always loved this quote “Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.” Oprah Winfrey Substitute day for year and I think it applies here. It's a new day, it's going to be better than yesterday. You can take steps to ensure there will not be a repeat of yesterday.

I was thinking of the post you wrote about Facebook and remember thinking how funny it would be if everyone posted their reality on Facebook for a change. Status "Ran out of the ER in my underwear. Dang it was cold" accompanied by picture of Ken with black eye flashing a peace sign lol I know, it's not funny, but sometimes finding a small piece of humor in a bad situation lets you know you're going to recover and move forward.

Xune

That cop is a person and didn't go to work that day hoping someone would punch him in the face.

You are going on and on about you...but what about the person you punched in the face?

How are they doing and feeling?

Empathy.

hope22

Ken I'm so sorry to hear what happened, please stay strong. Did something trigger you to drink?

Weasel1966

I cannot believe that I posted this.

Trigger? I just stopped.

Weasel1966

I am sorry. That's not the way I feel. I know what you are saying to me but its hard to hear.

escapist

I feel so bad for you. It's over. Now you have new problems to solve. Fandy is on it about your nose. Please take her advice. You don't have a lot of time to think about. I know I would'nt feel like it but you have to keep moving forward. I am so sorry you are in this situation.