Weasel1966

M.... Thank you so much. I am hurting right now. I have reached a point. A definitive point.

I can only see out of one eye. Are you kidding me? This is not ken.

You all have been great to help me like this.

What goes down must come up. Always.

Mark75

Go back and try to answer the question of why you took that first drink... Sometimes there is none. Sometimes there is no thought. Just a mental blank spot.

You got some work to do... get back to AA, call your sponsor. And uh, keep coming back... You'll get this, but you may have more work to do more, or do some things differently...

I'm pullin' for ya!

Dave42001

Hang in there, friend!! Take it one day at a time!! You'll get through this!!

Weasel1966

Yes... There is work to do.

I will only get better from here.

If I don't try.... If I give up.... No.

Why did I drink? It was a blank spot. I drank so much that I was not able to say a word. I remember being carted off. Police where here. Neighbors were staring.

This is so much the bottom. I won't go lower.

pooky

Ken,
Your post made me so sad. When one of us goes down,we all feel badly.
No need to beat yourself up..pick yourself up and start over..We all care about you.

Weasel1966

I don't want to come here and make anyone feel sad. But I cannot hide. If I am not true then I have nothing. Nothing.

Lol well... My shiner makes me look tough. Sorta.

Dee74

I'm really sorry to read this.
Make this event, as terrible as it is/was, count for something in the long run, Ken.

Choose change.
you have a lot of people here who believe in you.

Live the life you want to live.

D

Weasel1966

Dee... I believe in me.

I am still speechless I will make this mean something.

Weasel1966

I have so many pains right now. I need to sleep. Rest.

I will go to the doctor tomorrow. I have paperwork from the hospital that tells me I had a sever alcoholic incident. Really? I had no idea.

I will check in a little later.

I feel shame when I see the people next door.

Thank you all again.

amy55

Ken,

Take care of that eye, just concentrate on you for today. Remember to keep using the ice pack. BDTD, my ex hit me, and I had a black and blue eye for like the entire summer. Ok, so you drank, but we know you, you are going to stop again, so for today, take care of yourself.

Sasha4

Ken

I have done some of the most ridiculous things when drunk.
I have had family hammering on my door, shouting through the letter box, on the verge of causing an ambulance.

I have had neighbours, friends, enemies, work colleagues and family stare in disbelief.

But you know what they mostly stare because they it is OUT OF CHARACTER for you. It's not the KEN they know.

And I know this and I have heard this too from many at AA, that often when people apologise for their drunken behaviour and make amends, most people are just happy that you got better and you are okay and well and you are safe.

You know this behaviour is not the Ken we know and love. I know this behaviour is not the Ken I know and love and all the people who posted here know this is not the Ken they know and love.

The injuries will fade. The memories and humiliation might take a bit longer to fade, but you can start getting better from the minute you read this.

Xxxx

Weasel1966

I wish I could go back to the emergency room and apologize. But that would just make me look like more of an ass. So....

Weasel1966

Sasha... THANK YOU!

heathersweeds

Ken, I am so sorry! :ghug3
I can certainley identify with the embarrassment! It goes away with time I promise. My second DUI, I was terrible to the police, faked a heart attack in jail and made a real jacka** out of myself. I had to watch the whole thing sober in my lawyers office. My point is we all have to hit our bottom our own way. I know I don't fix anything untill I am in pain. I had to be spiritually and emotinally spent. I pray, this is your begining to a sober journey! You have a huge family that loves you here

Sasha4

I am sure that they have seen this many, many, many times before. Not that it makes it any better for you or them.

I think that they would just rather you worked on you to not see you in those circumstances again.

Try not to go over things too much. I know it must be very hard not to, but it does not change things and it does not help.

Get some sleep and I am sure things will be a bit better when you wake up.

Weasel1966

Ok.... Last post today.... Head hurts. Face hurts.

So my line at work tomorrow will be.... Ya should see the other guy!

MidnightBlue

Hi again, Ken. So sorry about that.

Please, don't hide. It feels so much better when you can share your pain and feelings with others who understand you.

Hold on, take care of yourself, and though it's hard now, move on.

We are here for you:ghug3

FreeFall

Sleep well Ken, and check in as you need to. I'm sure episodes like that are fairly common in the ER. Apologize to yourself and move forward. I hope you and your partner can straighten things out, it sounds like he was out of control as well.

Fandy

I hope you consider making an appointment with ENT and Plastics asap. you are setting yourself up for a world of ongoing sinus problems and headaches if you don't address the breaks in your nose. Surgery needs to be done before 2 weeks as the bone starts to knit up. you would rather recover from a simple closed nasal reduction than fullblown nose job. (you cannot blow your nose as there are internal stitches and "scaffolding" to hold everything in place.

i had 2 black eyes also and had to wear a very unattractive brace on my nose...(like a section of hannibal lector's mask)

Junebugapril

Hi Ken, I am new to recovery, but just wanted to give you a shout out and say I am sorry about what happened. We're here for you.
JunebugApril