adore79

Hi everyone, still sober and loving it.

Stone- hang in their dude, thanks for coming back. :ghug3

least

Happy to still be sober on my 32nd day of sobriety. I didn't deliberately do this but I've noticed that any time I even think about drinking I feel quite sick to my stomach. It's a great deterrent as I haven't thought of drinking (seriously) for days now. And any time the thought even comes to mind I feel horrible.

But I'm too stubborn to sabotage my success. I will not drag myself back to day one. Been there too many times and ain't going back there!

To anyone still struggling - don't give up! And don't beat yourself up either, it's counterproductive.

:ghug

Time2Surrender

LOL

least

Was feeling so pleased about not having cravings to drink and that I literally feel sick when I think about drinking. Well I had a craving hit me today out of nowhere. So I talked myself out of it, not that I was in any danger of drinking, but I gave myself a pep talk and sure enough, the craving passed and I hadn't given in.

I want to stay sober more than I want to drink... and I don't really want to drink.

nobingealready

hi all, today is day 17. having a pretty good week so far. This weekend is when I will be going to another concert. I just found out that an old friend will be going as well, which now makes two old friends I used to party with. Which makes me a little nervous.
But like last weekend I can do it! I will just need to plan like last time.
It feels like each time I am exposing myself to the situations that are triggers, I am working through them. But I know that it can be a danger too and that I need to be careful. The voice could return that tries to convince me that it would be ok to drink again, after all I have made it two weeks, and what's the harm in having a few with some old friends? those are the kinds of comments I need to ignore.
I also know that the three week mark is a tough one, as well as one month.
one day at a time.

Stone thank you so much for coming back, you can never give up, remember growth is a spiral not a straight line (no pun intended!)

In sober solidarity, noba

joinedintime

Bad new / good news

Bad news:
My wife is driving me absolutely friggin crazy. She's coming down on me about a bunch of stuff from the recent and distant past. Much of it directly related to drinking and bunch more indirectly. Telling me quitting is too little too late.

Good news:
It's making me NOT want to drink.
I'm not going to over-analyze why it is, but I'm just happy about it....the good news part, of course. The other part sucks.

joinedintime

NOBA, looks like you're right on target. Triggers are everywhere and every time you deal with them and come away sober, you're a little bit stronger.

You'll be fine, you'll have good time, AND you'll remember.

cmhcali

I am less than 2 houors away from 60 days

Dee74

I'm not married, but one of the things I had to learn when I started recovery was that getting clean wasn't enough for some ppl....

for some? all my hard work didn't cancel out all the fights, the embarrassments, the disappointments....and I hated that.

But I see it differently now - I dunno about you but I left quite a trail behind me - 15 years worth. You can't clean that up in a month - not even a year IMO.

I see now I did a lot of really effed up stuff.
I can put myself in the other persons shoes a lot more readily these days.

I'm happy for those who have forgiven me...I'm not sure I deserved it, but I'm thankful - for the others I let it go and continue to live the way I've chosen to live my life.

Keep doing right by yourself - and by her - and I'm sure she'll start to see that there are changes...good changes.

D

joinedintime

Dee74, thanks, your thoughts are right on

Stone, glad you're back with us...we want you here.

exbartender

Confession: I drank too.

Fell off on Day 21, 10 days ago, and drank every day since. Went on a party-packed vacation and really lived it up. But now I've been back 3 days, and binged every day. Had some wine tonight too, but it ran out. Now, after this 10-day bender, I've noticed that my feet are swollen, which may be a sign of cirrohsis, among other things, all of them bad.

I need to make tomorrow, July 15, my new Day 1.

bostonluv

July 15th 2008 sounds like a good sobriety date. It has a nice ring to it....

Glad you're back exbartender.

bostonluv

Christin.

exbartender

Oops! Sheesh, I don't even know what month it is.

Make that August 15th.

/add "embarrassment" to the already low self-esteem :sorry

cmhcali

Day 60!!! Today is goig to be good. I get my license back. And my 60 day chip at my meeting things can't get better than that.

exbartender one day at a time. Let go of yesterday and start new today...

rurdy2rk

Congratulations on your sober accomplishment!!

adore79

Day 36. It will be another scorcher today, yesterday it was almost 90 degrees! (I know I know but that is hot for around here :P ) Got a lot of gardening done yesterday today I think I will just chill, maybe take the dog to the beach and apply to a job I found in the paper.

Keep plugging away everyone!

least

Today is day 33 for me, and today I've matched my previous record for staying sober. So tomorrow I will have beaten my record and set a new one! Being sober rocks!

dancinggirl

least: that's fantastic!!! My previous record was 54 days, so that's still a ways off. Make sure you do something just for YOU tomorrow to celebrate! Maybe some ice cream? or some favourite chocolate? a new outfit? etc! Hell...I'm going to get some ice cream on your behalf...right this second!....to celebrate! lol (gonna have to get an elastic waist-band pants soon, too! lol)

bostonluv

Ha ha...I totally didn't catch that either exbartender. I was up too late obviously. No posting after midnight is my new rule.