Time2Surrender

Yeah, Im enjoying it. Its a good day.

Time2Surrender

Thank you. Still working on getting motivated for the yard thing. Soon as I finish eating my Pizza.

Time2Surrender

My biggest weakness. Those who know me know. I really try. Just like today. Went to a noon meeting. Nobody there that I've dated. Got to chatting with a girl afterwards. Wound up giving out my phone #. My sponsor is going to have a cow when he finds out. Maybe I need Mens meetings? Cause I keep meeting Women. Funny part is I look like crap. Been told I have a Charisma about me. Whatever that means?

Time2Surrender

Your right. It damn sure wouldnt be good for me right now.

Time2Surrender

Where do I begin? The Weed Eater lasted 5 minutes and broke. I did get the front mowed. These are my "Before" pics. I will post pics when Im done.

Dee74

nice house

D

Time2Surrender

Thanks. It can be. When I get a little more time I will tell you guys about my plans with the house. ( Hoping to move across the river to Vancouver, Wa) For now, I have a lotta work to do. The yard is a mess. I worked on it a while today. Managed to mow the front yard. Its really hot though. I was sweatin like a pig. Probably good for me. Then theres the inside........ A complete disaster. Thats what Im workin on right now. Dishes are stacked, garbage everywhere, a mess. I have my work cut out for me. I will keep chipping away at it til my meeting tonight. Im pretty much trying to get in a routine. Go to bed at a decent hour and get up in the morning. Work around the house, hit a noon meeting, work around the house some more, and another meeting. Hopefully I can get with my sponsor this weekend for step work. Next week I will probably have to look for work. Not trying to overwelm myself. Just taking it a day at a time. But, I do need a job. Anyway, I guess Im doing OK for day three. Thanks for all the support. It really means a lot to me.

laurie6781

Yes, I think the sweating helps to get the toxins out, but do not forget to replenish with more water, please.

Sounds like you have your work cut out for you..........................however, if need be, so you don't get discouraged, just concentrate on one 8 foot square at a time, whether inside the house or out. Doesn't seem so OVERWHELMING then and you will be amazed at how much you get done in a short time.

Remember also to take 'breaks' from whatever you are doing and not just when you go to a meeting. Work a 1/2 hour and then take a break, drink some juice, water, etc. and remember to eat something also. Your body has been abused badly these last few months and needs time to heal.

I am so glad to see you posting your more 'positive' look on things now. That too will help you in your recovery.

Take care, my prayers are with you.

Love and hugs,

Time2Surrender

Thanks. I defineatly feel better than I did Sunday. I think thats when I started this thread. I've come clean with a lotta people. Mainly my poor Mother. It feels good to be here and be able to share all this. Feels good to be back at meetings. Seen people at meetings I havent seen in months. As for my work around the house? Im working a while and taking breaks. Yeah, its going to take a while. Im not in very good shape. Only lasted a couple hours riding yesterday. My legs were sore today. And I really did take it easy for the most part. Just really outta shape. But, I HAVE THREE DAYS!!!!!!! Thats what blows me away. One day I will be able to come back and read through this thread. I dont wanna forget how I felt a couple days ago cause I dont ever wanna feel like that again. Good part is.... I dont have to ever again.

tanyapmc

Congrats on day 3. Every day we don't drink or use is a huge accomplishment!

I think men's meetings are a GRAND idea!!

See ya on day 4

Time2Surrender

As for my stalkers? I still cant help but wonder when I look below and see "Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread" and see a guest. Is it one of my Ex GFs? Should I even care? Probably not. This is life or death for me. The support I get from this site is a huge part of my recovery. Very huge. There is a member of another recovery forum who I have known for a few years. Never met the guy, but he is a close friend. (Many of you know Dan) I posted something Saturday or Sunday and he called me. I didnt recognize the # and figured it was a bill collector. Thank God I answered the call. Havent talked to the guy in over a year. Words cant express what one phone call did for me. That one phone call led to me making a vow to myself to finally get clean and stay clean. It inspired me to start this thread. That one phone call very likely saved my life. He is now calling me on a daily basis. The replies and support I recieved in this thread sealed the deal. If it wasnt for you guys I wouldnt have three days. And as I stated in the beginning, death would have been inevitable for me. I was defineatly dying. You guys have played a major role in saving my life. Last night I looked at the first page and saw all the people who thanked me after my first post. I was in tears as I am again now. Tears of sadness and happiness. But, they are also tears of relief. I am still alive and today I am clean. Nine months of hell is finally over.

Anna

Yes, definitely tears of relief, Mike.

I'm so glad that you're feeling more positive and that you are here with us.

barb dwyer

I remember that.

Thank GOD they don't play NFL at 7:00 am, huh?
Wow.
If they had -
I'd never have known to show up for work or not.
Mine was just drinking though.

heavy reminder, there.

Those pics remind me of the great trip I took to OR to meet and greet friends from the 'net back... ok, a while ago. at least ten years. Started in Merlin, OR ... and went all the way up the coast to Astoria.
Blackberries thick as your thumb.

I'm glad you've come back, T2.

Small suggestion -

men's meetings

the odds are good ... the goods are odd.
otherwise, I mean.
And the other saying -
Don't fish in yer own pond and don't hunt your own woods.

I'm glad you're not dead, T2.

welcome back.

Time2Surrender

I still have a nice juicer. Costs over $100. (Pawn shop wouldnt take it) Anyway, Im sitting here drinking my first juice since I got clean. Carrots, Apples, Brocolli, Celery, and Kiwi's. Then its off to another meeting.

David 1

"I've learned; I come to know,
There's life at both ends"

Sounds like that is where you are at right now; you have seen the good and the bad and you are always learning and growing. So maybe think of all this as another learning experience in the pursuit of life at the good end.

I am amazed at all the support here for you - I feel some of it rubbing off and helping me too!

Take it easy!

Dave

Dee74

or the one about if you put your hand into a bag of nuts, what do you expect to pull out....

D

Time2Surrender

Exellent meeting tonight. I will come back after I watch my show. "The Cleaner" Pilot Episode on A&E starts now! Been waiting a while to watch this.

Klynn33

CRAP!! I missed the Cleaner and was waiting for it for weeks now. grrrr.........let me know how it was.

and congrats - you sound so much better.....

Time2Surrender

It was really good. They will be showing it again.

Time2Surrender

Heres what happened at the meeting tonight. I posted this over in C.I.R. If you can, listen to this song as you read my post. YouTube - I Saw God Today - George Strait Long story short. Had two and half years clean. Last September I went back out. Nine months later here I am on day three. Gonna be day four in a couple minutes. During the nine months I was out I pretty much lost everything. My friends, a business, and anything of monetary value my health hanging by a thread. Its been nine months of pure hell. During that nine months I turned my back on God. I cursed him. Tonight at a meeting I was called on to share. Didnt really want to, but I did. I mentioned pretty much what I just said here and then some. Today having three days clean and being unemployed with everything gone and all the financial wreckage from my nine month binge I am not worried about it. All that matters is another day clean. God will provide me with what I need. After the meeting another member approached me. "Excuse me, are you a Painter? "Yes I am" I replied. She said she was in a bind having a house she needed to put on the market. She needed a Painter right away." Wow. Thank you God. She asked if I could follow her to her house and take a look. Sure. I was so blown away on this painting job. Something I needed desperately. On the way there, we were at a traffic light. I wish I had a camera. I looked out my window and saw the most awesome Red Sunset I have ever seen. I didnt want the light to change. George Straight "I saw God today" came to mind. Yes, I truly believe I saw God today. Thanks for reading. And now I am into day four. Tommorow I will be over there painting. I have been a Painter for over 25 years. She will be getting my best work. After all, I am actually Painting this house for God.