Whats really up with T2? Well, its not good.
Whats really up with T2? Well, its not good.
I been here a while. All the old timers know me. I come here and post about my ATV riding, BS a little bit, and post a few movie quotes. I pretty much keep private on these boards. Mostly due to my stalkers. All have been banned but still come back. One has been banned a few times. You know who you are. Christina N. Sherrie B. and my newest stalker Jennifer R. I post that so they can all know I know I am being stalked by them. I dont care anymore who comes and reads my stuff. Truth is, last September I went back out after having 2 1/2 yrs. Been using pretty steady since. One night eneded up lasting 9 months. Today I am on the verge of death. Literally. I have lost everything. As one of the many steps in my attempt to finally clean up I am here using this place for what its here for. Support. This is SoberRecovery a great place with lots of support. But, I havent really reached out here in a long time. The last few months I can crash after a binge of being up for days and wake up not knowing what day it is? Is it 8:30 in the AM or 8:30 PM? I actually have to turn on the TV to figure it out. The business and everything else is long gone. I still have one Quad but rarely ride it. I did own 3 Quads. I missed a race last month that I was really looking forward to and missed SandFest this week. Even had a camping spot reserved. Quading is a big part of my life. Or at least it was. All the Quad events I charished so much I no longer attend. People invite to go riding and I dont show. Its time to get real or die. As I am now reaching out. I will post more later. Been sleeping a lot the last couple days, and trying to drink water and eat what I can. If I can do this my new clean date will be 7/13/08. Im gonna go lay down again. I will be back later.
PLease try whatever means are necessary to get and stay clean. I hate to think of you getting any worse off than you seem to be right now. I don't know you but I care what happens to you. Please see a doctor if your withdrawal could be difficult. You can get clean again. Please take care of yourself. I care.:ghug
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Welcome back. I applaud you for the courage I know it must take to come back, come clean and start over and I wish you nothing but good things. The good thing is you had 2.5 years so you already know what to do and what the results can be, just let us help you get the motivation to get started again. Getting started and staying started is the biggest challenge I think. Stay connected despite any "stalkers". This is life and death for you - don't lose sight of that!
Big hugs,
Kellye
Big hugs,
Kellye
what is your drug of choice that lasted for 9 months?....
here's a question you can ask yourself: what am I doing with my life and what do i want to dop with my life and will i do anything before i die besides what i'm doing?
here's a question you can ask yourself: what am I doing with my life and what do i want to dop with my life and will i do anything before i die besides what i'm doing?
Hey Mike!
Vic here.
Sad but true that relapse is a part of recovery or at least it has been for me. Guess what Mike! You are never alone. I just relapsed and am so in awe over it. Not only that but I can't post things that I would like to post here right now. But I will tell ya Mike you are a good friend of mine and I wish ya all the luck in the world. The reason that I quoted it up there Mike is that we have shared one clean date together but different in years. The one above Mike will be my new clean date also only IF I CAN DO IT>>>
but to tell ya the truth Mike. I only had three hits which doesn't matter. And it was bunk and never did even catch a buzz...sad really good luck. I don't think that I can even attempt to try this again after having almost 26 months clean this time around. Wish ya and everyone else the best.
Vic here.
Sad but true that relapse is a part of recovery or at least it has been for me. Guess what Mike! You are never alone. I just relapsed and am so in awe over it. Not only that but I can't post things that I would like to post here right now. But I will tell ya Mike you are a good friend of mine and I wish ya all the luck in the world. The reason that I quoted it up there Mike is that we have shared one clean date together but different in years. The one above Mike will be my new clean date also only IF I CAN DO IT>>>
but to tell ya the truth Mike. I only had three hits which doesn't matter. And it was bunk and never did even catch a buzz...sad really good luck. I don't think that I can even attempt to try this again after having almost 26 months clean this time around. Wish ya and everyone else the best.
(((((Mike)))))
I don't know what all you have been using these past months, however, if you start getting those 'funny' feelings AND YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, please dial 911 IMMEDIATELY.
This detoxing on your own is not good for you.
As to your going back out, it can happen to the best of us.
Kellye said it:
Obviously you are reaching out. You know you can do this. Keep in contact here. Try and eat 'light' foods, drink water, and when you finally feel up to it, go to a meeting, and then another and then another.
Mike you can do this. Get a male mentor or two, that can be an incredible asset on this Recovery Road.
I am glad you feel you are ready to start 'trudgin' again!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel free to PM me anytime.
I am so glad you are back!!!!!!!
Love and hugs,
I don't know what all you have been using these past months, however, if you start getting those 'funny' feelings AND YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, please dial 911 IMMEDIATELY.
This detoxing on your own is not good for you.
As to your going back out, it can happen to the best of us.
Kellye said it:
he good thing is you had 2.5 years so you already know what to do and what the results can be, just let us help you get the motivation to get started again. Getting started and staying started is the biggest challenge I think.
Mike you can do this. Get a male mentor or two, that can be an incredible asset on this Recovery Road.
I am glad you feel you are ready to start 'trudgin' again!!!!!!!!!!!
Feel free to PM me anytime.
I am so glad you are back!!!!!!!
Love and hugs,
Drug of choice? Crack Cocaine.
Hey Mike!
Vic here.
Sad but true that relapse is a part of recovery or at least it has been for me. Guess what Mike! You are never alone. I just relapsed and am so in awe over it. Not only that but I can't post things that I would like to post here right now. But I will tell ya Mike you are a good friend of mine and I wish ya all the luck in the world. The reason that I quoted it up there Mike is that we have shared one clean date together but different in years. The one above Mike will be my new clean date also only IF I CAN DO IT>>>
but to tell ya the truth Mike. I only had three hits which doesn't matter. And it was bunk and never did even catch a buzz...sad really good luck. I don't think that I can even attempt to try this again after having almost 26 months clean this time around. Wish ya and everyone else the best.
Vic here.
Sad but true that relapse is a part of recovery or at least it has been for me. Guess what Mike! You are never alone. I just relapsed and am so in awe over it. Not only that but I can't post things that I would like to post here right now. But I will tell ya Mike you are a good friend of mine and I wish ya all the luck in the world. The reason that I quoted it up there Mike is that we have shared one clean date together but different in years. The one above Mike will be my new clean date also only IF I CAN DO IT>>>
but to tell ya the truth Mike. I only had three hits which doesn't matter. And it was bunk and never did even catch a buzz...sad really good luck. I don't think that I can even attempt to try this again after having almost 26 months clean this time around. Wish ya and everyone else the best.
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