I am quitting today Part 2
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Day 20
Trying to do a bit of exercise to get my energy levels up, but still feel dog tired.
Statistically, it will be the coldest day of the year in my part of the world on January 22nd. I usually begin to feel better when that is out of the way, as not only is there more daylight time, but also it should start getting warmer.
Oh well - time for tea.
Trying to do a bit of exercise to get my energy levels up, but still feel dog tired.
Statistically, it will be the coldest day of the year in my part of the world on January 22nd. I usually begin to feel better when that is out of the way, as not only is there more daylight time, but also it should start getting warmer.
Oh well - time for tea.
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21 days (3 weeks) -- not bad.
I'm not interested in drinking. In fact I find it disgusting.
I live in the UK and the government passed a law allowing drinking 24/7 (alcohol can be bought 24/7/365, and bars can stay open every single minute of the year). Millions of drunken children hit the streets every night, and it's not safe to go out - so hardly anybody decent goes out after dark.
The streets in the UK are owned by substance abusers. It is a disgraceful state of affairs, and I think the government want the population to live in fear and under siege so they can get away with enriching themselves, as the population is focused on more immediate threats.
I might start thinking about emigrating from the UK in the summer - it is brutal place where nearly everybody is drunk or drugged up (to cope with a deeply dysfunctional society).
Oh well - more fun tomorrow
I'm not interested in drinking. In fact I find it disgusting.
I live in the UK and the government passed a law allowing drinking 24/7 (alcohol can be bought 24/7/365, and bars can stay open every single minute of the year). Millions of drunken children hit the streets every night, and it's not safe to go out - so hardly anybody decent goes out after dark.
The streets in the UK are owned by substance abusers. It is a disgraceful state of affairs, and I think the government want the population to live in fear and under siege so they can get away with enriching themselves, as the population is focused on more immediate threats.
I might start thinking about emigrating from the UK in the summer - it is brutal place where nearly everybody is drunk or drugged up (to cope with a deeply dysfunctional society).
Oh well - more fun tomorrow
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22 days.
Not much happening. I am cooking a fish curry for supper.
Friday nights are the worse in the UK for drunken violence (there are usually a few murders and tens of thousands of people visit accident and emergency with serious injuries - stab wounds, bottles smashed in their faces etc.), so I don't got out on Friday evenings.
Oh well - time for a cup of tea
Not much happening. I am cooking a fish curry for supper.
Friday nights are the worse in the UK for drunken violence (there are usually a few murders and tens of thousands of people visit accident and emergency with serious injuries - stab wounds, bottles smashed in their faces etc.), so I don't got out on Friday evenings.
Oh well - time for a cup of tea
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Day 23
Still feeling a bit light-headed, which seems a bit odd after 23 days sober.
I'm doing basmati-rice-fish-and-fruit balls for supper. Meat tastes nothing like meat these days - so I'm going to give it up (meat is so full of chemicals, antibiotics, growth hormones and reared on all manner of filth, it's like eating toxic waste).
Anyway, nothing much happening so I think I'll have a cup of tea.
Still feeling a bit light-headed, which seems a bit odd after 23 days sober.
I'm doing basmati-rice-fish-and-fruit balls for supper. Meat tastes nothing like meat these days - so I'm going to give it up (meat is so full of chemicals, antibiotics, growth hormones and reared on all manner of filth, it's like eating toxic waste).
Anyway, nothing much happening so I think I'll have a cup of tea.
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day 25
January 21 is (according to clinical bench marks) the most miserable day of the year in the northern hemisphere. It's supposed to be one of the coldest days of the year, and the day that most people receive the worst financial news of the year (Christmas bills, fuel bills etc.) all adding up to a real bummer of a day.
Anyway, it's quite warm here (8 degrees Celsius) and I've paid all my bills - so I don't care.
Roll on summer
January 21 is (according to clinical bench marks) the most miserable day of the year in the northern hemisphere. It's supposed to be one of the coldest days of the year, and the day that most people receive the worst financial news of the year (Christmas bills, fuel bills etc.) all adding up to a real bummer of a day.
Anyway, it's quite warm here (8 degrees Celsius) and I've paid all my bills - so I don't care.
Roll on summer
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Aldo, I hear you loud and clear. My neighbours are the same way 
It really hurts to have to spend a day sleep deprived after a night of loud noise and chaos. It ups the anxiety anty, too. Been there, doing that, bought the t-shirt. It's horrible and you have my sympathies.
Hugs,
GG
It really hurts to have to spend a day sleep deprived after a night of loud noise and chaos. It ups the anxiety anty, too. Been there, doing that, bought the t-shirt. It's horrible and you have my sympathies. Hugs,
GG
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Day 26
Hello gallerygirl
I don't think Aldo has been on here -the entire forum- for weeks (no idea what happened but hope he's OK). I can't help on what to do about neighbour noise. The few times I have experienced it I have been round to talk to them, but they usually get nasty. If you fight back by turning your music up, or making other noise for the sake of it, things will probably get worse.
Anyway, still staying sober but seem to be doing the absolute minimum to survive. I'm not unhappy, but just can't be bothered doing anything much. I hate winter and the rubbish weather on this damned planet.
Hello gallerygirl
I don't think Aldo has been on here -the entire forum- for weeks (no idea what happened but hope he's OK). I can't help on what to do about neighbour noise. The few times I have experienced it I have been round to talk to them, but they usually get nasty. If you fight back by turning your music up, or making other noise for the sake of it, things will probably get worse.
Anyway, still staying sober but seem to be doing the absolute minimum to survive. I'm not unhappy, but just can't be bothered doing anything much. I hate winter and the rubbish weather on this damned planet.
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Day 27
Went for a short bike ride as the weather is quite pleasant at the moment (warm - 12 degrees Celsius). It's strange how there can be a 10 degree Celsius change in daytime air temperature in successive days.
Anyway, not sleeping that well but otherwise OK. Tomorrow I'm going to start making to-do lists and force myself to complete them. I need to snap out of this vegetative state.
Went for a short bike ride as the weather is quite pleasant at the moment (warm - 12 degrees Celsius). It's strange how there can be a 10 degree Celsius change in daytime air temperature in successive days.
Anyway, not sleeping that well but otherwise OK. Tomorrow I'm going to start making to-do lists and force myself to complete them. I need to snap out of this vegetative state.
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28 days (4 whole weeks)
This is the longest I have done since I started trying to quit. I'm pretty sure I drank every day for 10 years, and before that, at least 4 times a week for ages (since I was a kid I recall). So this, I think, is probably the longest I have gone since I had my first drink.
I'm quite proud of myself - the PAWS effects have been scary and quit bad for me, but even with them I have to admit I feel way better not drinking than drinking.
I bought myself some treats to celebrate this milestone but I'm sort of staying sober on the quiet so I can't share with people I know.
It was a bit cold today but sunny and fresh, and I went for another bike ride to get myself in the groove of healthy exercise.
Well done chicago on 2 years (I'm jealous).
This is the longest I have done since I started trying to quit. I'm pretty sure I drank every day for 10 years, and before that, at least 4 times a week for ages (since I was a kid I recall). So this, I think, is probably the longest I have gone since I had my first drink.
I'm quite proud of myself - the PAWS effects have been scary and quit bad for me, but even with them I have to admit I feel way better not drinking than drinking.
I bought myself some treats to celebrate this milestone but I'm sort of staying sober on the quiet so I can't share with people I know.
It was a bit cold today but sunny and fresh, and I went for another bike ride to get myself in the groove of healthy exercise.
Well done chicago on 2 years (I'm jealous).
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me too!!
Originally Posted by ManchurianC 
28 days (4 whole weeks)
Well done chicago on 2 years (I'm jealous).
Well done chicago on 2 years (I'm jealous).
Thanks!!
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Originally Posted by ManchurianC
The streets in the UK are owned by substance abusers. It is a disgraceful state of affairs, and I think the government want the population to live in fear and under siege so they can get away with enriching themselves, as the population is focused on more immediate threats.
I might start thinking about emigrating from the UK in the summer - it is brutal place where nearly everybody is drunk or drugged up (to cope with a deeply dysfunctional society).
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stone said: LOL, I don't like the UK much either but wtf are you on about?
You know what I'm on about - ya cheeky monkey, unless you live in a gated community or a cave. Even the Home Secretary (government minister, responsible homeland security) said she was afraid to go out at night in the UK, and 100,000s of people have let the UK to get away for all the alcohol and drug fuelled violence.
My post was a bit ranty - but is was essentially true.
Anyway, day 29 and I'm starting to get that 'a drink would be nice' feeling. Which it would, but it would lead on to pretty grim suffering, so I'm not going to think myself into boozing again.
Not doing too badly at the moment, and hoping the weather is good tomorrow so I get out into the lovely countryside where I live.
You know what I'm on about - ya cheeky monkey, unless you live in a gated community or a cave. Even the Home Secretary (government minister, responsible homeland security) said she was afraid to go out at night in the UK, and 100,000s of people have let the UK to get away for all the alcohol and drug fuelled violence.
My post was a bit ranty - but is was essentially true.
Anyway, day 29 and I'm starting to get that 'a drink would be nice' feeling. Which it would, but it would lead on to pretty grim suffering, so I'm not going to think myself into boozing again.
Not doing too badly at the moment, and hoping the weather is good tomorrow so I get out into the lovely countryside where I live.
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Day 30.
I Went for a longish bike ride it the country today and enjoyed it (it's rather warm in the UK for this time of year).
I'm Well into the groove of not drinking, and can cope easily with the minor cravings and temptations. However, the thing that brothers me is the seemingly autonomous internal decision to start drinking again. -It has happened to me before (my subconscious somehow decided I would drink and it was impossible to resist, and I relapsed). I'm working hard to keep anything out of my mind that feeds my subconscious desire to drink (and its' power to force me to drink).
I don't know if it's healthy to regard a part of my mind as 'other' (malevolent 'other' in relation to building up pressure to drink), but I'm willing to use any ploy to keep sober at this stage.
More inane rambling tomorrow.
I Went for a longish bike ride it the country today and enjoyed it (it's rather warm in the UK for this time of year).
I'm Well into the groove of not drinking, and can cope easily with the minor cravings and temptations. However, the thing that brothers me is the seemingly autonomous internal decision to start drinking again. -It has happened to me before (my subconscious somehow decided I would drink and it was impossible to resist, and I relapsed). I'm working hard to keep anything out of my mind that feeds my subconscious desire to drink (and its' power to force me to drink).
I don't know if it's healthy to regard a part of my mind as 'other' (malevolent 'other' in relation to building up pressure to drink), but I'm willing to use any ploy to keep sober at this stage.
More inane rambling tomorrow.
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day 32.
Sort of moping about. I understand that emotional health takes a while to recover (6 to 18 months, so they say) after quitting drinking, but why do you feel so damn pessimistic when in a trough?
I've started eating 2 bananas for breakfast (they contain serotonin and dopamine, and there is a lot of evidence they ease mild depression) to try to jolly myself up.
Anyway, that's enough fun from me for today.
Sort of moping about. I understand that emotional health takes a while to recover (6 to 18 months, so they say) after quitting drinking, but why do you feel so damn pessimistic when in a trough?
I've started eating 2 bananas for breakfast (they contain serotonin and dopamine, and there is a lot of evidence they ease mild depression) to try to jolly myself up.
Anyway, that's enough fun from me for today.
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day 35 (7 weeks)
Strange day here - lovely sunshine but a savage wind making it feel like minus 25 degrees Celsius.
Anyway, had a strong urge to start drinking today -- it was intense but only lasted about 30 seconds. Time is a good weapon against temptation to drink, just wait a few moments and it goes away (never fails).
Roll on summer
Strange day here - lovely sunshine but a savage wind making it feel like minus 25 degrees Celsius.
Anyway, had a strong urge to start drinking today -- it was intense but only lasted about 30 seconds. Time is a good weapon against temptation to drink, just wait a few moments and it goes away (never fails).
Roll on summer
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