Day 30.
I Went for a longish bike ride it the country today and enjoyed it (it's rather warm in the UK for this time of year).
I'm Well into the groove of not drinking, and can cope easily with the minor cravings and temptations. However, the thing that brothers me is the seemingly
autonomous internal decision to start drinking again. -It has happened to me before (my subconscious somehow decided I would drink and it was impossible to resist, and I relapsed). I'm working hard to keep anything out of my mind that feeds my subconscious desire to drink (and its' power to force me to drink).
I don't know if it's healthy to regard a part of my mind as 'other' (malevolent 'other' in relation to building up pressure to drink), but I'm willing to use any ploy to keep sober at this stage.
More inane rambling tomorrow.
