ImSkiZZeR

aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !
Supposed to go with my Dad and my brother + his friends to MT Washington... but am not too sure whwther I should go. last minute thing.
My brother will be drinking.
I will not.
But I will want to...
and it's 4 hours aways in the USA.... (silly place)
I am really nervous...

stone

Personally, I wouldnt go. I dont need people drinking in front of me. I dont think you do either. You have to want this Mark. If you know something will cause a problem then avoid it.

ImSkiZZeR

Mde a deal with my Dad.
he will not be drinking. Wil hang out with him. By the time we leave, drive and get there... it will be late... So only thing left will be for me to conquer the 6000 feet in front of me...
HOpefully, it will all be good.
it`s the highest peak on the east coast... and I have tackeled that ******* more than once... though it`s a dooozie......
Wish me luck and pray for me.. maybe I will find some sort of answer. It will be about 5 hours up... and about 5 down... really tough trek. I am proabably out of shape for it.. but I plan to do it just the same. Kind if a symbol of my determination. it`s gonna be a hard and long trek. That damn mountain has trapped me before... got quarantined there once.... weather was too rough. but I will kicks it`s ass this time.
The weather on this mountain can be like 80 degrees at base and like 20 degrees at summit. Snow and all..
So I got my day cut out for me tomorrow...

stone

Wow! No time for drinking then! Good luck Mark, have a great day!

Rowan

I think that sounds fantastic, Marc!
I'm glad you got honest with your Dad - now you have an ally, someone to be accountable to.
Kick that mountain's ass this time!
let us know when you get back.

Misscat

As a teacher I know the feeling!!!
Look in your local paper for interest groups to join, classes you can take (maybe at a local gym or something similar), or try and take up a hobby (I am an artist so I go to my studio)...it helps if you can get out of your home for a bit I think, get outside...keeps the mind off things...good luck!!!

Misscat

OMG I am going to Lake Placid in a few weeks, its not silly, its beautiful!!!!
If you would like to know of any other great hikes around there, send me a PM...

Dee74

have fun Marc
D

parentrecovers

stay busy and stay sober! k

barb dwyer

****{SkiZZ}}}

stone

Hey Marc, check in time!

parentrecovers

thinking 'bout you, k

Rowan

I think he might have gone on his trip already - make sure you check in when you get back, Marc. We are all thinking of you.

ImSkiZZeR

Back. it was quite a rough climb. I only made it to about 75% of the way . it was getting late in the day and I started to get real nervous. At that height, the trail is very steep and dangerous. So I decided to cut it short. I am not upset about it... maybe a little disappointed. But I am in bad shape.. so what can you expect.
It`s back to real life now. Gotta figure out what I am doing today. It`s funny how fast the anxiety comes back...

stone

Anxiety is hard Marc, believe me I know it. Drinking makes it worse too.
I am only 17 days sober myself and having a real problem with feeling manic today but I will not drink because of it.
It could be my anti-depressants kicking in cos they dont work so well when drinking.
Whatever our problems, drinking will only make them worse.

Rowan

The climb sounds exhilirating - at least you started it! I'm not sure I would have the guts right now.
I'm going to walk to a meeting later. I don't usually judge distance very well so it will probably take me an hour longer (at least) and I might be late! But I'm gonna try!
Your climb has inspired me.

Dee74

yeah well done Marc - I'm flat out getting to the corner of my street some days

D

ImSkiZZeR

What is inspiring is the shear magnitude of those mountains,. they are collossal... well maybe not as beig as in the rockies. a different big though. In the Rockies it's just straight up... with these moutnains... well the sprall..... so God damn huge..
ONce I made it to 4000 feet I got nervous. which is different for me. Usaully I would have gone all the way up. But yesterday was different. I basically got just above the tree line... which basically means nothing grows there... to high and too brutal.
then I got scared.
IN any event, I am sad to be home to be honest. Wish I was away in nature all the time.

barb dwyer

That's part of why i'm in Montana, hon.

I look out the front door of this hotel ... at the Continental Divide.

And *I* wouldn't climb these mountains ... for nothing.

LOL

I get tired ... DRIVING up there.

We're at 5300 ft. in the lobby here.

Rowan

Hey Marc,

Can't you drive to a conservation area, or wooded area, and go for a hike? If nature really stokes you, why don't you spend more time in it?
I feel incredibly renewed myself, when I'm out in it, especially when I'm alone (with Him).
I'm going to walk to another meeting tonight. how about you?