Class of July 2023 Support Thread Part 1
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Originally Posted by FreeOwl 
Hey hey everybody!!!
DRY JULY!! Love it.
But more than that, I hope to make it a July of focused sobriety/recovery work.
In June, after an aggregate of about ten years sobriety over the past couple of decades, I finally found myself truly stepping over the thresholds of surrender and of giving my life to the God of my understanding.
I must have heard it ten thousand times in the book, in the rooms, in the stories shared here… and even believed in a higher power all along.
Yet there was a difference between that believe and the surrender, the asking, the stepping into a willingness to have a relationship with whatever that unknowable but entirely feel-able Power might be.
so here in July I will move through stepwork, bringing with me prayer and surrender and conscious contact with the God of my understanding.
I am 50…. And roughly halfway into my 51st year of life.
I open myself to a commitment to 101 years in this physical plane…. ‘Life 101’…. If it be God’s will for me. The first half has been good, despite so much of it spent in suffering with addiction. The next half, I commit to serving Creator’s will for me, and working each day to step a bit closer to the God of my understanding.
Dry July feels like a fun little humorous and whimsical idea in that context…. But it’s so much more than just ‘dry’….
anywhoo…. Day 25.
DRY JULY!! Love it.
But more than that, I hope to make it a July of focused sobriety/recovery work.
In June, after an aggregate of about ten years sobriety over the past couple of decades, I finally found myself truly stepping over the thresholds of surrender and of giving my life to the God of my understanding.
I must have heard it ten thousand times in the book, in the rooms, in the stories shared here… and even believed in a higher power all along.
Yet there was a difference between that believe and the surrender, the asking, the stepping into a willingness to have a relationship with whatever that unknowable but entirely feel-able Power might be.
so here in July I will move through stepwork, bringing with me prayer and surrender and conscious contact with the God of my understanding.
I am 50…. And roughly halfway into my 51st year of life.
I open myself to a commitment to 101 years in this physical plane…. ‘Life 101’…. If it be God’s will for me. The first half has been good, despite so much of it spent in suffering with addiction. The next half, I commit to serving Creator’s will for me, and working each day to step a bit closer to the God of my understanding.
Dry July feels like a fun little humorous and whimsical idea in that context…. But it’s so much more than just ‘dry’….
anywhoo…. Day 25.
Freeowl. What a great outlook on Part 2 of your life. I’m 58. Let’s make it a great one.
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Hi OTM, congrats on 100 days! Your trip sounds wonderful and I love that quote--"when the drunk door closes, the wonderful doors of sobriety open up." I may steal it.
Hi to everyone else, good to see you all. Day 75 for me.
Hi to everyone else, good to see you all. Day 75 for me.
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Great start to the weekend for me and the second half of this sober year. I got to play some early morning golf with my son and a friend. Played really well for my first round of the year. Made par on 5 of 9 holes. Mostly it was the beatiful weather and getting to spend time with my boy that was satisfying. My little brother is in town visiting so I picked him up at the airport and we got a nice salad for brunch. Gonna spend the rest of the day relaxing, getting a workout in, and treating ourselves to the spa for recovery.
Feeling great!
Feeling great!
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Nice 5!
Day Hundy. Worked today. Playing catchup. Thoughts of a poolside beer or 10 were creeping today. Its summer, its hot, etc.. I'm back at home pretty tired so will prob take a nap. Was thinking today about some feelings I had on my trip. I was in a church last Sunday and watching some happy kids and seemingly happy parents and was suddenly sad. I don't get that emotional often. I guess kinda grieving the no family thing and sad about it. There are benefits and negatives to everything but that kinda threw me for a loop. God is in control. I have to trust that and find purpose and opportunities to be of use while I am here. I am blessed and I have always been taken care of. Just rambling. A few ex gfs have contacted me out of the blue on social media. Although they were great at the time I just feel it is a test. I don't want the past. I want new and I do not want to go backwards. Anyway just rambling. I think the cravings today were me wanting a break from my head. I just have to remember why I am doing this.
Have a great 4th everybody. I'm going to relax and work a little the next few days. Headed to Richmond to see my brother for 5 days around wednesday.
Day Hundy. Worked today. Playing catchup. Thoughts of a poolside beer or 10 were creeping today. Its summer, its hot, etc.. I'm back at home pretty tired so will prob take a nap. Was thinking today about some feelings I had on my trip. I was in a church last Sunday and watching some happy kids and seemingly happy parents and was suddenly sad. I don't get that emotional often. I guess kinda grieving the no family thing and sad about it. There are benefits and negatives to everything but that kinda threw me for a loop. God is in control. I have to trust that and find purpose and opportunities to be of use while I am here. I am blessed and I have always been taken care of. Just rambling. A few ex gfs have contacted me out of the blue on social media. Although they were great at the time I just feel it is a test. I don't want the past. I want new and I do not want to go backwards. Anyway just rambling. I think the cravings today were me wanting a break from my head. I just have to remember why I am doing this.
Have a great 4th everybody. I'm going to relax and work a little the next few days. Headed to Richmond to see my brother for 5 days around wednesday.
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