Zencat

Nice 54.

Lixie

Good morning all! Day seven today, dry July is going well. It's a cloudy day, but my heart is full of sunshine. I was having my cup of coffee when I felt something on my neck, and it was this tiny, green caterpillar crawling on me. So cute! I put it on a rose, and I hope it is doing well.

Have a lovely day, lovely people!

RunnerF

Pledging for today. Day 278.

Lixie

@Bottomed I am thinking of you. Hope you are well.

Tetrax

Thanks everyone. Basically @FreeOwl, it was an intense fortnight or so bender in May - where cider had turned to vodka - that put me in ICU after being two months abstinent (alcohol poisoning or alcohol + SSRI withdrawal, I'm not sure). I remember almost nothing from the bender (housemates had apparently found me in a heap in my room) or much of the ICU stay, other than a horrifying delirium, where I thought the nurses were trying to kill me. I learned later that I'd developed pneumonia through being on a ventilator, which kept me in ICU for eighteen days. I was also medically detoxed, and was in hospital a total of three weeks. It took several days to be able to walk and talk at full strength again after discharge. I have a big scar on my elbow from where I had also apparently smashed something, which had been stitched up. I guess this will always remind me.

Day 49.

FiveTries

Sorry that you had to experience all of that Tetrax.

I havent really been able to talk through all of the stressors I'm dealing with and they seem to be piling up on me. Might try to get a therapist soon. Sobriety feels good, it's like being a new person. I think I'm making much better choices.

Anyway, I'll be staying sober today. 188.

FreeOwl

Was a time, we all looked up
To the bounty poured
Into our cup

A bygone day of mystery
We sought our Way
Beyond what we could see

Nor books, nor phones, but relationship
With something Big
To Guide our Trip

Now it seems we’ve maybe lost
A certain something…
A precious cost

But here within, and there without
The Connection Lives
Let’s have no doubt

And turn our gaze to skies above
With daily Wonder
Receiving Love

Happy Friday, All

ToughChoices

Truth of the day:
1.) I am an addict/alcoholic with a progressive, fatal psychological condition.
2.) Acceptance of that allows me to take action and have faith in a Power that removes my fear/struggle.
3.) I am free.

Zencat

Same here Sending her helping vibes

Thank you Tetrax for sharing your personal story. Drinking is the great destroyer of you name it.

Free, cool poem, Happy Friday to you and all here at SR.

Reach out for help here if you need it. If you feel you are getting lost or ignored in all the communications here at SR, Please speak up!
It is easy for me to get distracted with my own poop and forget to support you with your needs in recovery. So Don't be shy and go for it...Ask for help

Zencat

Word!

RunnerF

Pledging for today. Day 279.

countrystix

Good morning everyone, just checking in. Working on day 15 today. I found a sponsor and I'm going to start working the steps actively. I currently have family visiting and we're having a good visit.

Congrats to everyone putting in the effort to build up your days.

Tetrax glad you're here.

Have a good weekend!

FreeOwl

im glad you made it out the other side of that…. And that you’re here.

happy Day FIFTY!!

are you working the 12 steps?

FreeOwl

over two weeks!!

congratulations!

and congratulations on jumping into working the steps…. I believe you will find it to be the path to a rich and cherished life.

took me many years to finally surrender my own way and will and am now - finally - after a good decade of sobriety - working them in earnest.

FreeOwl

Today, let me be guided
When I breathe
Let my breath take in Love
Light and Healing

Let me breathe out forgiveness
Acceptance and surrender

Today, make me useful
That I might be of service
Where there is need
Let me be of Spirit’s will

Let Love, Light and Healing
Work through me

Today, bring me Serenity
When my heart beats
Let it beat Gratitude
For these cherished gifts

Let me walk humbly
In your guidance

Happy Saturday, All

Tetrax

Thanks but no; I just don't personally find them compatible with mental illness outside of alcoholism. Going to meetings has helped in the past though.

FreeOwl

interesting.

im finding them very helpful with depression, anxiety and ADHD in conjunction with medication.

I believe after a year of truly giving myself to stepwork, I’ll be able to work toward medically-supervised transition off medication for those conditions.

for nearly 20 years I remained stubbornly resistant to even trying it, making every argument outside of the book to avoid just trying what it says in the book.

now, I’m only on step 3 and already seeing remarkable things happening in my life.

Zencat

Perhaps read some DRA (link), dual recovery anonymous is 12 steps for people like me that have a disorder or two or three.
IMO There is always a workaround for any recovery program that can get you started in said program.

Free, good looking with the program work. Surrender to win, I like it.

Zencat

P.S.

Sober another day, a few projects/cleaning, motorsports/ tennis/golf on the boob tube, and that's about it, oh, and cook some spaghetti with meatballs yum

Happy Sunday Dee

Tetrax

Thanks guys for your input. Today I had a win where I bought ginger beer from a shop I used to use and the shopkeeper was glad for me when he asked and I told him I'm off the booze!