Class of February 2023 Part 1
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Join Date: Oct 2015
Location: west falls, ny
Posts: 605
Good morning,
. This past week was pretty rough.
A week ago my little cats' kidneys shut down and vet said nothing more she could do.
I chose to nurse the poor little thing at home as not really in pain just very weak.
I would make her comfortable places to lay and hold little bowls of water up to her mouth to drink.
Sunday morning I knew she wouldn't live thru day,
and I decided I would have vet put her down when they opened Monday morning.
I was just praying to God to take her.
The whole thing just reminded me of my wife dying in hospice.
Frankly at this point I just wanted to get a big bottle of wine and zone out.
I woke up around midnite Sunday night and she was curled up next to me, but she flew away to heaven.
I buried my furry friend yesterday, my daughter came over, which I really appreciated.
My daughter has a little Japanese dog called a Sheba Inu. Omg! So cute, her name is Lily.
I might have my grand-dog over for a few days to keep me company.
The house just seems so empty right now without my little kitty.
Anyway, it is a nice sunny day here and I'm sorry to be a downer to all of you on Valentine's Day!
I hope you all have a good day,
Stay sober!
. This past week was pretty rough.
A week ago my little cats' kidneys shut down and vet said nothing more she could do.
I chose to nurse the poor little thing at home as not really in pain just very weak.
I would make her comfortable places to lay and hold little bowls of water up to her mouth to drink.
Sunday morning I knew she wouldn't live thru day,
and I decided I would have vet put her down when they opened Monday morning.
I was just praying to God to take her.
The whole thing just reminded me of my wife dying in hospice.
Frankly at this point I just wanted to get a big bottle of wine and zone out.
I woke up around midnite Sunday night and she was curled up next to me, but she flew away to heaven.
I buried my furry friend yesterday, my daughter came over, which I really appreciated.
My daughter has a little Japanese dog called a Sheba Inu. Omg! So cute, her name is Lily.
I might have my grand-dog over for a few days to keep me company.
The house just seems so empty right now without my little kitty.
Anyway, it is a nice sunny day here and I'm sorry to be a downer to all of you on Valentine's Day!
I hope you all have a good day,
Stay sober!
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Join Date: Mar 2019
Posts: 302
I am so sorry @zenithboy88! Our pets our our babies! I’ve lost a few furry babies of my own within the last four years and it’s a terrible loss. My heart goes out to you 🤍 Just know your little angel has a lot of buddies to play with right now.
Happy Valentines Day!! Today I will celebrate the holiday with work meetings lol but will come home to two of my furry baby valentines. We have a long night of cuddles planned ahead.
Day 70!!!
Happy Valentines Day!! Today I will celebrate the holiday with work meetings lol but will come home to two of my furry baby valentines. We have a long night of cuddles planned ahead.
Day 70!!!
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
Posts: 2,661
Zenith, I’m so sorry about your kitty. She had a very nice life with you. May her memory be a blessing.
And I totally understand the triggering of memories about your wife’s passing. This too shall pass.
I hope you can take good care of yourself during this time of grief.
And I totally understand the triggering of memories about your wife’s passing. This too shall pass.
I hope you can take good care of yourself during this time of grief.
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
Posts: 2,661
Originally Posted by RAL 
Really struggling with thoughts of wine. Got to go post office after work to post parcels. Really dont want to see bottles in the store. I will stay focused and drive home after post8ng parcels and not buying anything
Post here, self care, redirect to something positive. Big hug!
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
Posts: 2,661
Sorry for three posts instead of one. On my little phone and i can’t find my glasses because I need my glasses to find them. 
A down day here - it’s raining, my first Valentine’s Day without my husband and because I didn’t shut the gate last night on my patio, the door blew off in the wind. My husband built that gate himself.
. He would be disappointed that I did that.
There is so much to take care of with him gone and at times I feel overwhelmed It’s why zoning out with alcohol has been so tempting.
But it doesn’t solve anything and so I’m posting here and pledge not to drink today.
And my day is now called Galentine’s Day. My two daughters are here with me and it’s Taco Tuesday. Something to look forward to tonight. I will try hard to take good care of myself.
and call a handyman about the gate.
A down day here - it’s raining, my first Valentine’s Day without my husband and because I didn’t shut the gate last night on my patio, the door blew off in the wind. My husband built that gate himself.
. He would be disappointed that I did that.There is so much to take care of with him gone and at times I feel overwhelmed It’s why zoning out with alcohol has been so tempting.
But it doesn’t solve anything and so I’m posting here and pledge not to drink today.
And my day is now called Galentine’s Day. My two daughters are here with me and it’s Taco Tuesday. Something to look forward to tonight. I will try hard to take good care of myself.
and call a handyman about the gate.
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 89,063
RAL, honey, first of all—love and hugs. ❤️
I wonder if it might be time to make a new plan to help with the after-work wine time. For example, if you have errands to do after work, make sure you have a snack and a drink at work that you can have in the car. Or stop somewhere and get a milkshake, cake, or anything you fancy that can help with the sugar craving.
Just a few ideas.
s xxx
I wonder if it might be time to make a new plan to help with the after-work wine time. For example, if you have errands to do after work, make sure you have a snack and a drink at work that you can have in the car. Or stop somewhere and get a milkshake, cake, or anything you fancy that can help with the sugar craving.
Just a few ideas.
s xxx
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 89,063
Originally Posted by LillianGish
Sorry for three posts instead of one. On my little phone and i can’t find my glasses because I need my glasses to find them.
A down day here - it’s raining, my first Valentine’s Day without my husband and because I didn’t shut the gate last night on my patio, the door blew off in the wind. My husband built that gate himself.. He would be disappointed that I did that.
There is so much to take care of with him gone and at times I feel overwhelmed It’s why zoning out with alcohol has been so tempting.
But it doesn’t solve anything and so I’m posting here and pledge not to drink today.
And my day is now called Galentine’s Day. My two daughters are here with me and it’s Taco Tuesday. Something to look forward to tonight. I will try hard to take good care of myself.
and call a handyman about the gate.
A down day here - it’s raining, my first Valentine’s Day without my husband and because I didn’t shut the gate last night on my patio, the door blew off in the wind. My husband built that gate himself.
. He would be disappointed that I did that.There is so much to take care of with him gone and at times I feel overwhelmed It’s why zoning out with alcohol has been so tempting.
But it doesn’t solve anything and so I’m posting here and pledge not to drink today.
And my day is now called Galentine’s Day. My two daughters are here with me and it’s Taco Tuesday. Something to look forward to tonight. I will try hard to take good care of myself.
and call a handyman about the gate.
So much love. ❤️❤️❤️
I am sure today is tough for you. Hang in there, honey, and lean on us. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Join Date: Dec 2020
Location: NE United States
Posts: 1,209
Checking in on day 42. Really busy, stressful day at work as I begin work on a new project that will take several months to complete. I'm not going to lie, I'm feeling very triggered at the moment. I won't drink today though. Just feeling triggered. Planning on picking up some carryout from a restaurant of my kids' choosing and will have a nice dinner at home for Valentine's Day.
RAL - great to hear the SMART meeting went well for you! I've been attending both SMART and AA meetings online but am feeling like the tone of the AA meetings I've been attending lately are very somber. I feel like in general, SMART meetings tend to leave me feeling a bit more positive and empowered in my recovery. That being said, I've attended many AA meetings that have been really good. I think I'll login to a SMART meeting tonight when the kids go to bed.
Zenith - I am sorry for the loss of your kitty. Losing a close pet is super difficult.
Hope everyone has a great rest of their day.
I'm committed to 24 more and won't be picking up that first drink today.
RAL - great to hear the SMART meeting went well for you! I've been attending both SMART and AA meetings online but am feeling like the tone of the AA meetings I've been attending lately are very somber. I feel like in general, SMART meetings tend to leave me feeling a bit more positive and empowered in my recovery. That being said, I've attended many AA meetings that have been really good. I think I'll login to a SMART meeting tonight when the kids go to bed.
Zenith - I am sorry for the loss of your kitty. Losing a close pet is super difficult.
Hope everyone has a great rest of their day.
I'm committed to 24 more and won't be picking up that first drink today.
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Location: Australia
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I'm sorry for your loss ZB.
Glad the meeting went well RAL
Congrats on 41 days BassetDog 44 days FiveTries 9 days misstqueent 135 days RunnerF day 70 takeaction and 20 days RAL
well done everyone on another sober day
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Glad the meeting went well RAL
Congrats on 41 days BassetDog 44 days FiveTries 9 days misstqueent 135 days RunnerF day 70 takeaction and 20 days RAL
well done everyone on another sober day
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