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Mizz, I have to thank you for the post of : Is it true, is it necessary, and is it kind..It makes me step back and think before I speak. Not that I am rude or mean at all, just makes me think that much more.
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The picture of the sunset I took on our trip. I am not sure why there is that text below the picture. I did not write that. ahh, the non tech savvy Alpine has no clue.
This is the way I do it
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...our-posts.html (How to put pics in your posts)
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Thanks Hawkeye, I am glad they are/ were helpful. I was kind of wondering if I am annoying people by posting daily. I am just trying darn hard to keep myself very focused because when I let my guard down or get lazy with my focus that is when things get bad and I start slipping down that bad slope.
Accountability: I was reading the first thread I started way back in January, an wow what a mess I was and I can see and read the depression and desperation in my posts. I know I have a long way to go but I think I have come from a long way too in my eyes. I know I say I need to play that tape forward, but I also play that tape backwards to see the hurt that I caused which is 100% not me at all. I hate to see people in pain whether it be emotional or physical. I would help anyone and everyone if I could. It gives me a sense of purpose. When I drank ( notice I said drank not drink..trying to change my mindset) Alpine is a completely different person with lack of empathy, poor insight, and just not the person to be proud of. I wish I saw that earlier. I thought I was the same person, just a more relaxed person. Sure initially I was more relaxed..for a short bit, then things changed, and then of course when sobering up my anxiety was through the roof and my patience was nill. Not the person I am nor ever want to be again
Toolbox: Keep my accountability thread going to keep me focused
Stay honest with myself
Accountability: I was reading the first thread I started way back in January, an wow what a mess I was and I can see and read the depression and desperation in my posts. I know I have a long way to go but I think I have come from a long way too in my eyes. I know I say I need to play that tape forward, but I also play that tape backwards to see the hurt that I caused which is 100% not me at all. I hate to see people in pain whether it be emotional or physical. I would help anyone and everyone if I could. It gives me a sense of purpose. When I drank ( notice I said drank not drink..trying to change my mindset) Alpine is a completely different person with lack of empathy, poor insight, and just not the person to be proud of. I wish I saw that earlier. I thought I was the same person, just a more relaxed person. Sure initially I was more relaxed..for a short bit, then things changed, and then of course when sobering up my anxiety was through the roof and my patience was nill. Not the person I am nor ever want to be again
Toolbox: Keep my accountability thread going to keep me focused
Stay honest with myself
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Good Morning, Alpine!
The three questions I wrote here are on my computer monitor at work.... A reminder for me to think before I speak.
I was encountering a similar situation with someone and hurtful words. So, I related immensely to what you were going through.
You are not alone in your feelings. We are doing so well. Lets keep doing well and keep reaching for the stars in our own lives.
We can do hard things, Alpine. Im really happy you are here.
The three questions I wrote here are on my computer monitor at work.... A reminder for me to think before I speak.
I was encountering a similar situation with someone and hurtful words. So, I related immensely to what you were going through.
You are not alone in your feelings. We are doing so well. Lets keep doing well and keep reaching for the stars in our own lives.
We can do hard things, Alpine. Im really happy you are here.
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Just another, this time, quick pop in for accountability. Helped my Mom which sometimes can be a trigger and helped my MIL, all is good with my frame of mind and focus. I had to do a couple of errands 2 of which were on either side of the liquor store. I didn't even think about even looking at in or at the store, which usually if the av is bugging me I would have. Keep moving forward.
I’d never heard of a marmot…had to look it up…guess they are a squirrel relative…so cute!
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Accountability time: Doing really well, the av only squeaks, although...Maybe it is not the av...just the memories of me drinking whenever I was doing pretty much anything, Oh, I have to organize the kitchen, better have a drink..laundry, time for a drink..organize my fabric for sewing, time for a drink...You get the picture. It was as if I could not do one without the other and of course the end result of the task at hand was that it was not completed to my sober satisfaction. 
I know Mr. A would say, well of course what would you expect. Moving forward I remember and reinforce to myself drinking=poor quality of life. I only have one life why destroy it with the simple action of had to mouth with that poison.
Toolbox: Look at the quilts that I have made or in the process of making and know there is no way they could be done while drinking
Make myself proud
I know Mr. A would say, well of course what would you expect. Moving forward I remember and reinforce to myself drinking=poor quality of life. I only have one life why destroy it with the simple action of had to mouth with that poison. Toolbox: Look at the quilts that I have made or in the process of making and know there is no way they could be done while drinking
Make myself proud
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