24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 495
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I know Kathy is on your mind right now dear Nic....mine too....and I know she would tell you that not drinking will give you the best quality of life you can have here....and the most time you can have. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Originally Posted by venuscat 
I know Kathy is on your mind right now dear Nic....mine too....and I know she would tell you that not drinking will give you the best quality of life you can have here....and the most time you can have. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
come off SR and when I logged back on, I had a message from Kathy and also found out she has since passed.. :-(
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Originally Posted by venuscat
I know Kathy is on your mind right now dear Nic....mine too....and I know she would tell you that not drinking will give you the best quality of life you can have here....and the most time you can have. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Originally Posted by Purplrks3647
Oh no (((Nic))) I'm so sorry! 
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Originally Posted by Nic233
Hi all, I am just checking in to keep me honest. It's just after 9.30pm on Sunday, Perth WA x
I am struggling to get back on track. I manage a few days and then i relapse again. I saw my GP last Sunday and she has given me a script for my meds which helped me get sober last time but unfortunately this time i have some hurdles to deal with ..
I don't want to write an essay but those who have been on this site for a while will know that i was diagnosed with bowel(colon)cancer a couple of years ago. It was pretty hairy being stage 3C but surgery and chemo worked it's magic. I have been having 3 monthly scans ever since and everything was great until a few weeks ago when i went back to my doctor for a general checkup after feeling absolutely exhausted, and dropping 8kg within a few weeks.
I was sent for bloods and a pet scan which unfortunately lit up like a christmas tree according to my oncologist. I am now sadly stage 4 with mets to my liver and lungs. I am only 42 so it's really not ideal (not that it ever is!!)
My biggest concern is that my oldest Son Jordan (20) is in Melbourne doing his Navy training to become a Marine Technician. Melbs is rife with covid and he can't leave base currently. Due to these circumstances, I have decided not to tell him that I am terminal as he would just panic and he can't come home right now.
We are lucky that Perth is Covid free thanks to our strict border closures, but I am having issues with my youngest Son who can't accept my reasoning for not telling Jordan about my health.
I am not feeling sorry for myself but my mentality right now is why shouldn't I drink if i may only have 6-12 months left at best. I don't want sympathy, that's not why i've posted this, It's more just a safe place to vent.
I know many of us are doing it tough with covid and other factors. I guess I will stay close to SR.. I do NOT want to waste the last months of my life pissed. I will try and take it day by day and not take that drink.
Anyway this has become the essay I didn't want.
I am struggling to get back on track. I manage a few days and then i relapse again. I saw my GP last Sunday and she has given me a script for my meds which helped me get sober last time but unfortunately this time i have some hurdles to deal with ..
I don't want to write an essay but those who have been on this site for a while will know that i was diagnosed with bowel(colon)cancer a couple of years ago. It was pretty hairy being stage 3C but surgery and chemo worked it's magic. I have been having 3 monthly scans ever since and everything was great until a few weeks ago when i went back to my doctor for a general checkup after feeling absolutely exhausted, and dropping 8kg within a few weeks.
I was sent for bloods and a pet scan which unfortunately lit up like a christmas tree according to my oncologist. I am now sadly stage 4 with mets to my liver and lungs. I am only 42 so it's really not ideal (not that it ever is!!)
My biggest concern is that my oldest Son Jordan (20) is in Melbourne doing his Navy training to become a Marine Technician. Melbs is rife with covid and he can't leave base currently. Due to these circumstances, I have decided not to tell him that I am terminal as he would just panic and he can't come home right now.
We are lucky that Perth is Covid free thanks to our strict border closures, but I am having issues with my youngest Son who can't accept my reasoning for not telling Jordan about my health.
I am not feeling sorry for myself but my mentality right now is why shouldn't I drink if i may only have 6-12 months left at best. I don't want sympathy, that's not why i've posted this, It's more just a safe place to vent.
I know many of us are doing it tough with covid and other factors. I guess I will stay close to SR.. I do NOT want to waste the last months of my life pissed. I will try and take it day by day and not take that drink.
Anyway this has become the essay I didn't want.
The depth, the ‘unfairness’, the magnitude of your situation really hits home for me. My sister was exactly your age with two children when her cancer came back as Stage 4. My heart is truly breaking for your situation.
COVID only complicates the matter. I am so sorry.
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I'm so sorry Nic. I've thought of you often these last couple of years. The courage you displayed when you first got the diagnosis was so incredibly inspiring .... I've never forgotten it. It isn't fair that this is happening to you ... I wish I could do something to help. I don't know what to do or what to say. All I know for certain is that alcohol isn't the answer. It's never the answer. Even when it feels like alcohol is the only answer. Especially when it feels like alcohol is the only answer. I'm thinking of you Nic and sending you all my love and support ❤️
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Been a while since I stopped in!
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Almost 3 years and 8 months and feeling better than I ever have in my life!
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Hello to ALL and hope all are WINNING the Daily battle to be FREE!
Doing very well here and staying SUPER BUSY as always with major DIY projects around the house.
Almost 3 years and 8 months and feeling better than I ever have in my life!
Thank you all for where I am today! Could not have done it without YOU!
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