Class of March 2016 Part 78
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I understand. I only deactivate my account when I feel I am spending too much time there. I took the app off of my phone and that helps. I seriously never heard of duckduckgo. Hmm. Looks interesting. Here I thought I was somewhat tech savvy.
PHX how are you doing?
Hey BBG!
PHX how are you doing?
Hey BBG!
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I am okay B. 'Okay' conjures up all sorts of responses with some, reading between the lines as meaning 'I am crap, but I will put on a brave face'. A bit of that I suppose. It is a matter of just putting one foot in front of t'other sometimes. Enrolling in semester 2 soon, which strangely (or perhaps not in my case) is sending anxiety crawling thru my bones. The new ACT psychologist stuff is deep- as I choose to make it (as is the case with any psychmological support) and I know it is helping -- because it is so bloody uncomfortable in meeting the past head on. It is not a matter of ruminating, and I am aware this can be a problem with me. Negative self esteem is so natural (which it is not), so familiar, perhaps in some sense- letting go of it is scary because it is all I have known.
Stupid whatever causes it.....
But my recovery runs strong- and I do remind myself that 3.5y ago- I could not read a bus timetable, remember a 4 digit pin number, had 'leaky' graft sites, had lots of pain, and was very malnourished (no chance of that now!). Stuff continues to drag on the that 'D' stuff. Any time I get a message from my ex (email- only when I ask how process is going) I feel a great deal of profound guilt and shame, which is as it should be- as a reminder, but not a place to stay- and that always throws my game. I have been watching friends get worse in their addictions,, which I am powerless to stop- except to be there, not enable bad behaviours or become a crusading idiot. Doing lots of creative art, now have (I hate absolute words like have to, should, must-sign of addictive thinking for me), now I WILL do more art with rules (for study), but I made a decish…
last year I pushed myself hard in study- to prove to myself I could do it. Did it,passed, done. So next semester going to choose 2, not 3 subjects- and do a fun subject and one with rules. (I have finished now so will not put ANYTHING else in brackets).
(I promise).
I found out a useless fact- watching 'happily ever after; light Brit crime movies. From starting in the late 90's, to 2016- 222 people were murdered in 'Midsommer murders'.
Stupid whatever causes it.....
But my recovery runs strong- and I do remind myself that 3.5y ago- I could not read a bus timetable, remember a 4 digit pin number, had 'leaky' graft sites, had lots of pain, and was very malnourished (no chance of that now!). Stuff continues to drag on the that 'D' stuff. Any time I get a message from my ex (email- only when I ask how process is going) I feel a great deal of profound guilt and shame, which is as it should be- as a reminder, but not a place to stay- and that always throws my game. I have been watching friends get worse in their addictions,, which I am powerless to stop- except to be there, not enable bad behaviours or become a crusading idiot. Doing lots of creative art, now have (I hate absolute words like have to, should, must-sign of addictive thinking for me), now I WILL do more art with rules (for study), but I made a decish…
last year I pushed myself hard in study- to prove to myself I could do it. Did it,passed, done. So next semester going to choose 2, not 3 subjects- and do a fun subject and one with rules. (I have finished now so will not put ANYTHING else in brackets).
(I promise).
I found out a useless fact- watching 'happily ever after; light Brit crime movies. From starting in the late 90's, to 2016- 222 people were murdered in 'Midsommer murders'.
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I watched my St. Louis Blues win last night and go on to the next level. 2 overtimes. I fell asleep twice but did wake up to see the winning goal. Pretty exciting here in my town today.
I hope everyone has a great day.
PHX - good job picking a fun class and keeping it at 2. Very wise I'd say. Like a blue whale with a beard.
I hope everyone has a great day.
PHX - good job picking a fun class and keeping it at 2. Very wise I'd say. Like a blue whale with a beard.
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Hey gang - happy hump day 
Good to see everyone here - nice approach to the scheduling PJ - I think it makes sense, too.
BBG, I often turn on the TV for background noise. It kind of short-circuits the constant/random thoughts that circulate in my brain
Nothing much going on today - which is just fine with me!!
Be good ...
Good to see everyone here - nice approach to the scheduling PJ - I think it makes sense, too.
BBG, I often turn on the TV for background noise. It kind of short-circuits the constant/random thoughts that circulate in my brain
Nothing much going on today - which is just fine with me!!
Be good ...
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Late good morning everybody. Slept like a log last night.
MITA you're not gonna' believe this. But I live alone and have 3 TV's. One of them is on 24/7.
Here's what so funny. I fall asleep with the TV on in my bedroom. If I wake up and don't like what's on I'll switch around to find something I like. Then go back to sleep. CRAZY!!!
MITA you're not gonna' believe this. But I live alone and have 3 TV's. One of them is on 24/7.
Here's what so funny. I fall asleep with the TV on in my bedroom. If I wake up and don't like what's on I'll switch around to find something I like. Then go back to sleep. CRAZY!!!
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Good morning.
My computer was doing a two hour update.
Yeah, we seem to be a small group now. I hope everyone is doing okay.
Kamry is 3 today. I remember telling you all about her birth. We've been through a lot together.
Have a great day, guys!
My computer was doing a two hour update.
Yeah, we seem to be a small group now. I hope everyone is doing okay.
Kamry is 3 today. I remember telling you all about her birth. We've been through a lot together.
Have a great day, guys!
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Great news Phoenix!
Well the boss told me to take tomorrow off since things have been slow at work....which is cool but it will be unpaid....not easy to relax but I'm gonna try & let the universe provide me some better opportunities....
Sooooo, I guess I have a 3 day weekend! No desire to drink so that's a good start
Well the boss told me to take tomorrow off since things have been slow at work....which is cool but it will be unpaid....not easy to relax but I'm gonna try & let the universe provide me some better opportunities....
Sooooo, I guess I have a 3 day weekend! No desire to drink so that's a good start
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PJ - Congrats Sir. I’m very happy for you.
Bobbie, I remember all those posts about “new baby smell”.
I used to think that at some point I’d grow beyond my need for this thread and SR, and maybe some here have. But right now I’m very comforted to know you all are here, and the rest of SR is too, whenever I need it.
Be good ...
Bobbie, I remember all those posts about “new baby smell”.
I used to think that at some point I’d grow beyond my need for this thread and SR, and maybe some here have. But right now I’m very comforted to know you all are here, and the rest of SR is too, whenever I need it.
Be good ...
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