Class of March 2016 Part 75
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Not to drag this out any further than I already have...but...
I'm not good at accepting or even asking for help. When I have asked over the years I haven't really received it (I'm not speaking of anyone here). Have to do it on my own which is why I suspect AA or similar groups haven't been my thing. Hard to explain but an alkie knows what I mean. So yeah, people that understand me.
I'm not good at accepting or even asking for help. When I have asked over the years I haven't really received it (I'm not speaking of anyone here). Have to do it on my own which is why I suspect AA or similar groups haven't been my thing. Hard to explain but an alkie knows what I mean. So yeah, people that understand me.
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I'd still think about at least retaining AA (and/or SMART and LifeRing) as options.
I understand the lone wolf stuff, but what have you to lose, especially if your way keeps breaking down?
D
I understand the lone wolf stuff, but what have you to lose, especially if your way keeps breaking down?
D
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You're absolutely right; and I'm not closing the door on any method that could help me. I do question if I'm too foolish to not let the addiction take me down. Addiction is a ******, and while I don't like to admit I've lost control, it's clear that I have. I remember not understanding how my brother could be depressed and still to consume a depressant. Now I do the same. It's not a path I want to follow no matter how many years I've outlived him.
It's like that scene in Stand By Me. "It should have been you." Yeah, it probably should have been.
But it is what it is. I appreciate the support and am thankful for all of you.
It's like that scene in Stand By Me. "It should have been you." Yeah, it probably should have been.
But it is what it is. I appreciate the support and am thankful for all of you.
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I wouldn't be ashamed of any of that 13th.,
I've have a few it 'should have been me' moments too - but it wasn't.
For some reason I'm still here - I try to make the most of that in a meaningful way.
D
I've have a few it 'should have been me' moments too - but it wasn't.
For some reason I'm still here - I try to make the most of that in a meaningful way.
D
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Originally Posted by Thirteenth 
Well, I was going to edit that last part out as too dramatic, but it's been fifteen minutes.
And now it feels like it looks like I've lost my grip entirely. My apologies to all for seeming to come unglued.
And now it feels like it looks like I've lost my grip entirely. My apologies to all for seeming to come unglued.
This is the pain coming out....and it needs to, it has to for you to be able to walk through the I SURRENDER door.
Just surrender. Just say I CAN'T do this on my own anymore. Help me please.
We will do anything to help....I will get on the phone with you this second if you like, or anytime....gosh.....look how you supported me through my fears this year.
All it would take is 5-7 days detox for you to believe in you again.
I promise you.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
I wouldn't be ashamed of any of that 13th.,
I've have a few it 'should have been me' moments too - but it wasn't.
For some reason I'm still here - I try to make the most of that in a meaningful way.
D
I've have a few it 'should have been me' moments too - but it wasn't.
For some reason I'm still here - I try to make the most of that in a meaningful way.
D
"For some reason I'm still here...."
Every day I thank God and the universe for you D....for your friendship and wisdom and compassion and composure.
You deal with a lot physically, yet you don't complain. You channel so much energy into helping so many people, and caring for so many people.
You have saved many lives....quite literally.
If the Queen knew about you, you would be on her honours list.
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Originally Posted by venuscat
Not to get too mooshy, but of course I will.
"For some reason I'm still here...."
Every day I thank God and the universe for you D....for your friendship and wisdom and compassion and composure.
You deal with a lot physically, yet you don't complain. You channel so much energy into helping so many people, and caring for so many people.
You have saved many lives....quite literally.
If the Queen knew about you, you would be on her honours list.
♥
"For some reason I'm still here...."
Every day I thank God and the universe for you D....for your friendship and wisdom and compassion and composure.
You deal with a lot physically, yet you don't complain. You channel so much energy into helping so many people, and caring for so many people.
You have saved many lives....quite literally.
If the Queen knew about you, you would be on her honours list.
♥
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Good morning.
So many hugs being sent, Lillian and PHX.
13th - you too. I know family is tough. You can do this. I've had some should've been me moments myself.
Yesterday I had a "could've been me" moment. I was speaking to a woman at the prison and she told me why she was there. 7 years ago she killed her 20 month old granddaughter while driving drunk. She was charged with 2nd degree murder and sentenced to 14 years. I felt like I was in a weird version of "A Christmas Carol" or something. How close I was to that being me.
MITA, Suze, Sam, Purple, BBG and Dee - Have a great day.
So many hugs being sent, Lillian and PHX.
13th - you too. I know family is tough. You can do this. I've had some should've been me moments myself.
Yesterday I had a "could've been me" moment. I was speaking to a woman at the prison and she told me why she was there. 7 years ago she killed her 20 month old granddaughter while driving drunk. She was charged with 2nd degree murder and sentenced to 14 years. I felt like I was in a weird version of "A Christmas Carol" or something. How close I was to that being me.
MITA, Suze, Sam, Purple, BBG and Dee - Have a great day.
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Hello all, and support to everyone.
So much important and heart wrenching stuff being posted here lately. I feel for everyone, partly because of what you are going through and partly because I can closely relate to all the alcohol related struggles.
I also second the "mooshy" comments about our Dee. I hope you know how much you mean to all of us.
I used to wish I could be "normal" and drink "normal", but now I don't really know what normal is - everyone has issues, mine just happen to involve drinking. Anyway, in this group I am more "normal", which I am also thankful for.
Talk to you all later
So much important and heart wrenching stuff being posted here lately. I feel for everyone, partly because of what you are going through and partly because I can closely relate to all the alcohol related struggles.
I also second the "mooshy" comments about our Dee. I hope you know how much you mean to all of us.
I used to wish I could be "normal" and drink "normal", but now I don't really know what normal is - everyone has issues, mine just happen to involve drinking. Anyway, in this group I am more "normal", which I am also thankful for.
Talk to you all later
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