24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 383
orangutan
Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 5,970
Originally Posted by BarbieKen 
Hi,
Today I visited my nephews' cross, on the side of the country road where he died. Oh I miss him so much!!
. I'm grateful to visit Robert, so to speak, in such a beautiful place on this Earth!
Checking in for my next 24......
Bobbi
Today I visited my nephews' cross, on the side of the country road where he died. Oh I miss him so much!!
. I'm grateful to visit Robert, so to speak, in such a beautiful place on this Earth! Checking in for my next 24......
Bobbi
orangutan
Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 5,970
Originally Posted by Snufkin
Day 4 and I’m not doing great. It’s nearly 1pm and I can’t get out of bed. I feel terrible for not being able to complete my degree. I don’t want to drink but I don’t really want to live. I just can’t tackle these dark thoughts... I have four packs of antidepressants, I wonder if I would die if I took them all, but I’m worried I’d probably just damage my liver and make my life even more unbearable. Sigh. I wish today would just end already...
orangutan
Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 5,970
Originally Posted by joandmelandhan
Okay so it is over. I can't believe it. Absolutely zero hope of a reconciliation.
The silence was broken and I so wish it hadn't been.
I won't cope alone.
I never have.
Ever.
I can't face it.
I've been fighting the urge to drink for over an hour now. I know I can't give up now but it HURTS.
I'm ashamed at my behaviour. He said he should have left that time I got the knife out and he's right. I'm not right in the head.
How can I seriously expect to be well-adjusted after 16 years of chronic alcohol abuse? Stupid.
I'm home alone with nothing except my own twisted thoughts for company. Sorry no a dear friend from this thread is messaging me. I'd be drinking if she hadn't and I am so grateful for that.
Why now?
I was slowly getting better. Now like the volatile little girl I am it's all crashing down and I'm frightened.
Please don't let me drink tonight.
I don't know what to do.
I just want him back.
Pathetic......
I'm sorry to go on I know I'm a lucky person with a good life but God I'm in pain. I've blown it and it hurts.
The silence was broken and I so wish it hadn't been.
I won't cope alone.
I never have.
Ever.
I can't face it.
I've been fighting the urge to drink for over an hour now. I know I can't give up now but it HURTS.
I'm ashamed at my behaviour. He said he should have left that time I got the knife out and he's right. I'm not right in the head.
How can I seriously expect to be well-adjusted after 16 years of chronic alcohol abuse? Stupid.
I'm home alone with nothing except my own twisted thoughts for company. Sorry no a dear friend from this thread is messaging me. I'd be drinking if she hadn't and I am so grateful for that.
Why now?
I was slowly getting better. Now like the volatile little girl I am it's all crashing down and I'm frightened.
Please don't let me drink tonight.
I don't know what to do.
I just want him back.
Pathetic......
I'm sorry to go on I know I'm a lucky person with a good life but God I'm in pain. I've blown it and it hurts.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,699
I am going to remind all who use this thread of some very important rules you NEED to respect.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2017
Posts: 1,373
Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
I am going to remind all who use this thread of some very important rules you NEED to respect.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,535
Originally Posted by PhoenixJ
I am going to remind all who use this thread of some very important rules you NEED to respect.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
You need to respect yourselves. You have to give yourselves a chance to heal and ACCEPT you are a worthy person- no more or less than any others. You need to know you are not alone in your recovery journey- and there are people here and in your communities to support you. You need to accept when people offer and not close them out.
YOU ARE NOT A NOTHING! Accepting self worth is very hard work....
You have to make the effort. For yourselves.
Support to all.
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Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,480
Breathe Jo - it's gonna be OK.
I was never great at being alone either - but I did a lot of growing in recovery and I think you have too.
The old rules no longer apply.Not only do you not have to stay in a relationship just because its there, but you can actually choose to be alone, or choose to be with someone - when that perfectly right someone comes along.
The fear is normal - but don't act on it.
You an d the girls are going to be OK
D
I was never great at being alone either - but I did a lot of growing in recovery and I think you have too.
The old rules no longer apply.Not only do you not have to stay in a relationship just because its there, but you can actually choose to be alone, or choose to be with someone - when that perfectly right someone comes along.
The fear is normal - but don't act on it.
You an d the girls are going to be OK
D
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,535
♥ This is a list of everyone who posted their commitment to stay sober in the last
24 hours: 10 pm EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥
1newcreation
5upersonic
abcowboy
Alysheba
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
boots45
BrandNewDay11
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
CeeFarro
ChickChick
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
cornpone
county111111
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
DonnyB
DreamCatcher17
Endoftheday
erfra7
esymarieb
FormerBeerLover
forstarlights
Gabe1980
gatorman
Gilmer
Goat
goodbyeevan
goose333
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
Jotick
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
Kit2017
Kris47
least
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Mags1
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
PhoenixJ
Plenny
PurpleKnight
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Rowlands1
Saskia
Shilla
shortstop81
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
Stubbs16
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
Taz0730
teaorcoffee
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
tomls
turniptheheat
vanaprastha
Vandermast
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
wiscsober
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
24 hours: 10 pm EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us!
♥1newcreation
5upersonic
abcowboy
Alysheba
aussieblue
Awake61
Babs1234
badgerden
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
boots45
BrandNewDay11
Bubovski
Canadian Koala
CeeFarro
ChickChick
ChloeRose63
Coldfusion
cornpone
county111111
CrossYourHeart
Daisybelle
Dee74
Delilah1
DonnyB
DreamCatcher17
Endoftheday
erfra7
esymarieb
FormerBeerLover
forstarlights
Gabe1980
gatorman
Gilmer
Goat
goodbyeevan
goose333
Hats
Hevyn
Jack16
joandmelandhan
Jotick
jsm273
julietUK
Kaneda8888
kenton
Kit2017
Kris47
least
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Mags1
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
PhoenixJ
Plenny
PurpleKnight
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
Rainman1
Rar
RedBerryJuniper
Rowlands1
Saskia
Shilla
shortstop81
Snufkin
soberista
SoberLeigh
stargazer016
Stubbs16
Sunflower79
Sunflowerlife
Sweetpeacan
Taz0730
teaorcoffee
tgirl
TheToddman
theVman31
tomls
turniptheheat
vanaprastha
Vandermast
venuscat
VikingGF
Vinificent
WaterOx
WeaverBird
wiscsober
Yixi
yukonm
Zanna
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
May 19, 2018
DonnyB ~ 1 week! ♥
esymarieb ~ 1 week! ♥
BrandNewDay11 ~ 2 weeks! ♥
CeeFarro ~ 2 weeks! ♥
county111111 ~ 4 weeks! ♥
ChloeRose63 ~ 5 months! ♥
shortstop81 ~ 8 months! ♥
DonnyB ~ 1 week! ♥
esymarieb ~ 1 week! ♥
BrandNewDay11 ~ 2 weeks! ♥
CeeFarro ~ 2 weeks! ♥
county111111 ~ 4 weeks! ♥
ChloeRose63 ~ 5 months! ♥
shortstop81 ~ 8 months! ♥
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Off to bed with a lot of emotion tonight....our darling least said goodbye to her beautiful Freddie today....he was the most amazing cat....much loved by many of us here. As is least.
orangutan
Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 5,970
Originally Posted by venuscat
Off to bed with a lot of emotion tonight....our darling least said goodbye to her beautiful Freddie today....he was the most amazing cat....much loved by many of us here. As is least.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2016
Location: Derbyshire Dales, UK.
Posts: 2,618
Sorry to hear about Freddie 
My cat just woke me to feed her (it's just gone 4am) and I was about to complain, but that has sure made me feel blessed to still have her. Hugs Least x
24 more for me please.
My cat just woke me to feed her (it's just gone 4am) and I was about to complain, but that has sure made me feel blessed to still have her. Hugs Least x24 more for me please.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
Posts: 13,045
Jo, I'm so sorry for all you have going on. I know right now it seems as though things are falling apart, but this is just your new beginning.
When I look back on relationships, the good, the bad, and the ugly, they each served s purpose for s certain time in my life, or shaped me into who I am today. You have grown and changed so much during your time with him, and those pieces of your past get to stay in the past.
You are going to find the person who is meant to come into this next phase of "Jo," and you are going to be happier than you were, until that happens you are going to spend time with your amazing girls, and also recognize how incredible you are.
Sending so much love your way my friend.❤️
When I look back on relationships, the good, the bad, and the ugly, they each served s purpose for s certain time in my life, or shaped me into who I am today. You have grown and changed so much during your time with him, and those pieces of your past get to stay in the past.
You are going to find the person who is meant to come into this next phase of "Jo," and you are going to be happier than you were, until that happens you are going to spend time with your amazing girls, and also recognize how incredible you are.
Sending so much love your way my friend.❤️
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