Class of September 2017 Support Thread Part 1
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Struggling.
Hi everyone, hope you are all well - and congratulations on whatever day you find yourself on!!
Today is my 19th, and is a tough one. What surprises me about this illness is how you can have a good couple of days, then suddenly instantly a craving hits you, takes you by surprise.
I think it started yesterday when one of my good friends invited me out tomorrow night, for plenty of wine. I'd love to go more than anything, and I actually agreed to go, but if I go I will drink, so I can't..
I only really feel safe in my house of an evening, watching documentaries and going to sleep early, I don't trust myself to go out and not drink.
Truth is if I go, I'll have a great time, but as soon as the next morning rolls around and I'm alone again I will feel incredible shame and loneliness. It will be awful.
So I'm promising here and now not to go, I am going to text her to let her know and continue on with trying to live healthy and happy days.
I'm envisioning waking up on Saturday morning (my day 21) making my smoothie and feeling proud.
All my best to you all x
Today is my 19th, and is a tough one. What surprises me about this illness is how you can have a good couple of days, then suddenly instantly a craving hits you, takes you by surprise.
I think it started yesterday when one of my good friends invited me out tomorrow night, for plenty of wine. I'd love to go more than anything, and I actually agreed to go, but if I go I will drink, so I can't..
I only really feel safe in my house of an evening, watching documentaries and going to sleep early, I don't trust myself to go out and not drink.
Truth is if I go, I'll have a great time, but as soon as the next morning rolls around and I'm alone again I will feel incredible shame and loneliness. It will be awful.
So I'm promising here and now not to go, I am going to text her to let her know and continue on with trying to live healthy and happy days.
I'm envisioning waking up on Saturday morning (my day 21) making my smoothie and feeling proud.
All my best to you all x
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Hi everyone, especially those who have just joined. It's great to meet you all. Congratulations to everyone who is working away at staying sober today and RAL and Deniedfish on their day 10 successes. Also to Kachal for taking the step to stop drinking for the first time. I can't tell you how much this forum has helped me and just having somewhere to go to share how you feel is an amazing thing. There is so much usful information on here that I'm sure it will help you as much as it has helped me.
I'm a bit flat today. Annoyed at being back to day 3. I am trying to keep my perspective in check and remember it was a slip for a day and I'm back again trying. I suppose what is underlying it all is that I'm scared that recovery wont stick this time. I just have to give it my all and keep on trying. My 15 days sober gave me enough space to give me a good start this time and haven't been wasted.
Good for you Rebecca, I think these kind of situations are really stressful and are difficult to say no too but staying at home sounds like a good idea. I made it eight months sober a few years ago and you do get used to socialising sober but, in my experience, it takes a bit of time to feel OK with it.
Thanks everyone for being here and I've loved the quote Healthygoals
I'm a bit flat today. Annoyed at being back to day 3. I am trying to keep my perspective in check and remember it was a slip for a day and I'm back again trying. I suppose what is underlying it all is that I'm scared that recovery wont stick this time. I just have to give it my all and keep on trying. My 15 days sober gave me enough space to give me a good start this time and haven't been wasted.
Good for you Rebecca, I think these kind of situations are really stressful and are difficult to say no too but staying at home sounds like a good idea. I made it eight months sober a few years ago and you do get used to socialising sober but, in my experience, it takes a bit of time to feel OK with it.
Thanks everyone for being here and I've loved the quote Healthygoals
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Good Morning everyone! Wow , how this group has exploded!! I am going to need to keep a notebook nearby to keep track of who is who! Very nice to see, so much support, 
Finished up my work week, I was able to read lots of your posts but unable to post my own, I would get started and than something would happen and I have to x out, than try again, x out,,, so I gave up.
My AV has been loud and strong all week, "just wait till thursday, go grocery shopping, just buy one bottle, to take the edge off,,, you deserve it,,," I am sure all who read this have had that creature on their shoulder. So plan was not to go to town at all, but husband has a list of things he needs done. Fortunately no grocery stores are involved. Because I would really rather stay home and play with the girls (dogs), read my book do nothing that requires to much thought or effort, so will get those chores done than return home to original plan.
My heart and prayers are with everyone in the south, Harvey, Irma, Jose, my gosh, so overwhelming. And here in the Northwest we are wishing one of those storms would make landfall here and put these fires out. I am not near any of the fires, but our air is so thick with smoke, I think visibility is one mile, street lights are on all day, everything tastes like a bad campfire. Feeling I need to restart my doomsday prepper period and start hoarding. Please everyone stay safe, we need each other!
Actually my other plan for the day is finding a recipe for crab cakes. Husband went to the coast and brought home some bay crabs, so now we need to do something with them. So off to the recipe books and see what I can find.
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Finished up my work week, I was able to read lots of your posts but unable to post my own, I would get started and than something would happen and I have to x out, than try again, x out,,, so I gave up.
My AV has been loud and strong all week, "just wait till thursday, go grocery shopping, just buy one bottle, to take the edge off,,, you deserve it,,," I am sure all who read this have had that creature on their shoulder. So plan was not to go to town at all, but husband has a list of things he needs done. Fortunately no grocery stores are involved. Because I would really rather stay home and play with the girls (dogs), read my book do nothing that requires to much thought or effort, so will get those chores done than return home to original plan.
My heart and prayers are with everyone in the south, Harvey, Irma, Jose, my gosh, so overwhelming. And here in the Northwest we are wishing one of those storms would make landfall here and put these fires out. I am not near any of the fires, but our air is so thick with smoke, I think visibility is one mile, street lights are on all day, everything tastes like a bad campfire. Feeling I need to restart my doomsday prepper period and start hoarding. Please everyone stay safe, we need each other!
Actually my other plan for the day is finding a recipe for crab cakes. Husband went to the coast and brought home some bay crabs, so now we need to do something with them. So off to the recipe books and see what I can find.
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badgerden - isn't this a crazy summer!?!? I can't believe the ash fall that we've had the past few days ... definitely doing a rain dance. So tragic. 
And I'm freaking out on behalf of friends in Naples, FL that have announced they're staying at home. Hopefully they are going to be okay with Irma. Cooking is my therapy. Crab cakes sound amazing!!!
It's my day 10! And it's also the first day I feel physically well. Truly well. It was a scary time, never worse. I'm a non drinker now and those terrible days are behind me. I'm thankful to be at a point where I have no cravings or desire to drink. I'll embrace it will I'm in it.
Hoping everyone stays safe wherever they are and has a good day/evening...
And I'm freaking out on behalf of friends in Naples, FL that have announced they're staying at home. Hopefully they are going to be okay with Irma. Cooking is my therapy. Crab cakes sound amazing!!!It's my day 10! And it's also the first day I feel physically well. Truly well. It was a scary time, never worse. I'm a non drinker now and those terrible days are behind me. I'm thankful to be at a point where I have no cravings or desire to drink. I'll embrace it will I'm in it.
Hoping everyone stays safe wherever they are and has a good day/evening...
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Hi,
Sorry to hear you're having a bad day Rebecca. You're definitely doing the right thing not going out tomorrow night though. As you say, you know you will drink and it's far too early imo to 'test' ourselves, going into a pub and seeing how we are with soft drinks Try not to see it as punishment though - treat yourslef tomorrow night, do something good Get a movie, get ice cream, delicious soft drinks, take away, a good book, herbal bath and a lovely early night in fresh bed linen. You will feel fabulous on Happy Sober Saturday
Congrats on day 3 sober & Gabe, day 10 60andbeyond and day 4 stronger
hey badger Enjoy the crabs -end of the working week for me too. Will be glad to see the end of this week, it's been quite bad.
Sorry to hear you're having a bad day Rebecca. You're definitely doing the right thing not going out tomorrow night though. As you say, you know you will drink and it's far too early imo to 'test' ourselves, going into a pub and seeing how we are with soft drinks
Try not to see it as punishment though - treat yourslef tomorrow night, do something good Get a movie, get ice cream, delicious soft drinks, take away, a good book, herbal bath and a lovely early night in fresh bed linen. You will feel fabulous on Happy Sober Saturday Congrats on day 3 sober & Gabe, day 10 60andbeyond and day 4 stronger
hey badger
Enjoy the crabs -end of the working week for me too. Will be glad to see the end of this week, it's been quite bad.
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hey guys, i actually went to arts and crafts which is different place where i used to garden. i made the effort and being with people, i felt great that i was doing things but ended up frustrated and impatient. feeling good doing something is very hard for me, so in the end i came home took dogs out and went to sleep. disregarded my meds and ended up having small drink. so again tomo will be my day 1 and take responsibility which i have done and i have more than 90% reduced my drinking. just finding a routine and confidence in what i am doing.xx
sry guys for writing its me again showing how insecure i am and i am actually trying do this.
Will say past weeks i would never been able to bring my drink to actually 1 or 2 a week, never done it, im actually not looking at reducing i am wanting to be absent and i will keep trying doing and going.
sry
sry guys for writing its me again showing how insecure i am and i am actually trying do this.
Will say past weeks i would never been able to bring my drink to actually 1 or 2 a week, never done it, im actually not looking at reducing i am wanting to be absent and i will keep trying doing and going.
sry
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So glad you are here Kachal. A lot of people can relate, drinking all day long, drinking when they wake up, drinking to go back to sleep... hiding bottles... its gets very tiring. You have made a great first step- stick around and the support here I have learned is amazing.
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Checking in today!I made a huge move- and confided in a long time family friend who is in AA that I need to get into an AA room. Tonight I am going, this is the biggest step I have ever made.. I'm scared, nervous, excited, feel like crying... hopeful.
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Hi Erratic. I'm a wee bit concerned about you and I hope you are OK? You've got nothing to apologise for and I think it's great you are posting and still connecting with everyone. I get how hard this is. The frustration and needing to get up again and try again. Im back after another slip too. You can do this and please believe that. Maybe find someone in person to talk to? And keep posting, I'll be checking!
We are all in it together! Gabe x
We are all in it together! Gabe x
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That's absolutely brilliant Icandothis! Great step towards your future. I'm really thinking about it too but not as brave as you yet. Let us know how it goes tonight.
Goodnight everyone. I hope you are all feeling alright and being kind to yourselves. Take care everyone in the States who are coping with mother nature right now. Thoughts are with you from across the water. Gabe x
Goodnight everyone. I hope you are all feeling alright and being kind to yourselves. Take care everyone in the States who are coping with mother nature right now. Thoughts are with you from across the water. Gabe x
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Hi support friends. Day 6 and "bang" what a difference ! Depression gone, headache gone. Thanks all of you for responding and being here for me.
Now, boredom has set in already so my thoughts need to find out what I enjoy in life. Never had thoughts beyond grabbing a "cold one" before and feeling like crap for 5 days - repeat.
I just want to thank all of my SR friends. You are my wind beneath my wings.
xxoo
Now, boredom has set in already so my thoughts need to find out what I enjoy in life. Never had thoughts beyond grabbing a "cold one" before and feeling like crap for 5 days - repeat.
I just want to thank all of my SR friends. You are my wind beneath my wings.
xxoo
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Bluee-that's great you're feeling better. Isn't it amazing to be clear headed.
Erratic - so sorry to hear you're having a bad time but it's great you're back here so soon. Can you throw the rest out and get some sleep. start afresh tomorrow. Maybe try post on here when you get cravings next time-someone will try talk you out of it. We do understand.
Good on you for getting to a meeting Icandothis - hope it all goes well for you. It must be comforting to know someone in the rooms already who will be able to help and guide you. better than walking in alone too
Night Gabe and everyone else.Sleep well.x
Erratic - so sorry to hear you're having a bad time but it's great you're back here so soon. Can you throw the rest out and get some sleep. start afresh tomorrow. Maybe try post on here when you get cravings next time-someone will try talk you out of it. We do understand.
Good on you for getting to a meeting Icandothis - hope it all goes well for you. It must be comforting to know someone in the rooms already who will be able to help and guide you. better than walking in alone too
Night Gabe and everyone else.Sleep well.x
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Welcome stronger badlands kachal and icandothis
congrats Bluedog General, Healthygoals, Thomas, denied fish, 60 and beyond on your milestones..in fact congrats to all no matter what day it is.
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congrats Bluedog General, Healthygoals, Thomas, denied fish, 60 and beyond on your milestones..in fact congrats to all no matter what day it is.
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Hi everyone.
Day 8 done, feeling great with a positive attitude. Pain from my spinal fracture was a bit better today so I actually went to the grocery store, brought home nothing but healthy wholesome food.
Picked up my return to work letter to be able to go go work on Monday. Having a meeting with my boss, the CEO that I directly report to, tomorrow. She is aware I've been out due to stress and anxiety and had to get the letter from the specialist I'm working with. I know I will be under the microscope for a long time but I don't care. Bring it on! Nobody at work knows anything of my alcohol addiction, it would be career suicide.
Anyway, congrats to those racking up the sober days and to those struggling, don't give up. I've had more starts than I can count.
Goodnight class. Wish me luck tomorrow!
Day 8 done, feeling great with a positive attitude. Pain from my spinal fracture was a bit better today so I actually went to the grocery store, brought home nothing but healthy wholesome food.
Picked up my return to work letter to be able to go go work on Monday. Having a meeting with my boss, the CEO that I directly report to, tomorrow. She is aware I've been out due to stress and anxiety and had to get the letter from the specialist I'm working with. I know I will be under the microscope for a long time but I don't care. Bring it on! Nobody at work knows anything of my alcohol addiction, it would be career suicide.
Anyway, congrats to those racking up the sober days and to those struggling, don't give up. I've had more starts than I can count.
Goodnight class. Wish me luck tomorrow!
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