SoberLeigh

There's baby news!!!!!

I would like to congratulate her, too!!!!!!

SoberLeigh

The site went wonky on me, too.


Quickly flashing error messages - eerie.

SoberLeigh

There is a thread. I'll link it in a minute.

SoberLeigh

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...yrs-sober.html

SoberLeigh

The forum crashed again for me.

Delizadee

It did for me too. Wiped a few of the posts I attempted.

Site can't handle the awesomeness today.

Delizadee

by some strange incidence, a full can of my favorite beer was left laying on the ground by my house wall/back gate. I picked the thing up with little thought beyond, "oh the irony" and put it beside it's empty comrade on the brick wall between mine and my neighbours house.

If ever there was a day to drink, yesterday would have been it.
Sick and a fistful of wild, screaming children from 7:30 am to 9:30 pm.

Nawp. No drinky drinky yesterday or today.
No pride here, just a feeling of humble gratitude that the poison carrot was dangled in front of me and there was nary a second of internal battle over what to do with it.
If that is not the gift of freedom, I don't know what is.

Gilmer

That's fantastic, Del!

I love the phrase, "fistful of wild, screaming children!"

Delizadee

this is how i felt towards day end yesterday


I survive by expending stress and frustration through intense and frequent eye rolls.
as privately as possible

Delizadee

it's like swearing in eye language.

tomls

You look a whole lot like Ironman!

Delizadee

Slick: Decides to be coolest. Babysitter. Ever. By buying a bunch of junk food to send kids home all hopped up before my 3 days off.

Notsoslick: feeds kids junk food at 4 forgetting they're here til 9.

Refer to photograph above.

IWLSAST

Did I read that Dee turned double figures today. Wow, congrats, my friend. You are an amazing inspiration to so many-including me. Hope that you get some basking time in whatever you desire today! Good stuff.

Dee74

Thanks guys - yesterday I was pretty ill from my flu shot but I might just take the rest of the day off today.

The site is wonky but I have no idea why - I assume someones on the case

D

courage2

I hope you catch up rest tonight, Dee.

Deliza, can I ask how old you are? No matter -- I never, ever had your energy. You're amazing!

How are you doing, tom?

gleefan

Dee - Congrats on 10 years. What you do to help other alcoholics is really special. I hope you feel better today.

I have moved in to my new digs. It has been an extremely busy 5 days of packing and hauling, and I am spent. I thought about drinking once or twice during the many trips back and forth with carfuls of stuff. Just the thought of escaping from the stress of the tight moving deadlines.

I quickly countered those dreams of escape with reality. If I were hungover I wouldn't meet the moving deadline. Even further I'd quickly go back to how much I used to drink, then get even worse. Even further if I wouldn't be able to perform well at my job. Even further I'd lose what I've worked so hard for with career, home, and family. No thanks!

courage2

^^^ Excellent, glee Congratulations on all you've done. And just in time -- this is a great time of year to get outside and away from all those boxes & even the memory of deadlines!

Delizadee

That's awesome glee I do that too when those thoughts strike. So far still sober and trucking on.

Courage I'm 33. and a half, going on 47, going on 25. I have issues?
Today was a really, really good day. No such thing as perfect.
But good. We had the couple hours of insanity inside. A fine feast, and then I gave in and let them run around for close to two hours in the back yard while I raked up as much of the rest of the dog poop as quickly as I could while they ran around through it Had to jump fence a few times to retrieve ball. My body works better now that I'm sober and active.
Afterwards we came in, lysol wiped ourselves ha, then had freezies and then a dance/bubble party with the tunes blasting, and I made popcorn (two regular faves)
I am a ridiculous person. Kids love me. My one boy came running back to me after his mom to give me a hug <3 the kids I babysit love coming here. I think I'm the right amount of no B.S. behaviour allowed and doling out treats and fun time at the right times. The littlest boy says "I love you Dee" or calls me mom. Adorbs.
I always call myself the funny looking lady with the white hair. I've always loved kids and watching them, always wanted a gaggle of my own kids.
So this kind of warms my heart.
And it makes mommy and me time with my girl even more special.
I feel winning. Thanks for the compliment. I think it's one of those "how I was made" things. I need purpose to have energy. And the purpose has to have some meaning to me. Otherwise I'm just a drone.

Kind of had some rough moments today of extremely emotional crying.
Just hurts have to come out I suppose. This too shall pass.
I'm ok with the downs, the crying helps, the ups make me so grateful, and I talked to my dad tonight.
Things never go quite as I expect them too . Expectations are the devils playground. Building sites for future resentments.
Lower the bar and work on acceptance.

To do, to do. So much to do.

But I will not drink! Tomorrow, nor today!

This thread is so great. You guys really keep me going.

Gilmer

Glee, I am breathing a sigh of relief that you are finally there in the new house.

In the times that I've moved, I've typically been very industrious at packing boxes and labeling the contents; but the second I am at the new place, I immediately flop in a chair, and my tendency is to not budge for a year! Meanwhile, I live out of the boxes!

I'll bet you won't flop for that long!

My next move will be downsizing. That is going to be tough! It might be sooner rather than later, too!

Del, your house sounds like an absolute blast!

What's up with you today, Badge?

FBL

More work today on my current BIG book project. This one's gonna take months to complete. So glad that I can tackle these big projects and not stress about them. Just another gift of sobriety