Class of March 2016 part 29
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Originally Posted by clearlyheaded 
Home from work waiting for my dinner to finish cooking. Nothing no exciting, I already ate the pork chop leftovers while my Mac and cheese is baking (Not homemade, but store bought). Maybe with the money I save by not drinking I can re-subscribe to Home Chef. It's awesome to have the meal planned and fresh ingredients delivered to your door. I started reading Smashed and her recounting of her first drunk had me flashing back to my early drunks and made me feel physically sick. I can't believe I never ended up in the hospital or worse. Or ended up in bad situations. I was very, very lucky.
Is Smashed a good book?
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Originally Posted by CaseyW
I used to collect old vintage paper moon photographs, Lillian. I miss that collection. Lost it in a storage room auction seven or eight years ago, yet another indirect fatality of my drinking. I'll probably never collect them again as I'd always be regretting/missing the ones I lost.
So day 1 coming to a close. Glad I was sober. My girls each had their first day of high school/college. They needed me present.
Saturday was not a good night. Started out as a good night at an gala at a well-known institute. Met a former US Vice President...very nice man!
So, what do I do? Drove home with my sister in the car after too much wine. On our way up to my house we found the road closed due to an accident, so I ended up having to take a detour up a very dangerous road. Turns out a drunk driver caused an accident and ended up killing someone. The victim's mini cooper exploded in the accident and the poor man was burnt to a crisp about 10 minutes from my house. The drunk driver is just fine, although of course facing felony manslaughter charges.
All I keep thinking is that could have been me. I can't shake this feeling that life just gave me a huge warning. Message received and I'm so grateful it's not me in jail right now!
MITA, I liked that you had that talk with your wife. It was for her, but it was for you too. It's out there and totally transparent. That must feel good.
Fred, congratulations on raising a son you're proud of.
Love to you all in all your struggles and wins. You guys are doing great, even when it doesn't feel like it. Keep fighting the good fight.
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Hey, purple! Have missed you! MITA, I remember having that conversation with my husband 3 years ago. He quit for about 7 months. I quit for two weeks and started hiding my alcohol. I hope your result is better than mine was. I'm going to go to bed. Sweet dreams class!
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Good night everyone even though I'm pretty sure I'm the only one awake! Ha.
Tonight sucked! My crazy mother showed up at my daughters sporting event and I instantly went into a state of panic! I had to leave!!! It was terrible.
I told my husband that I KNEW that drinking would fix the awful feelings I was experiencing temporarily but I wasn't willing to deal with the hellish consequences the next day. As much as I wanted to drink away the panic, anxiety & PTSD symptoms I had after seeing my mother....I didn't. I took my daughter to dinner instead.
Does anyone have a negative reaction to a family member touching you? When my mother touches me, tries to hug me etc I feel very sick to my stomach, get upset & hyperventilate.
My husband thinks it's because when I was a kid she would beat me or emotionally abuse me and then say she's sorry and hug me. She was crazzzzzy! 😲 I still flinch when she raises her hand real quick! I'm afraid she's gonna hit me! :-(
She screwed me up pretty bad. I hate her. I'm glad today is over. I'm grateful to you guys and God for helping me stay sober today. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Good night!
Tonight sucked! My crazy mother showed up at my daughters sporting event and I instantly went into a state of panic! I had to leave!!! It was terrible.
I told my husband that I KNEW that drinking would fix the awful feelings I was experiencing temporarily but I wasn't willing to deal with the hellish consequences the next day. As much as I wanted to drink away the panic, anxiety & PTSD symptoms I had after seeing my mother....I didn't. I took my daughter to dinner instead.
Does anyone have a negative reaction to a family member touching you? When my mother touches me, tries to hug me etc I feel very sick to my stomach, get upset & hyperventilate.
My husband thinks it's because when I was a kid she would beat me or emotionally abuse me and then say she's sorry and hug me. She was crazzzzzy! 😲 I still flinch when she raises her hand real quick! I'm afraid she's gonna hit me! :-(
She screwed me up pretty bad. I hate her. I'm glad today is over. I'm grateful to you guys and God for helping me stay sober today. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Good night!
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Originally Posted by LillianGish
What a lovely thought to collect vintage paper moon photographs. They are always so intriguing to me. Maybe I should give that a try and find a way to display some on the wall in our bedroom. They have such a peaceful charm about them. Hmmm....wheels turning. I definitely am looking for distractions.
Glad you made it home safe. That accident sounds awful. It's amazing I never hurt someone in all the hundreds and hundreds of times I drove drunk. Though I did run into and demolish a stranger's carport when I got my DWI in 2004. Glad I didn't hurt anyone except myself in that one, and mine wasn't that bad--just a busted nose.
Hmm, so now you've met Dan Quayle and Englebert Humperdinck this year. Quite an exciting life you lead.
I'm really going to bed now. Goodnight class!
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Originally Posted by KiKi0615
Good night everyone even though I'm pretty sure I'm the only one awake! Ha.
Tonight sucked! My crazy mother showed up at my daughters sporting event and I instantly went into a state of panic! I had to leave!!! It was terrible.
I told my husband that I KNEW that drinking would fix the awful feelings I was experiencing temporarily but I wasn't willing to deal with the hellish consequences the next day. As much as I wanted to drink away the panic, anxiety & PTSD symptoms I had after seeing my mother....I didn't. I took my daughter to dinner instead.
Does anyone have a negative reaction to a family member touching you? When my mother touches me, tries to hug me etc I feel very sick to my stomach, get upset & hyperventilate.
My husband thinks it's because when I was a kid she would beat me or emotionally abuse me and then say she's sorry and hug me. She was crazzzzzy! ?de32 I still flinch when she raises her hand real quick! I'm afraid she's gonna hit me! :-(
She screwed me up pretty bad. I hate her. I'm glad today is over. I'm grateful to you guys and God for helping me stay sober today. ?dc4f?dffc?dc4f?dffc?dc4f?dffc
Good night!
Tonight sucked! My crazy mother showed up at my daughters sporting event and I instantly went into a state of panic! I had to leave!!! It was terrible.
I told my husband that I KNEW that drinking would fix the awful feelings I was experiencing temporarily but I wasn't willing to deal with the hellish consequences the next day. As much as I wanted to drink away the panic, anxiety & PTSD symptoms I had after seeing my mother....I didn't. I took my daughter to dinner instead.
Does anyone have a negative reaction to a family member touching you? When my mother touches me, tries to hug me etc I feel very sick to my stomach, get upset & hyperventilate.
My husband thinks it's because when I was a kid she would beat me or emotionally abuse me and then say she's sorry and hug me. She was crazzzzzy! ?de32 I still flinch when she raises her hand real quick! I'm afraid she's gonna hit me! :-(
She screwed me up pretty bad. I hate her. I'm glad today is over. I'm grateful to you guys and God for helping me stay sober today. ?dc4f?dffc?dc4f?dffc?dc4f?dffc
Good night!
you need to remove this person from your life! You don't need her doing the stuff to your kids that she did to you. Your well-being and your children is the most important thing.
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Originally Posted by Bobbieka
Hey, purple! Have missed you!
MITA, I remember having that conversation with my husband 3 years ago. He quit for about 7 months. I quit for two weeks and started hiding my alcohol. I hope your result is better than mine was.
I'm going to go to bed.
Sweet dreams class!
MITA, I remember having that conversation with my husband 3 years ago. He quit for about 7 months. I quit for two weeks and started hiding my alcohol. I hope your result is better than mine was.
I'm going to go to bed.
Sweet dreams class!
Sam, Kiki, AK and LG - thanks for the love. Sometimes I think, with support like we have here why do any of us continue to drink. But that just shows how hard this can be.
Casey, you are doing awesome. I like seeing your days rack up. Awesome job.
Have a great day everyone. I'll check back in later
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LG, that's a pretty scary story. I've woken up a few mornings wondering how the heck I made it home. That's one of the things that turned me into a mostly home drinker.
Fred, that's great that your son is doing so well. I'm very proud of both of my kids - somehow we managed to not screw them up (i think).
Fred, that's great that your son is doing so well. I'm very proud of both of my kids - somehow we managed to not screw them up (i think).
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One thing I love about this place is that I'm not alone. I love kikis narrative that were all floating together on the ocean in one big life raft trying to help each other survive.
PS: I will not drink today I'm tired of being a moron :-)
PS: I will not drink today I'm tired of being a moron :-)
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Kayak - I am also holding on to that vision. I'm glad I'm back on the raft now. Congrats on having a week under your belt.
Bobbie - Not quite ready on day 2 for a big healthy meal and run. But you guys keep inspiring me!!
MITA - I worry constantly whether my kids are going to be messed up in some way. Not from seeing me drunk because they really haven't and they're still so young. But simply by having it in their DNA....part of my recovery this time around though is to focus on me in the beginning though. Which in turn will benefit them.
PR - I wish I had oil knowledge to rid myself (or lessen) the anxiety I just mentioned. LOL. The most I've done so far is to roll some "Stress relief" on my wrist on mornings when I feel hungover and it focuses me on my breathing. But ya know what, now that smell is associated with post-drinking feelings. I may just chuck that one out the door.
Kiki - I'm SO proud of you for coming up with a solution to get through that angst. Every time you do that, your AV gets a little weaker. You're sockin' it to that monster with every little win! I'm so sorry for your past and relationship. It's making you even stronger today, though.
Clearly - I'm glad you're back. I own Smashed and forgot about it. May have to re-read. I was actually thinking about getting a subscription for my husband to one of those delivery services (Blue Apron or another) - are they super expensive? Maybe even one delivery a week. I wish I cooked better meals for him and our family but it's just not in my reality yet.
LG - That sounds so scary. I'm proud you took that as a wake-up call to re-commit. Happy to have you here so we can live vicariously through your fancy, famous and fun events - soberly now of course.
Fred - Having your son so close to the beach sounds awesome, lots of visits. And that is great that he has turned out to be a good young man. It's all I want for my own!
Casey - I can't recall which video game you play but my son has started to get into video games a little. We rent from the library. I'm on board with this as it has been SO hot this summer, we need breaks inside every once in awhile. He's playing Mario Galaxy this week. Which means I get lots of turns "helping" and defeating Bowser etc. Fun!
Hi Purplr! Hi Sam!
Thank you ALL for your help yesterday. It's what got me through that horrid Day 1. SO HAPPY to be waking up feeling better. It's the start of a brand new day. I won't drink today! Drinking is SO DUMB.
Bobbie - Not quite ready on day 2 for a big healthy meal and run. But you guys keep inspiring me!!
MITA - I worry constantly whether my kids are going to be messed up in some way. Not from seeing me drunk because they really haven't and they're still so young. But simply by having it in their DNA....part of my recovery this time around though is to focus on me in the beginning though. Which in turn will benefit them.
PR - I wish I had oil knowledge to rid myself (or lessen) the anxiety I just mentioned. LOL. The most I've done so far is to roll some "Stress relief" on my wrist on mornings when I feel hungover and it focuses me on my breathing. But ya know what, now that smell is associated with post-drinking feelings. I may just chuck that one out the door.
Kiki - I'm SO proud of you for coming up with a solution to get through that angst. Every time you do that, your AV gets a little weaker. You're sockin' it to that monster with every little win! I'm so sorry for your past and relationship. It's making you even stronger today, though.
Clearly - I'm glad you're back. I own Smashed and forgot about it. May have to re-read. I was actually thinking about getting a subscription for my husband to one of those delivery services (Blue Apron or another) - are they super expensive? Maybe even one delivery a week. I wish I cooked better meals for him and our family but it's just not in my reality yet.
LG - That sounds so scary. I'm proud you took that as a wake-up call to re-commit. Happy to have you here so we can live vicariously through your fancy, famous and fun events - soberly now of course.
Fred - Having your son so close to the beach sounds awesome, lots of visits.
And that is great that he has turned out to be a good young man. It's all I want for my own! Casey - I can't recall which video game you play but my son has started to get into video games a little. We rent from the library. I'm on board with this as it has been SO hot this summer, we need breaks inside every once in awhile. He's playing Mario Galaxy this week. Which means I get lots of turns "helping" and defeating Bowser etc. Fun!
Hi Purplr! Hi Sam!
Thank you ALL for your help yesterday. It's what got me through that horrid Day 1. SO HAPPY to be waking up feeling better. It's the start of a brand new day. I won't drink today! Drinking is SO DUMB.
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