Class of June 2016 Support Thread Part 3
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Join Date: Jun 2016
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Starting day 28. Feeling so-so.
I thought for sure I was gonna drink yesterday. I kind of had it planned in my mind that I would. Although, I kept thinking, "if I drank, then what am I gonna do? Sit and watch TV and get nothing done? Feel like garbage for days? That just sounds ridiculous when I think about it."
And I just kept busy, visited friends, cleaned a bit, shopping and dinner and before I knew it, it was nighttime.
Although I'm doing well not drinking, I don't think I'm doing enough to stay sober. I don't really have any support besides SR. I don't go to any meetings. Not sure what I'm doing now.
I thought for sure I was gonna drink yesterday. I kind of had it planned in my mind that I would. Although, I kept thinking, "if I drank, then what am I gonna do? Sit and watch TV and get nothing done? Feel like garbage for days? That just sounds ridiculous when I think about it."
And I just kept busy, visited friends, cleaned a bit, shopping and dinner and before I knew it, it was nighttime.
Although I'm doing well not drinking, I don't think I'm doing enough to stay sober. I don't really have any support besides SR. I don't go to any meetings. Not sure what I'm doing now.
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Good job on not drinking Disonant. I'm feeling the same as you...what now? Sobriety isn't giving me the same boost as it was, but I can't go back to drinking, so I'm caught in this restless purgatory. 
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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I got into a program of recovery in my AA groups, that as long as I'm trying to do the steps and talk to my sponsor, I'm sober. They do say, though, if you're not gonna work through the steps, AA won't work. I can't say for certain. I'm all in though. I'm not courting disaster any more. I have to learn to live sober and be comfortable and that's what that particular program is about. Jury's still out though.
The " what now " feeling is what made me relapse or slip up. Nothing to go forward into.
---- ordered a movie to watch this afternoon. Gotta keep from worrying and ruining today worrying about tomorrow and if in gonna get screwed into working on a labor crew all week. Got to let it go.
The " what now " feeling is what made me relapse or slip up. Nothing to go forward into.
---- ordered a movie to watch this afternoon. Gotta keep from worrying and ruining today worrying about tomorrow and if in gonna get screwed into working on a labor crew all week. Got to let it go.
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Texas
Posts: 159
CNGY: Just jump back in... you'll be okay! I read a quote and it said this to be exact. "You don't get over addiction by stopping using. You recover by creating a new life where it is easier to not use. If you don't create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addition will catch up with you again." That's true and I think that's whats been the hardest for me is creating a new life. I liked my old life I just didn't like my drinking. I noticed if I go to the same spots or hang with certain people I get drinking anxiety, those triggers catch me and it's so uncomfortable. I'm learning to be stronger than my alcoholism is. You can do this!!!
Disonant: Good job on not drinking even though it was almost planned. Keep staying busy that's what has to be done or you get bored and fall back in old habits.
luvmygirls: I feel the same as you so I'm doing long term plans that only my sober self can do. I signed myself, husband and kids up for a color run on 09/17th this morning. It starts early in the morning too so no hangovers allowed from my husband! I'm having to keep myself busy, I started going to church again which knocks out one hour on Sundays. I know that sounds dumb but every hour matters to me right now, those hours are so important. Before I would just be in a rush to get home so I could get my drinking going as soon as possible, now I'm doing everything in my power to stay away from home to avoid the old nudge from beer. I hate this crap and feel like a damn prisoner in my own mind and body. Everyday is getting easier, yesterday was my very best day yet. I want to feel like that again. *sigh*
Heres to another sober week, lets just say a sober Monday as we're going one day at a time. ((HUGS everyone))
Disonant: Good job on not drinking even though it was almost planned. Keep staying busy that's what has to be done or you get bored and fall back in old habits.
luvmygirls: I feel the same as you so I'm doing long term plans that only my sober self can do. I signed myself, husband and kids up for a color run on 09/17th this morning. It starts early in the morning too so no hangovers allowed from my husband! I'm having to keep myself busy, I started going to church again which knocks out one hour on Sundays. I know that sounds dumb but every hour matters to me right now, those hours are so important. Before I would just be in a rush to get home so I could get my drinking going as soon as possible, now I'm doing everything in my power to stay away from home to avoid the old nudge from beer. I hate this crap and feel like a damn prisoner in my own mind and body. Everyday is getting easier, yesterday was my very best day yet. I want to feel like that again. *sigh*
Heres to another sober week, lets just say a sober Monday as we're going one day at a time. ((HUGS everyone))
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Pretty good day with the boys.
No more wasted time.
4 long days at work then TO THE BEACH !!
Going to a place we've never been so it'll be an exploratory trip. Kidsll have a blast I hope. I can't wait to play with them on the beach.
Anyway- looking forward to it sober, that'll be a change for REAL .
Off to sleep I hope
I hope you all have some rest and a good tomorrow
No more wasted time.
4 long days at work then TO THE BEACH !!
Going to a place we've never been so it'll be an exploratory trip. Kidsll have a blast I hope. I can't wait to play with them on the beach.
Anyway- looking forward to it sober, that'll be a change for REAL .
Off to sleep I hope
I hope you all have some rest and a good tomorrow
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: USA
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27 days in here. I'm feeling just so so too. Kind of blah today. Haven't felt like going to yoga class the past several days. Spent Saturday and Sunday with my family and now they are back home and I'm alone. Which I usually like but just feeling a bit lonely now. Mainly I'm worried about this lump on my ring finger. Don't have health insurance so haven't been to doc yet.
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Hello D. Yes well I am a patient at a reduced rate clinic based on my income. I think they may refer me to a specialist and those are full pay and especially if surgery is involved. It's probably benign but I should call the clinic and see what can be done.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Toronto
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Day 59. I am more and more optimistic each day. I no longer envision dark days ahead. I see having to rebuild my whole life as an opportunity instead of a punishment. alcohol sapped me of any ambition. feels good to feel it coming back.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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Day 50.
Trucks fixed at work. If I drive this week. I'll be thankful from now on, that I'm not shovelling stuff in 90-something degree. If I'm able I'll be listening to recovery speakers as much as I can today.
I'm not holding off on having ambition return, I think I'm just Leary of relapsing. I'm concentrating or at least reminding myself to, of one day at a time. Life in the now. 24 hrs is all I can do, and my higher power- I'm asking to take me through today.
Trucks fixed at work. If I drive this week. I'll be thankful from now on, that I'm not shovelling stuff in 90-something degree. If I'm able I'll be listening to recovery speakers as much as I can today.
I'm not holding off on having ambition return, I think I'm just Leary of relapsing. I'm concentrating or at least reminding myself to, of one day at a time. Life in the now. 24 hrs is all I can do, and my higher power- I'm asking to take me through today.
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Texas
Posts: 159
Hey my sober family... Just checking in before I go to bed. Super hectic work day for me and a long class today at work. I've worked for this company since I was 19 and have taken so many classes to stay certified or get certified but today's took the cake!!! So thankful I'm sober and was able to focus and completed it.
Feeling kind of down today, I'm just going to assume it's this damn Texas heat that's making me feel like this. I actually almost cried today and I don't know why. Just feel broken down and tired, no more escapes and calling friends for
Weeknight drinks on the lake. I wish I had sober friends...
Stay strong everyone!!!
Feeling kind of down today, I'm just going to assume it's this damn Texas heat that's making me feel like this. I actually almost cried today and I don't know why. Just feel broken down and tired, no more escapes and calling friends for
Weeknight drinks on the lake. I wish I had sober friends...
Stay strong everyone!!!
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Join Date: May 2016
Location: San Antonio
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42 days complete, today is 43. Really loving this clarity of thought that staying sober affords me. Pretty much a win-win no matter how you slice it, think I'll stay on course! This sober thing is within our grasp every single day if we want it, we got this.
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