I got into a program of recovery in my AA groups, that as long as I'm trying to do the steps and talk to my sponsor, I'm sober. They do say, though, if you're not gonna work through the steps, AA won't work. I can't say for certain. I'm all in though. I'm not courting disaster any more. I have to learn to live sober and be comfortable and that's what that particular program is about. Jury's still out though.
The " what now " feeling is what made me relapse or slip up. Nothing to go forward into.
---- ordered a movie to watch this afternoon. Gotta keep from worrying and ruining today worrying about tomorrow and if in gonna get screwed into working on a labor crew all week. Got to let it go.