Class Of March 2016 Part 20
Thank's Casey. Well. I ate 2 pies and then I read it. Now I will take a zanex.
I'm pissed off. Mostly because it's now out of office hours and I won't be able to keep this in the day.
Didn't think there would be much in there that I don't already know, there some inaccuracies however.
And of course it is what it doesn't say, which is the worst.
I'm pissed off. Mostly because it's now out of office hours and I won't be able to keep this in the day.
Didn't think there would be much in there that I don't already know, there some inaccuracies however.
And of course it is what it doesn't say, which is the worst.
So, I really do need to slow down and have some fun. I think I concluded yesterday that I'm an alcoholic AND a workaholic.
The alcohol buffered the consequences of the other addiction. No one should work 18 hours a day!
I was at the spa yesterday for almost four hours and then had a snack in the restaurant. Really lovely! I was surrounded by people drinking though. I had my diet coke and watched them get loaded. This time it wasn't hard not to drink. It was sad watching them be stupid and the alcohol fooling them into thinking they were funny.
This was me Sunday. DD and I went out to dinner with three other families of current and old neighbors. 13 of us total. One of the moms gets smashed after two drinks and gets obnoxiously loud. Seeing that through sober eyes is, well, sobering. Then I started thinking about how I get when drinking around other people. The last couple of years I would get withdrawn, a little dark. I'm not like that sober. So it's getting easier to remind myself of that and the urge to drink in those settings is fleeting.
Something that I have added that seems to be keeping me in the moment, each Monday, I have been writing a letter to my 4 kids. The letter is similar to my posts here. I tell them how I'm doing, what I'm doing and what I plan to do that week. I then write something about each of them. It has been really healing for all of us.
"Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles..."
The Shakespeare soliloquy holds true....
Life is unfair, and sometimes the choices are difficult. I'm sorry about the letter ~ sounds like slings and arrows.
Drinking isn't really a answer though to the question at hand. I know that first hand.
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles..."
The Shakespeare soliloquy holds true....
Life is unfair, and sometimes the choices are difficult. I'm sorry about the letter ~ sounds like slings and arrows.
Drinking isn't really a answer though to the question at hand. I know that first hand.
It's just the whole injustice of the thing, past present and future- and not just for me, thats the problem. I have been coping and managing without anyone or anything my whole life, pretty much.
Anyway I offloaded a lot of my frustration here to a support worker and another member without dumping on them. So a bit calmer now, tired even.
Here's a question: I have 400mg of serequel that someone gave me a while back. Read about it then and wasn't interested, might take it this evening though: Anyone have any experience? Cheers
Ps Bobbie as regards the bet I have been seriously white knuckling it all week
Anyway I offloaded a lot of my frustration here to a support worker and another member without dumping on them. So a bit calmer now, tired even.
Here's a question: I have 400mg of serequel that someone gave me a while back. Read about it then and wasn't interested, might take it this evening though: Anyone have any experience? Cheers
Ps Bobbie as regards the bet I have been seriously white knuckling it all week
Late afternoon check-in. Cooking dinner now--roasted sweet potato and eggplant and seared tuna. I already screwed up the prep for the tuna but it's still going to taste good, just not exactly what I had in mind when I bought the fish. How's everyone else doing?
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