Class of September 2013 - Part 33
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Hi Lilian! It's not that good right now unfortunately. Quite a personal crisis going on but I'm still totally sober and work is going pretty good too, oh thank "higher power".
I'll ride out this storm somehow and emerge from it abit wiser hopefully.
I'll ride out this storm somehow and emerge from it abit wiser hopefully.
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Thank you Dee!
It's inner turmoil, a sense of nihilism and alot of questions without answers right now.
My therapist advices me to search for what is meaningful to me and pursue it.
A 21st century problem perhaps but all too real to me.
I'm selling my old apartment now and just realised that I haven't heard from my financial advisor in some time and I have lost my login for my savings account etc.
So there are big questions such as the meaning of life and little questions such as "is he swindling me?".
I haven't lost my sense of humour
Hugs Septies!
It's inner turmoil, a sense of nihilism and alot of questions without answers right now.
My therapist advices me to search for what is meaningful to me and pursue it.
A 21st century problem perhaps but all too real to me.
I'm selling my old apartment now and just realised that I haven't heard from my financial advisor in some time and I have lost my login for my savings account etc.
So there are big questions such as the meaning of life and little questions such as "is he swindling me?".
I haven't lost my sense of humour
Hugs Septies!
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How is everyone? I hope you're well and sober
Just another sober check in from me, this time from Soho in London.
As far as sanity goes I'm not too sure. An old friend from my university days messaged me last night with pictures of his children and home and asked me how life was treating me.
I told him the truth and he comforted me, thank god for friends.
Been here five days and going home tomorrow. My summer vacation is finished, 3 weeks of which 2 were great, the bad one was spent with my parents. (dad is still active alcoholic and mum is quarrelsome, it's really painful for me to see their interactions)
It feels weird walking the streets here in the evening sober with so much drinking going on, it's London's party district afterall.
I can't help feeling abit like an outsider, a minority citizen of sorts.
Funny. Loneliness is supposed to invite relapse into drinking but drinking leads to isolation and misery. Being lonely beats being isolated and miserable any day! Hah! And sightseeing without even a hint of a hangover is pleasant and efficient.
I had time to pay a visit in the British Museum too, they keep an idol of my adopted higher power there reinforced my motivation to stay sober amidst the drunks
My third year of sobriety is closing in on me, 1st September is my date!
But I feel that I need to get back to being more active in AA, it helps with more than drinking. (like thinking!) My psychotherapist is on holiday until mid august so I have to make do. I've made some relevant discoveries from my childhood by asking/interrogating my parents that may be of relevance to my therapy.
Ok that's all I want to say for now.
Just another sober check in from me, this time from Soho in London.
As far as sanity goes I'm not too sure. An old friend from my university days messaged me last night with pictures of his children and home and asked me how life was treating me.
I told him the truth and he comforted me, thank god for friends.
Been here five days and going home tomorrow. My summer vacation is finished, 3 weeks of which 2 were great
, the bad one was spent with my parents. (dad is still active alcoholic and mum is quarrelsome, it's really painful for me to see their interactions)It feels weird walking the streets here in the evening sober with so much drinking going on, it's London's party district afterall.
I can't help feeling abit like an outsider, a minority citizen of sorts.
Funny. Loneliness is supposed to invite relapse into drinking but drinking leads to isolation and misery. Being lonely beats being isolated and miserable any day! Hah! And sightseeing without even a hint of a hangover is pleasant and efficient.
I had time to pay a visit in the British Museum too, they keep an idol of my adopted higher power there reinforced my motivation to stay sober amidst the drunks
My third year of sobriety is closing in on me, 1st September is my date!
But I feel that I need to get back to being more active in AA, it helps with more than drinking. (like thinking!) My psychotherapist is on holiday until mid august so I have to make do. I've made some relevant discoveries from my childhood by asking/interrogating my parents that may be of relevance to my therapy.
Ok that's all I want to say for now.
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Hi Workoholic !
Glad to see that you are well ! I believe we all suffer a little from loneliness (both alcoholics and non-alcoholics). It has been described as the disease of the modern age given the pervasive use of mobile phones and social media. The difference is that alcoholics drink to avoid the feeling. So, you are right to look for support ! I would also recommend maybe some way of turning that loneliness into solitude. Solitude is more peaceful and happy I do it through spirituality but that may not be your cup of tea. Sorry to hear about your parents. My parents fought a lot in their later years as well before my dad passed away. Maybe just pick out the positives and ignore the rest ? 
Life is the same here. Finding meaningful work is difficult though I have embarked on a completely new career path where I do not know what the outcome will be. It is scary. I am grateful to be sober as it enabled me to regain self confidence to pursue this path. In my bones, I know it is the right direction as I really enjoy all the interaction with new people. Family life has the usual ups and downs. Right now, it is calm but that can change in a blink ! I dont let it bother me too much internally.
3 years ! It is fast, yeah ? I am about 1 week behind you *****oo!
Glad to see that you are well ! I believe we all suffer a little from loneliness (both alcoholics and non-alcoholics). It has been described as the disease of the modern age given the pervasive use of mobile phones and social media. The difference is that alcoholics drink to avoid the feeling. So, you are right to look for support ! I would also recommend maybe some way of turning that loneliness into solitude. Solitude is more peaceful and happy
I do it through spirituality but that may not be your cup of tea. Sorry to hear about your parents. My parents fought a lot in their later years as well before my dad passed away. Maybe just pick out the positives and ignore the rest ? Life is the same here. Finding meaningful work is difficult though I have embarked on a completely new career path where I do not know what the outcome will be. It is scary. I am grateful to be sober as it enabled me to regain self confidence to pursue this path. In my bones, I know it is the right direction as I really enjoy all the interaction with new people. Family life has the usual ups and downs. Right now, it is calm but that can change in a blink ! I dont let it bother me too much internally.
3 years ! It is fast, yeah ? I am about 1 week behind you
*****oo!
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Hi Fishy! Keep doing it, it gets easier
Thank you Kaneda, I dabble in spirituality from time to time, it helps!
When I got back from London my dad was sober and seems to have stayed sober for about two weeks. He goes to local AA and it seems to help his motivation.
I hope he keeps it up
I'm back at work, full throttle and all.. Keeps me busy and I haven't had after work urges a long time ( atleast 18 months..)
Cheers all!
Thank you Kaneda, I dabble in spirituality from time to time, it helps!
When I got back from London my dad was sober and seems to have stayed sober for about two weeks. He goes to local AA and it seems to help his motivation.
I hope he keeps it up
I'm back at work, full throttle and all.. Keeps me busy and I haven't had after work urges a long time ( atleast 18 months..)
Cheers all!
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Hello September friends. This is kellbell, remember me? I am so happy to see that a few of you have made it this far. I'm still on the roller coaster I'm afraid but not giving up hope that I can find lasting sobriety.
Hope all is well with each of you <3
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Hope all is well with each of you <3
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Hi Kellbell
Yes, I remember you well. Sorry to hear your ups and downs. But you ar enot giving up which is absolutely key.
Why not join the 24 hour recovery thread ? Lillian, Phoebe, Madbird and I are on that one, its a very welcoming group !
Yes, I remember you well. Sorry to hear your ups and downs. But you ar enot giving up which is absolutely key.
Why not join the 24 hour recovery thread ? Lillian, Phoebe, Madbird and I are on that one, its a very welcoming group !
I could see peace instead of this
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Yes my current hangout is mornings in the 24 hour thread!
It took me a while and a lot of attempts but I managed to finally stop in June of last year. I never gave up because I knew life could be good again, but it took me some more suffering to be able to really surrender and let go of it.
It's great to see fellow classmates! I did change my name at one point but changed it back.
Keep trying!
It took me a while and a lot of attempts but I managed to finally stop in June of last year. I never gave up because I knew life could be good again, but it took me some more suffering to be able to really surrender and let go of it.
It's great to see fellow classmates! I did change my name at one point but changed it back.
Keep trying!
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