PennyLane76

Oh that would be hard, matbe try the diet later? Hunger causes cravings, right? The old HALT in action. Some of us julyers call it BHALT, B for bored. I had a bad craving today, the B and the L and headed to the beach to boogie board, something I used to do before sequestering and drinking. I think I must relearn some skills, it wasnt pretty. But it stopped.the idiot AV!

CaseyW

Yep. Eat something please! While dieting is important, I'd put your sobriety first for a while. Cut yourself a little slack on the diet for a few weeks. And remember that just cutting out the booze will reduce your calorie intake by quite a bit. Almost 700 calories in one bottle of wine.

Just don't take that first drink no matter what. Keep checking in--you can do this!

Eliasson

That B makes total sense to me. My kids are practically grown and I too sequester myself and drink. It's gotten so that if I have to be somewhere, all I think about is when I can get home and drink my wine. My heart starts racing when someone is leaving the house because that gives me the chance to pour and drink wine without anyone seeing. I prefer to drink alone so I don't have to sneak drinks. Wow, just writing this is eye opening. I need to find something else to fill my time.
As for the diet, you are right, I have a pizza in the oven now. And I drank at least a bottle of wine a night so cutting that out in and of itself can just be enough calorie cutting for right now. Thank u all for talking to me. I'm sitting on my hands and taking deep breaths til my pizza is done.

Jimuk

Oh yeah, I could just eat pizza right now. Damn, going to raid the fridge

Tooshabby

Racing off to work but just wanted to say loving the support we are giving each other and stay strong people! I think I need to take a look at this SMART thing....sounds like it may be very helpful :-)

CaseyW

I'm heading over to my folk's house now for dinner and then going to an AA meeting. Enjoy your pizza and keep posting in here if that's what it takes tonight. Like I said--I promise it gets easier, it just takes time and some work on our parts. Coming in here, asking for help, and actually listening to the advice you're being given is a good first step. You can do this--there are hundreds and hundreds of active participants on these boards every single day who used to drink just like you--including Dee and myself--who prove that lasting sobriety is possible.

I'm still early in recovery myself--day 83 here, most I've ever had as an adult--but life is getting a little better and sobriety a little bit easier every single day. Active participation here on SR has been a cornerstone of my recovery so far. You asking for help tonight is helping to keep me sober as well. Thank you for that.

Wishing everyone on this thread a happy and sober evening...

Bluebird2007

Eliasson, I too want to change my eating habits but I am prioritising being sober. If I can eat healthily, I will, but if I'm struggling I tell myself that I can eat what I fancy as long as I don't drink. I can't fight two fronts simultaneously and being sober has to be number one.

Be kind to yourself

Rio97

Well I went to an AA meeting and came home frustrated. I just don't think AA is for me, at least right now. Now the cravings have hit. I signed up on the SMART recovery website. Ready to try a different approach. I just wish they had face-face meetings in my town. Anyway, day 8, gotta fight through this anxiety.,

rah555

Hi! Hope it's not too late to join this class this month. Day 4 here. Overdid it Saturday night, blackout, can't remember anything. Been struggling with this for about 4 1/2 years. Caught in a cycle. Want it to stop. Feeling really bad. Not in a good place. Maybe I've hit my low. I realize negotiating w alcohol doesn't work for me. I cannot drink anymore.

Rio97

Welcome rah, glad you've joined up.

Jimuk

Welcome rah555, glad you're here with us.

callmemilly

Rio97, at least you tried and are trying something new. Day 8 is great.

Welcome rah.

This is what I do also, it's too hard. Also for me dieting and exercising while drinking just defeated the whole purpose of being 'healthy'. I think the drinking undid a lot of the healthy stuff I was doing. It was more the illusion of health than actual health.

JL2014

Welcome rah !
Pizza sounds good !
I'm. Destroying tater tots. Got some stuffed shells too my wife left had left over. She's tired and crabby (shocker)
Me and 6yr old piled on bed, he's playing a iPhone game. 2yr old in baby jail (his bed), watching "special agent oso" the teddy bear.
Sober
Good night y'all. Everybody don't fret. Well make it together !

tokidoki

Wow. It happened for the first time. Lost my whole post. Was trying to do some cheering on but I guess it took too long.
So...
Welcome TheLadyB and rah555!

Elliason---FWIW, I agree with the others. I'm eating whatever I want and people are asking what I'm doing to lose weight. I don't even know if I am, but I'm guessing my face is less puffy and tired looking and that's good enough for me. So for now, concentrate *only* on not drinking.

It was a beautiful day up here in the driftless zone. Spent the biggest chunk of the day by the lake, reading a book, drinking a chai latte, and nibbling on a peach. Was I complaining about something yesterday? Ingrate.

Hang in there everyone.

angd1978

I have been working all day with no AC setting up my classroom in 100 degree heat outside. Too tired to post much, but I am sober yet another day! I think I just may have a good night's sleep tonight. Have a good one Julyers!

Ladybug2

JL, my daughter used to love Special Agent Hoso (as she called it ) - she still watches it sometimes and she's 5. Gotta love Disney Jr

Glad you are having a sober night. Me too, eating some of those new Oreo Thin cookies, very yummy!

Hope everyone is hanging in there tonight. Just remember how great the mornings are

BobBFree33

I did that. One of the reason's I am trying so hard is earlier in the year my son with Type 1 diabetes leaned how to set up his pump, change his infusion set and the insulin cartridge. It's pretty hard to do actually and up until about April or so I was the only person on the planet (other than the insulin pump specialists) who could do it. It hit me hard that, essentially, this vital role I played is over. Now, its fantastic that he can do it but, at least for a little bit there, I felt like I was not needed any more. Then I thought about retirement coming up and all the things I want to do, that I CANNOT do if I'm drinking. And I realized I can live my own life more now than in a long, long time.

I don't want the hell of living every day agonizingly waiting until the drinking hour. Entire days hanging like a puppet on a string by this demon.

Ok, enough with the dramatic words....

It was a good day and my son's glucose numbers at the docs were really good!

I completely lost track of time near the drinking hour tonight as I got myself caught up in this goofy project to convert an old broken box fan into a wind generator. I know, nuts, but funny thing is I truly love it and lost myself totally in it. I used to be like that 20+ years ago where my mind was fresh and I could just take off on oddball tangents....and totally love it.

So, maybe, just maybe the ole brain is recovering after the beating I've been giving it the last 15 years or so.

For those struggling, hang in there! It you can just get some sober time under your belt you'll start to heal and it will get easier.

Live2FAD

Good evening/night all. Today was unique. It seemed as though the cravings and anxiety were tag-teaming and just checking out the "cage" for weaknesses. Nothing for hours and then a big craving. My solution was to just ask myself or God "what am I supposed to do next?"

Sometimes it was just get up and make a few crackers with cheese (just get moving); others it was stay focused on this single project to finish it completely. Finally it was to complete something that needed to be done.

Looking back on the day, I didn't drink. Everything that HAD to be done, got done. Most of the things that I wanted to get done, didn't... and, although that is frustrating to an alcoholic like me that wants everything his way LOL, it's OK.

Appreciate y'all being there. I enjoy the journey with you.

Dee74

Glad you got through Live2Fad

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Rio97

It's good to read these success stories. Today, day 8, has been by far the hardest day yet. It was busier than usual, and I think it added stress. I had bad cravings earlier, so I just went on my second walk of the day - to the store to buy some cokes. I've been drinking coke like it's going out of style.

I also did my first online SMART meeting, and got a lot out of that. Anyway, stay strong....