Class of September 2013 - Part 10
Renarde, I was thinking that I must have fallen off my pink cloud too. I just want the cravings to go away. It was great when I was so excited to NOT be drinking. Now it is getting predictable and a bit boring. The cravings make it so much worse. But I do love the hangover free mornings! If only I had a fast-forward button to press at 4 p.m. everyday....
Renarde, I was thinking that I must have fallen off my pink cloud too. I just want the cravings to go away. It was great when I was so excited to NOT be drinking. Now it is getting predictable and a bit boring. The cravings make it so much worse. But I do love the hangover free mornings! If only I had a fast-forward button to press at 4 p.m. everyday....
Yeah, so every show I've seen tonight has someone drunk on SOMETHING. Also f*** my hormones! I am always more emotional and my cravings in general are stronger right before "that special, unwelcome time" so I am obsessing about red wine and champagne.
Bout to smoke a cig, catch up on Nashville and drink some jasmine tea. And maybe take a look at my Living Sober book before bed if I'm still feenin'. It has helped me immensely in the past! I've included the link to a PDF version below if anyone is interested in checking it out.
Heart you guys!
http://siestakeybeachmeeting.com/ind...ng%20Sober.pdf
Bout to smoke a cig, catch up on Nashville and drink some jasmine tea. And maybe take a look at my Living Sober book before bed if I'm still feenin'. It has helped me immensely in the past! I've included the link to a PDF version below if anyone is interested in checking it out.
Heart you guys!
http://siestakeybeachmeeting.com/ind...ng%20Sober.pdf
I've been trying not to look into the future, as far as abstaining from alcohol.
When it comes to booze and me, the only thing I'm concerned about is today... and getting through TODAY sober.
If I start thinking about tomorrow, next week, the rest of my life, without alcohol... I'm totally overwhelmed.
So all I'm worried about is today.
Reminds me of the old saying......KISS....
"Keep It Simple Stupid"
Those urges, sometimes they're like a two by four right to the side of the head.
They come out of nowhere it seems (for me).
But it's only today I have to get through and I can do that.
When it comes to booze and me, the only thing I'm concerned about is today... and getting through TODAY sober.
If I start thinking about tomorrow, next week, the rest of my life, without alcohol... I'm totally overwhelmed.
So all I'm worried about is today.
Reminds me of the old saying......KISS....
"Keep It Simple Stupid"
Those urges, sometimes they're like a two by four right to the side of the head.
They come out of nowhere it seems (for me).
But it's only today I have to get through and I can do that.
I've been trying not to look into the future, as far as abstaining from alcohol. When it comes to booze and me, the only thing I'm concerned about is today... and getting through TODAY sober. If I start thinking about tomorrow, next week, the rest of my life, without alcohol... I'm totally overwhelmed. So all I'm worried about is today. Reminds me of the old saying......KISS.... "Keep It Simple Stupid" Those urges, sometimes they're like a two by four right to the side of the head. They come out of nowhere it seems (for me). But it's only today I have to get through and I can do that.
You just rememinded me I gotta sign up for another 24 hours!
Than you for this!
Haha just had a memory: my little sister and I were in the parking lot fighting, my dad was with us, trying to get us into the car. He got down on our level, and after trying about a million times to get us to chill out he said, "Girls! Stop! Think about what you're doing! Why are you feeling like this? Why are you angry?" When we didn't answer he said, "Try to remember this when you start getting angry and you want to fight: HALT. Are you hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired? Try to take care of these things before you act."
This was a weird moment for a 7 and a 4 year old. We stopped fighting, and really thought about what he said. We didn't totally get it but our confoundedness did end the squabbling.
Now I know what he was saying. I actually never knew my dad was an alcoholic until later in my life when my mother told me in order to make me fear him and drive a wedge between us. But looking back, I know he was fighting what I'm fighting. And now I know he was trying to do something about it. For some reason this memory, now that it's been translated through time, makes me really sad. And kind of makes me love him even more.
This was a weird moment for a 7 and a 4 year old. We stopped fighting, and really thought about what he said. We didn't totally get it but our confoundedness did end the squabbling.
Now I know what he was saying. I actually never knew my dad was an alcoholic until later in my life when my mother told me in order to make me fear him and drive a wedge between us. But looking back, I know he was fighting what I'm fighting. And now I know he was trying to do something about it. For some reason this memory, now that it's been translated through time, makes me really sad. And kind of makes me love him even more.
So in the first 5 minutes of Nashville one of the characters, referring to his pain, said "it's either going to get better, or I'm gonna get used to it." For some reason that translated to what I'm going through in terms of sobriety.
When It comes to not drinking/doing drugs, I don't think that the two are mutually exclusive!
All we have to do is, one day at a time, continue to STAY sober, and I wholeheartedly believe that the longer we remain sober, sobriety is going to both get better AND we will get used to it!! Just wanted to share....
Back to My show!! xx
(((Plenny))) hugs to you!
When It comes to not drinking/doing drugs, I don't think that the two are mutually exclusive!
All we have to do is, one day at a time, continue to STAY sober, and I wholeheartedly believe that the longer we remain sober, sobriety is going to both get better AND we will get used to it!! Just wanted to share....
Back to My show!! xx
(((Plenny))) hugs to you!
Hi everyone, thank you got all the advice and support.
I've been busy all day with conference stuff. People were drinking during dinner and after, but I wasn't tempted at all. Not feeling it. I kind of have that tail between my legs feeling from drinking two nights in a row.
Kaneda, you hit the nail on the head with the loneliness thing. I know I needed to move out of bf's place, but a part of me misses him and the good times we had. It's nicer cooking for two than cooking for one, etc. I know things will be fine eventually, I just gotta get through it to get to the good stuff that's waiting for me once I'm over him and free of alcohol. I haven't lived on my own for a couple years so it's something to get used to.
Good job to everyone that fought their AV tonight, whether with pancakes, ice cream or hot tea! Very well done, guys, be proud!
I've been busy all day with conference stuff. People were drinking during dinner and after, but I wasn't tempted at all. Not feeling it. I kind of have that tail between my legs feeling from drinking two nights in a row.
Kaneda, you hit the nail on the head with the loneliness thing. I know I needed to move out of bf's place, but a part of me misses him and the good times we had. It's nicer cooking for two than cooking for one, etc. I know things will be fine eventually, I just gotta get through it to get to the good stuff that's waiting for me once I'm over him and free of alcohol. I haven't lived on my own for a couple years so it's something to get used to.
Good job to everyone that fought their AV tonight, whether with pancakes, ice cream or hot tea! Very well done, guys, be proud!
Haha just had a memory: my little sister and I were in the parking lot fighting, my dad was with us, trying to get us into the car. He got down on our level, and after trying about a million times to get us to chill out he said, "Girls! Stop! Think about what you're doing! Why are you feeling like this? Why are you angry?" When we didn't answer he said, "Try to remember this when you start getting angry and you want to fight: HALT. Are you hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired? Try to take care of these things before you act." This was a weird moment for a 7 and a 4 year old. We stopped fighting, and really thought about what he said. We didn't totally get it but our confoundedness did end the squabbling. Now I know what he was saying. I actually never knew my dad was an alcoholic until later in my life when my mother told me in order to make me fear him and drive a wedge between us. But looking back, I know he was fighting what I'm fighting. And now I know he was trying to do something about it. For some reason this memory, now that it's been translated through time, makes me really sad. And kind of makes me love him even more.
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