workoholic

Love mad max! There was a kid in my school with face and hair just like savage kid with the boomerang!

Nuway2fly

You're right, Fish. That's not the Sally Fields I had in mind, either. But she sure is a great actor.

And no, nobody is trying to ditch you. We need our FishyMan! Have a great weekend with your boys.

Melina

Day 1 again. Made it to around ten pm last night and decided I wasn't going to deal with my loneliness and boredom sober.

I need to get back to that space where I was so grateful to be free from alcohol.
I gave in to thoughts that were saying, 'who cares, might as well, so what if you're hungover tomorrow, you can sleep in.'

I'm going to get ready to leave to go out of town this weekend for a conference.

I'll keep SR close to me. I want to recommit to sobriety. I really can't drink. It was not a casual buzz last night.

Uninvited

I'm sorry you slipped Melina. On one hand I'm so jealous of those of you who are living with others, and that motivates them (for various reasons) to stop drinking. But it seems especially dangerous for many of you when you suddenly get a night to yourselves, because of the boredom and loneliness sober. That's pretty much my world every single day. I bet though, if I was suddenly living with somebody the stress alone would make me want to drink. So maybe we are in the same boat really.

phoebe64

Sorry, Melina. Hopefully the conference will keep you busy and distracted.
UI, sometimes I wish I was alone, so I could be in control of what is in the house, or not in the house. I miss having my own place! This extends to more than just the drinking, but also to conrol. Loss of control is a big stressor for me, and with kids, well, you gotta go with the flow! I love them to death, but I definitely had more anxiety and stress after having children. I think I had a lot of structure in place to manage my stress and anxieties, so I was good. Then I lost my balance in that and it is a big reason why I had escalated in my drinking.

But yeah, the flipside, nobody to answer to could be problematic as well.

Nuway2fly

(((Melina))) This is a temporary blip for you. I have every faith that you will get past this and start piling up the days again. Use it as a springboard and a very recent reminder that drinking doesn't do one good thing for us.

Uninvited

Thread seems kind of dead today. I hope that's not foreboding anything.

Br00ksie

I've thought the exact same thing. To be honest, I have been deliberately single for the past two years so that I could conceal the increasing severity of my disease. Before that I was a serial monogamist!

Now that I'm on the road to recovery, I am becoming more open to allowing someone in my space, but I still really love solitude! 95% of my friends are married. I often wonder if I have what it takes...

Br00ksie

Melina, you know what has helped me? Going back and reading old posts I've written to see where I was when I first joined SR and how far I have come.

phoebe64

It is quiet. You can post in newcomers of you need immediate support. You okay tonight UI? You sound down.

GotGrace

Awww, Melina. I am sorry you slipped. Glad you told us and that you plan to stick close this weekend. You have learned some valuable information, though, so hopefully your slip is an isolated incident!

Have a good trip and weekend!

Uninvited

Been planning to drink for a couple hours now. Not sure which way this is going to end up tbh.

Kaneda8888

Good morning all ! Lovely sunny day here, c'mon Spring !

I've been wondering about relapses this week. As I may have posted, there has been a few in my AA meetings and within our group. The interesting thing is that when the relapses were reviewed, there were signs before the relapse which were ignored. An example was when a person became obsessed with sparkly drinks in the months leading to her relapse. Afterwards, she realized that those drinks were similar to her favorite alcoholic drink. So, I guess what I am saying is that being mindful, on a regular basis, of how your body is feeling and your mental status seems to be useful. I used to have this app on my computer which would, upon the hour or so, freeze the computer for 30secs. Then a pop up would appear with either a mindfulness practice or breathing exercise. A bit annoying but it did keep you in the present.

Maybe I should install it again....

Kaneda8888

UI, you need to stop that thought now. Can you describe the sensations you're body is feeling ? Do a scan from head to toe and note down the strongest sensations.

lommey

ui what time is it with you .Can u go out and do something , shopping movie library

Uninvited

I'm going to go out an eat at a restaurant that doesn't serve alcohol. I think sobriety is winning but it's a helluva battle.

Kaneda8888

Melina

Sorry to hear about your slip. Loneliness is a classic trigger. It is one of my biggest triggers. When I lived alone overseas, I simply could not control my drinking. The loneliness crushed me. If I was single, I guess it would have been a little different in that I would not have a longing to be home with family.

For you, I am guessing that the sudden change in your environment caught you unawares from the drinking perspective. It might be a good idea to start planning how to live by yourself, eg, buy a puppy (guaranteed source of love and affection ), start doing stuff that you put on the back burner, etc. I am confident that this was a one-off for you and upon careful reflection, you will be better prepared next time.

Keep strong, keep connected and keep sober !

Kaneda8888

UI, do that but be very aware of what your mind is thinking and to not go into autopilot.

lommey

Go you UI sounds like a plan .Nearly my bed time ,Hope you have a good meal . Dony listen to that av voice youll regret it

Br00ksie

I never feel alone with my kitty around!