Renarde

It sounds so silly but I NEVER ate dessert or ice cream etc before. The other night when I was freaking out I looked in my fridge to remind myself it was there. There is something nice about it. It's a good reward.

Raider

SoberChristy , can you find a meeting to go to at lunch?

eveval

Christy, have you researched community counseling centers at all? Most large cities have at least a couple and they are usually non-profit and work with you no matter what your income/insurance situation is. Along with offering one on one therapy sessions they usually offer support groups or act as a great resource for finding the help you need.

Hooped

My last go at it I made it 9 months. Overwhelming events in my life (2 deaths of loved ones within 3 weeks) were too much for me,though, and I was off and running...for more than a year.

I've read the AA big book...twice.
Went to meetings twice a week for a year.

I saw an addiction counselor for over a year, that was most helpful. It gave me many tools, all of which I still remember, and will use this time around.

I've been to emergency twice due to drinking.

Also jail a couple of times in the distant past...due to drinking.

I also have that book 'Under the Influence' which explained an awful lot about what the heck is wrong with me, even though the book is somewhat dated, it is excellent. there are excerpts posted as stickies on this site, check them out.

Everything you can find that is helpful, is helpful.

But the most important thing I have found, is to turn your entire thinking process around.

The answer for me, for all of us, in essence, is really quite simple : Just don't drink.
Not one. Not ever. No matter what life throws at me, I'm not going to drink over it any more. I will face whatever is thrown my way with a clear head.

I no longer want to drink. At all. I do not wish to be a 'normal' drinker. I do not wish to be a 'social' drinker. I don't want to drink at all.

8 days and counting.. after a over a year of a Hell... that I simply can not go back to again.
Ever.

Good luck kind folks.
If you don't have that first one, you have it beat for another day

.

BLKDIESEL

Congratulations Grindilow!!!! Congratulations

SoberChristy

All good suggestions. I'm on my local AA website right now and there appears to be a "Young Person" meeting on Thursday. Maybe if I tell you all that I'm going to try it I actually will...

LillianGish

Hooped, your post made me cry - in a good way. You've been through so much - and you are grabbing happiness now.

Grin - congratulations!!

Christy, commutes suck. I travel one hour each way every day on a rather dangerous road. And every time I do now, I remember how many times I drove home after a "happy" hour very drunk. I am so lucky I didn't kill someone.

Renarde

Absolutely. This is exactly what I mean when I keep saying I want to live an honest and genuine life. I want it all to be real.

lommey

didn't drink thought thatll teach him instead of drinking to teach him.
well done grindlow a new job a fresh start yeh
Christy go to the meeting it will help
keep up the good work everyone

Renarde

That is HUGE Lommey. Wow!

Plenny

Okaaaaay I just sent a letter I've been meaning to send the DF's sister for two years. I hope this is helpful to her and I feel like I've washed my hands of the worry I've been bearing for so long.

Love38

Sorry I'm not around much; being a teacher is work every waking moment.

But....

I AM STILL SOBER!!!! This is the longest sober time in YEARS! I'm so happy.

I think of you all every day. Strength and love being sent your way!!

CathieJ

Day 19 and feeling good. Cravings seem to be diminishing. Feel for those of you who are having some hard struggles.

lorelei

Flying thro to say Gnight fellow septemberites.
Be safe & sober all
Xx

Tallia

Ahh this is though feeling good tonight no desire to drink evening as flown by without thinking about drinking or not drinking but now my av is chirping up there we go see you don't really have a problem at all just formed a little *habbit* you have broken that now, drinking now and again won't be a problem ahhhhh. Knew I should have kept all the hidden empties as physical evidence to silence the sneaky little troll.

Mind plating tricks really am my own worse enemy

Hope you all doing well today don't listen to the av it's all lies xx

Hooped

By the way : That book I mentioned "Under the Influence" the excerpts are posted in a sticky in the alcoholism forum.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

I got the book a couple of years ago.I had to mail order it over the internet.

It went a LONG way to help me understand why I am like I am and could NEVER just stop at one or two, like most of my other friends.

lorelei

Slap that EAF back where she belongs hon you're doing brill xxxx

Renarde

Re-read all of your old posts!

SoberChristy

Thanks for this Hooped :-) I went to the gym on my lunch break to read more of the Big Book. I will check this one out as well. Maybe a good thing to order on my payday tomorrow.

Tallia

Entering danger zone it seems time to be vigilant

Physical symptoms more or less gone daily cravings gone feeling more in control start feeling you can moderate definitely wrong next hurdle letting go of thinking I can ever drink again.

Renarde great idea about reading old posts liking your positive thinking approach.

Lorelei EAF is flattened again for now

I need to start to do some reading becoming complacent is not good. It's just excuses tonight new found addiction online jigsaw puzzles took precedence.

SoberChristy any step forward is a positive step you are heading in the right direction xx

Hooped the book sounds great will put it on my to buy list along with rational recovery.