Citrus

Day 2 for me today. I was sober for a good portion of February, but the last week has been awful. I was dumb for not sticking around SR. This month I turn 30. o_O I really want to do so by being sober!

Have a great day everyone! I'm sure I will check in later when my AV voice tries to get the best of me.

samwitch

SoberformySon-
I hear you on the struggles with the mental crap. It so seems like alcohol helps with that, but of course it doesn't. I have the same struggles with anxiety but I know it's so much better when not drinking. It's a trap.

Jimuk

Hi all, good to see some familiar virtual faces here. I'm in Jim, day 1 for this old soak not very proud of me right now. Have a great Friday everyone.

SoberForMySon

Welcome back Jimuk. This can be our month!

And yes the anxiety and a paranoia is life ruining, but I have to fight it. It's hard, though. I am virtually certain nothing's going to come of the situation I fear, but that doesn't stop my brains from going crazy over it and feeling hopeless. Frustrating!

Pondlady

Happy March first! March is all about Spring and new growth......a perfect time to make a fresh sober start in our lives

Jimuk

Why do I drink myself to oblivion? I had a normal childhood (non of my siblings are alcoholics) I've always been insecure and a bit of a worrier. I have a good trade, never had any trouble attracting the opposite sex. I have a lovely son and my long term partner has stuck by me through a lot of rough times. I love travel, my boat, my bike. From the outside people think I have a great life but on the inside its a living hell. Is this thing deeper than alcohol? Is there something wrong with me? I've always had this self distruct button, but its not just me I'm hurting, my son is fully aware that I'm a mean drunk he told me this morning I need to stop drinking. Heart breaking coming from my 9 yr old boy. Sometimes I think they would be better off without me, I could go abroad and work to support them but be far enough away that I can't hurt them anymore.

soopy99

I'm in and am on day one again; hopefully it will be the last day one.

Jen31

I'm on my day three, but would like to join the March group, if no one minds
Today is much better than the morning of day two. I'm still not sleeping much, but I'll take being tired over being hungover and full of regret. I had a strong urge again last night to drink, but jumped online and logged on to SR instead. The urge passed after about 30min. Thank goodness for SR!

Jimuk

Hi Soopy and Jen

samwitch

Hi Jimuk-
I understand the feeling of not being proud of yourself and not understandin why you drink. I don't understand why I do especially when I do the most stupid things when drunk. Then the next day I'm ashamed and guilty. But I seem to forget all that and drink again.

I know this is a trap and a vicious cycle--once I stopped before the guilt and anxiety went away. The drink was making everything worse. And I stopped doing most of the stupid things I did do. Not all, but most :-)

Just hang in there and know it gets better. You don't need to leave your family-I'm sure they wouldn't want that.

Saskia

Hi everyone,

I would like to join you in our mutual sober quest. I've been around here for awhile but had a number of slips. This is now Day 6 for me and I'm feeling positive. No cravings so far so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I'm still suffering from the winter blues but hope I'll get past that soon. I want this to be the month that I finally succeed this time around!

Saskia (aka Sassy)

Jimuk

Hi Sassy, 6 days is great I would have had six today but the beast played a dirty hand.

Thanks Samwich, I managed great before with your help in September, I'm happy you're here.

Saskia

Thanks, Jimuk. Yes, that ugly old beast can be a challenge. I try to block it out of my mind and not engage with it at all.

samwitch

Welcome Sassy!
Same story for me--I've been around for awhile. I want this to be the successful month too! Great job on 6 days.

MidnightBlue

Hi, all) I'm from October class and just poked in to welcome to SR new members and cheer up a little bit my old friends)

Stick to your decision to be sober, it's really worth every effort and every step you take on this journey. Don't be afraid, take one day at a time, believe in yourself. It is possible - just give yourself a chance.

Today I the first day of spring - the season when life and nature revives - a great day for a new start)

My best wishes to all and good luck!

hypochondriac

Just popping in from Class of March 2012 to wish you all luck! You can do this! And this thread really can help. Stick together and stay sober xxx

fantail

Best wishes, class of March.

chanty

Wow, great to wake up this morning, and see so many of you sign up for March. Lots of new friends hey Jim? Together we can do this!
Hang in there Jimuk, you can do this for your son, he needs you with him. I have four kids and I know I owe it to them. I am such a better mum sober, with no grumpy hangover.
Feeling very positive today, though it is only day 2, I'll take it anyway!
Good luck every one with your new sober journeys.

Jimuk

Hey Chanty, have a great day 2, it's nearly bedtime here.

veryready

Looks like you guys are off to a good start with this thread. I am from Nov 2012 class. Stick around, this works. For those of you returning, I'm impressed by your persistence. Keep coming back till it sticks.

I am not an AA salesman, but I was at a meeting recently and they talked about powerlessness over alcohol. From my perspective, I do have the power to have the first drink or not have the first drink. I am not powerless over the first drink. But, I am powerless as to whether I have another. We all have the power to not have the first drink, and that is where our power ends.

Be strong. Be patient. It's worth it.