Members with less than 2 weeks -Part 10
Member
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: North Carolina
Posts: 123
Day 1
This is going to be my day 1. My first day 1 in a while. When I looked in the cupboard this morning and saw that there was very little left of a 1.75 liter bottle of vodka (that was purchased Friday), I knew it was time to try and quit (again)! I need to be here - I need to get sober. I dumped what little remained in the bottle down the drain. Day 1!
Administrator
Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,627
Good for you ND, and I hope you keep posting around the boards.
Welcome back Jackstone!
Thirtybubba, I hope that you are back on track and that you keep reading and posting.
Least, you can do this!
Welcome back Jackstone!
Thirtybubba, I hope that you are back on track and that you keep reading and posting.
Least, you can do this!
Owner of a strange glitch.
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: midsouth
Posts: 2,331
Keeping on reading for now.
4 days and this nightmare of a semester will be over.
Take care, everybody...
Oh, and welcome (back) Jack... I don't know you, but you already impressed me. Pouring it out like that....
4 days and this nightmare of a semester will be over.
Take care, everybody...
Oh, and welcome (back) Jack... I don't know you, but you already impressed me. Pouring it out like that....
Member
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: North Carolina
Posts: 123
Well I made it thru day 1 - it wasn't easy, didn't sleep well - hoping for sweet dreams tonight. Thanks for all the welcome wishes (are you all on the welcome "wagon" - that's where I need to be! - HA)
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Unexpected blessings don't have to be an earthshaking
tingle down to your toes happening ...
(although those are very special)
Today my son dropped in with Pizza and he felt well
enough to stay for conversation ...memories.
What a blessing to be able to
with loved ones.
We actually enjoy each other. Not true when I drank.
Hope everyone is having a super day!
Vigilance is the price I pay for recovery.....gladly
Rock on.....
tingle down to your toes happening ...
(although those are very special)
Today my son dropped in with Pizza and he felt well
enough to stay for conversation ...memories.
What a blessing to be able to
with loved ones. We actually enjoy each other. Not true when I drank.
Hope everyone is having a super day!
Vigilance is the price I pay for recovery.....gladly
Rock on.....
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Still opem for sharing and caring
Leave a message...please don't be shy
.one of us will reply.....
Congratulations to everyone seeking a better way of life.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
Originally Posted by HideorSeek 
I had to come to grips with the fact that it wasn't people, places and things that were making me drink, but myreaction to them. And if I could see those feelings as temporary, they were deflated and rendered surmountable.
Those words really resonate with me right now. Thank you.
Administrator
Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,627
Yes, that's so true.
I was a control freak and tried to control the people, places and things around me. It was exhausting! I had to learn that the only thing I could control was my reaction to what was happening around me. What a relief that was!
I am SO proud of all of you posting on this thread!
I was a control freak and tried to control the people, places and things around me. It was exhausting! I had to learn that the only thing I could control was my reaction to what was happening around me. What a relief that was!
I am SO proud of all of you posting on this thread!
Owner of a strange glitch.
Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: midsouth
Posts: 2,331
Sorry to interject--still about 48 hours short of freedom--but the topic has my attention...
Seems I waste *so* much energy worrying about controling the situation... and then it gets worse when I take a situation that (assuming I was sober in the first place) wouldn't be horrific, and blow it all out of proportion. For example, today, the wireless internet on the campus up and died... Good times in Bubbaland.
This wouldn't have been a problem if I'd been sober. For so many reasons... for starters I wouldn't have needed to write the paper then, it might have been done already...
And, I'm not sure if this is a thing or not, or just something in my life, but when I'm sober, things do tend to go my way. Is that just me? Anyways, now that I have the internet back, yeah, I'm watching still, and I'll be back to sober in a few hours (relief!--I'd do it sooner but to be honest I can't risk changing my mind right now...not that this is working either--and yes, I've heard all the comments... it's easy to talk online, what would you do with your future on the line?).
So hate me if you will, then ponder why you hate somebody you don't even know...
Take care y'all. Sorry for just popping up here, and all that, but heck, this is basically my home thread, FWIW.
TB
Seems I waste *so* much energy worrying about controling the situation... and then it gets worse when I take a situation that (assuming I was sober in the first place) wouldn't be horrific, and blow it all out of proportion. For example, today, the wireless internet on the campus up and died... Good times in Bubbaland.
This wouldn't have been a problem if I'd been sober. For so many reasons... for starters I wouldn't have needed to write the paper then, it might have been done already...
And, I'm not sure if this is a thing or not, or just something in my life, but when I'm sober, things do tend to go my way. Is that just me? Anyways, now that I have the internet back, yeah, I'm watching still, and I'll be back to sober in a few hours (relief!--I'd do it sooner but to be honest I can't risk changing my mind right now...not that this is working either--and yes, I've heard all the comments... it's easy to talk online, what would you do with your future on the line?).
So hate me if you will, then ponder why you hate somebody you don't even know...
Take care y'all. Sorry for just popping up here, and all that, but heck, this is basically my home thread, FWIW.
TB
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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Thirtybubba,
I don't hate you, and I doubt that anyone here feels that way about you. I am sorry that you're struggling and I hope you find peace.
Least,
Good for you, and I'm so glad you're feeling better.
I don't hate you, and I doubt that anyone here feels that way about you. I am sorry that you're struggling and I hope you find peace.
Least,
Good for you, and I'm so glad you're feeling better.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
Day 3 was really rough early on, high anxiety, headache and sweats. Didn't think I'd be able to eat at all. A shower, little chamomile tea (actually 'sleepytime' tea), my detox herbs and toast finally made me feel much better.
This evening gave me a moment that I will hang on to... watching my daughter taunt our cat into chasing her around the house... I laughed a real laugh... and I felt it in a way that I haven't in awhile. I'm sure there will be many more difficult moments, but that glimpse of clarity and joy was pretty great.
Thanks to all of you for sharing, supporting and for making me feel welcome here. My heart goes out to everyone else who is struggling. hugs to all.
This evening gave me a moment that I will hang on to... watching my daughter taunt our cat into chasing her around the house... I laughed a real laugh... and I felt it in a way that I haven't in awhile. I'm sure there will be many more difficult moments, but that glimpse of clarity and joy was pretty great.
Thanks to all of you for sharing, supporting and for making me feel welcome here. My heart goes out to everyone else who is struggling. hugs to all.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
TB....
I'm truly sorry you are having difficulties
Least...good to know your feeling better...
blackbirdsing......I so agree
is so darn healthy!
By the end of my active alcoholism....I was waking up
in tears I had also switched from happy go lucky
drinker to a crying drunk. I was miserably somber.
I do remember my first sober ...from the heart ...
sheer joy time. Nothing momumental ...being
on my sunny balcony planting moss roses
singing and laughing for just being alive again.
Yes! recovery really rocks!
I'm truly sorry you are having difficulties
Least...good to know your feeling better...
blackbirdsing......I so agree
is so darn healthy!By the end of my active alcoholism....I was waking up
in tears I had also switched from happy go lucky
drinker to a crying drunk. I was miserably somber.
I do remember my first sober ...from the heart ...
sheer joy time. Nothing momumental ...being
on my sunny balcony planting moss roses
singing and laughing for just being alive again.
Yes! recovery really rocks!
Member
Join Date: Nov 2009
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 151
hi all, im doing real good 
17 days today... it seems people are at all different stages of sobriety & i can sympathize with all these different stages...except the 'having stayed sober for any decent length of time' stage hmmmm
im sorry to hear you struggling TB, its always hard keeping a postive outlook when the mind is affected by alcohol. the emotions felt while coming down (or up) on alcohol always seem real enough in the moment, regardless of whether they are sad or happy thoughts...for me its always 'sky high' or 'pits of misery' and the few days after stopping drinking i just wanna be on my own..anxiety etc.
my limited experience is teaching me its the hindsight after sobering up (like a week) and sober perspective that brings real clarity of mind...so i hope you can put down that glass long enough to get back that AWESOME perspective i can sense is within you..im aware my words here, prob dont mean much & im aware i dont really know feck all about your situation...but i hope things look up for you, maybe just try and make some good decisions & love yourself a bit.
hope that makes sense...im tired and rambling
ez
nd
*weetbix
17 days today... it seems people are at all different stages of sobriety & i can sympathize with all these different stages...except the 'having stayed sober for any decent length of time' stage hmmmmim sorry to hear you struggling TB, its always hard keeping a postive outlook when the mind is affected by alcohol. the emotions felt while coming down (or up) on alcohol always seem real enough in the moment, regardless of whether they are sad or happy thoughts...for me its always 'sky high' or 'pits of misery' and the few days after stopping drinking i just wanna be on my own..anxiety etc.
my limited experience is teaching me its the hindsight after sobering up (like a week) and sober perspective that brings real clarity of mind...so i hope you can put down that glass long enough to get back that AWESOME perspective i can sense is within you..im aware my words here, prob dont mean much & im aware i dont really know feck all about your situation...but i hope things look up for you, maybe just try and make some good decisions & love yourself a bit.
hope that makes sense...im tired and rambling
ez
nd
*weetbix
Member
Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
CarolD- what a beautiful memory, thank you for sharing. I'm excited to build up my store of happy memories again. That also reminded me that I have another thing to look forward to w/ recovery- gardening again!! (Yet another love I traded for alcohol)
I'm thinking that my gift to myself this christmas will be a nice 'recovery' journal.
Hope everyone had a positive day, so far so good here
I'm thinking that my gift to myself this christmas will be a nice 'recovery' journal.
Hope everyone had a positive day, so far so good here
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