Would love to talk to other loners. :)
Would love to talk to other loners. :)
Hello All,
I don't really know who else to talk to. I have been (mostly) sober for the last 4 years. However, I relapsed last month and have been thinking about drinking more since. I just am not happy. I hate feeling like this.
I don't feel like I can relate to (or trust) other people. Since I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider and have not felt comfortable around other people. I dream about living life alone, with nobody else to worry about. I have obsessively watched Dick Proenneke videos over the last 2 months, wishing I could have the freedom to live alone for 3 decades, too.
I have PTSD from severe childhood/cult abuse and I already do not feel as though there are a lot of people whom I can relate to.
I am writing to reach out to others who are going through loneliness and/or trauma rehabilitation. I would love to hear from you.
I don't really know who else to talk to. I have been (mostly) sober for the last 4 years. However, I relapsed last month and have been thinking about drinking more since. I just am not happy. I hate feeling like this.
I don't feel like I can relate to (or trust) other people. Since I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider and have not felt comfortable around other people. I dream about living life alone, with nobody else to worry about. I have obsessively watched Dick Proenneke videos over the last 2 months, wishing I could have the freedom to live alone for 3 decades, too.
I have PTSD from severe childhood/cult abuse and I already do not feel as though there are a lot of people whom I can relate to.
I am writing to reach out to others who are going through loneliness and/or trauma rehabilitation. I would love to hear from you.
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The Class of October 2019 group. I joined the Class of March 2016 group and share there most days and the people on this site have been a great support and a way to learn for me. I
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Recovery, fellowshipping, service work, and so many other pieces of my 12 Step program took away any loneliness I ever felt, I knew I never had to be alone again unless it was by choice. Some days that's exactly what I choose, the peace and comfort of having some time alone. This site has been a great resource for 13 years to check in every day and get some support as well as supporting others.
Fellow loner here :-) I also have a hard time fitting in, and my job requires me to be pretty public. While there are times when I wish I could check out for a while to have a break from what's going on in my head, drinking never made anything easier. It only caused more problems.
I hope you decide to stay sober. SR can be a great place to get out of my own head and see what's going on with other people, but I needed more in order to stay sober. Many sober people I know (here and irl) have created a program for a sober life that involves many things: maybe meetings of some sort, a plan for times when they want to drink, therapy, exercise, journaling, reading, healthy eating, etc.
This board doesn't get as much traffic, so I would definitely echo the suggestion to try the Newcomers or Alcoholism board.
I hope you decide to stay sober. SR can be a great place to get out of my own head and see what's going on with other people, but I needed more in order to stay sober. Many sober people I know (here and irl) have created a program for a sober life that involves many things: maybe meetings of some sort, a plan for times when they want to drink, therapy, exercise, journaling, reading, healthy eating, etc.
This board doesn't get as much traffic, so I would definitely echo the suggestion to try the Newcomers or Alcoholism board.
Thank you all for sharing your experiences.
It does seem as though there is a point in early recovery in which people who are serious about getting/staying sober decide to open up to others, despite their personal reservations. I have read posts on SR over the years and it seems the most successful people are the ones who decide to relinquish control and put their mental and physical health at a higher priority than their comfort or privacy.
Opening up has been difficult for me to do and I have not yet made that leap after years of sobriety. I still have not visited an in-person meeting and I am definitely not interested in going to a(ny) church in order to stay sober. There are a lot of difficult circumstances right now, with kids and husband, that I prioritize myself last and the depression sneaks up on me.
Thanks for letting me vent.
It does seem as though there is a point in early recovery in which people who are serious about getting/staying sober decide to open up to others, despite their personal reservations. I have read posts on SR over the years and it seems the most successful people are the ones who decide to relinquish control and put their mental and physical health at a higher priority than their comfort or privacy.
Opening up has been difficult for me to do and I have not yet made that leap after years of sobriety. I still have not visited an in-person meeting and I am definitely not interested in going to a(ny) church in order to stay sober. There are a lot of difficult circumstances right now, with kids and husband, that I prioritize myself last and the depression sneaks up on me.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Basically, I had to make my sobriety priority and become honest with myself. If you ever do decide to go to a meeting, just know you don't have to share. If asked, you can just introduce yourself and say you are just listening. You don't even have to identify as an addict or alcoholic in an open meeting.
The great thing about online support is I get to really think about what I am going to say usually. Sometimes I am busy or falling asleep when i post and it ends up messy.
I am a loner as well.
I never really wanted to be one, but since I am Hispanic, but look Pakistanis, but don't speak Spanish, but love rock and rap music etc etc etc..I find myself alone.
Drinking was a way to overcome my loneliness because i was busy getting booze, drinking it, being drunk, and then sleeping off...I stayed busy.
Quitting left me with a ton of free time and feeling lonely and bored. I was doomed to relapse. This place saved me.
Now sober a long time I accept my loneliness and do things to feel special. Working out is the main thing. I am in better cardio shape than most weight lifters and stronger than most runners.
I also trained grappling and believe I can handle myself against an attacker if so challenged. Whether or not this is true doesn't matter too much since I have never been attacked or been in a fight for over 40 years.
I am also extremely helpful usually and that is special.
I trust that I am in a special place. I have angels watching over me.
I need to find specialness in myself, even if it is only in my mind.
I don't know if this is the correct thing to do, but I saw it on social media and it seems to work.
I am special in my own way. I don't care what other people think. I am kind and I am special.
Hope this helps you in some way.
Thanks for the therapy.
I am a loner as well.
I never really wanted to be one, but since I am Hispanic, but look Pakistanis, but don't speak Spanish, but love rock and rap music etc etc etc..I find myself alone.
Drinking was a way to overcome my loneliness because i was busy getting booze, drinking it, being drunk, and then sleeping off...I stayed busy.
Quitting left me with a ton of free time and feeling lonely and bored. I was doomed to relapse. This place saved me.
Now sober a long time I accept my loneliness and do things to feel special. Working out is the main thing. I am in better cardio shape than most weight lifters and stronger than most runners.
I also trained grappling and believe I can handle myself against an attacker if so challenged. Whether or not this is true doesn't matter too much since I have never been attacked or been in a fight for over 40 years.
I am also extremely helpful usually and that is special.
I trust that I am in a special place. I have angels watching over me.
I need to find specialness in myself, even if it is only in my mind.
I don't know if this is the correct thing to do, but I saw it on social media and it seems to work.
I am special in my own way. I don't care what other people think. I am kind and I am special.
Hope this helps you in some way.
Thanks for the therapy.
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Pouncer. It is so awesome that you reached out for help and put yourself out there. I know that is scary. I hope you are well. I come back here time to time when I need to. Sometimes just to read sometimes to share. I also know how painful living with a mental differences can be. Again thank you for sharing. I am in my mid 30's and just now processing trauma from early on. This is very hard to do. I understand Isolation as well. I like to call it "the time I need for me to process the day" Some days are like that. I don't like to live in my head all the time. But I am also working on connecting. I do understand the difficulties of making new friends and losing some during healing. Something worth having is something worth working for or towards.
I'm pretty much a loner in that I live alone, with my dog and three cats, and don't go out much other than errands a few times a week. My brother comes to visit for a short time every day after work on his way home. Other than that, I don't see too many people.
And in winter time I see fewer people cause it's cold and wet and people aren't outside as much.
I like what my dad told us kids when we were young: When you're alone, at least you know you're in good company. I don't mind my own company, and my dog and cats are good company for me.
And in winter time I see fewer people cause it's cold and wet and people aren't outside as much.
I like what my dad told us kids when we were young: When you're alone, at least you know you're in good company. I don't mind my own company, and my dog and cats are good company for me.
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Today is a holiday that horrified me in early sobriety, I would dread the moment my children went back to my ex's and I'd be left alone, but I learned from others in recovery that there were Thanksgiving dinners at AA clubs all over the city. I never truly spent a holiday alone, I was always surrounded by others in recovery, and if I needed time to myself I could sit alone at a table and eat or just leave. What a great life and good company we have available to us when we choose this clean and sober way of living!
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Hello All,
I don't really know who else to talk to. I have been (mostly) sober for the last 4 years. However, I relapsed last month and have been thinking about drinking more since. I just am not happy. I hate feeling like this.
I don't feel like I can relate to (or trust) other people. Since I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider and have not felt comfortable around other people. I dream about living life alone, with nobody else to worry about. I have obsessively watched Dick Proenneke videos over the last 2 months, wishing I could have the freedom to live alone for 3 decades, too.
I have PTSD from severe childhood/cult abuse and I already do not feel as though there are a lot of people whom I can relate to.
I am writing to reach out to others who are going through loneliness and/or trauma rehabilitation. I would love to hear from you.
I don't really know who else to talk to. I have been (mostly) sober for the last 4 years. However, I relapsed last month and have been thinking about drinking more since. I just am not happy. I hate feeling like this.
I don't feel like I can relate to (or trust) other people. Since I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider and have not felt comfortable around other people. I dream about living life alone, with nobody else to worry about. I have obsessively watched Dick Proenneke videos over the last 2 months, wishing I could have the freedom to live alone for 3 decades, too.
I have PTSD from severe childhood/cult abuse and I already do not feel as though there are a lot of people whom I can relate to.
I am writing to reach out to others who are going through loneliness and/or trauma rehabilitation. I would love to hear from you.
Live alone. I went to a behavioural health clinic and now I'm about to get a free apartment all to myself for the first time in my life.
But, yeah. Cults. PTSD. Raising myself. Makes it seem like everyone has an agenda. And I still feel that way. Not sure how to get past it. I guess the worst thing that happens is we get hurt and keep growing, right?
I'm here, and I'm the same Pouncer. I find it really hard to reach out, and I don't know what to say.
I think I'm depressed. I'm a loner, too.
I'm sorry those things happened to you Pouncer. I'm only beginning to remember.
Let's hang in.
I think I'm depressed. I'm a loner, too.
I'm sorry those things happened to you Pouncer. I'm only beginning to remember.
Let's hang in.
I'm a loner as well. Very quiet, on the out skirts, observer. Slow to warm, as in probably not until years of knowing someone will I let my guard down. But when I do I hold fast and get hurt deep when something happens to add distance. I just found out tonight that my sister will be moving far away. She knows and understands me and I trust her with everything. She is my closest friend. Perhaps it keeps me from feeling like I need to know others. I'm just really sad she is leaving. And sadness always feels like an insatiable cavern to me.
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