Hello All,
I don't really know who else to talk to. I have been (mostly) sober for the last 4 years. However, I relapsed last month and have been thinking about drinking more since. I just am not happy. I hate feeling like this.
I don't feel like I can relate to (or trust) other people. Since I can remember, I have always felt like an outsider and have not felt comfortable around other people. I dream about living life alone, with nobody else to worry about. I have obsessively watched
Dick Proenneke videos over the last 2 months, wishing I could have the freedom to live alone for 3 decades, too.
I have PTSD from severe childhood/cult abuse and I already do not feel as though there are a lot of people whom I can relate to.
I am writing to reach out to others who are going through loneliness and/or trauma rehabilitation. I would love to hear from you.
