Here we go...again.
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Back again and still sober!
All sticky situations were resolved with no problems. Funny how you fret and build up things in your mind. I did the same July 2016 when attending a wedding where booze was served. At the time, I was 8 month alcohol-free and feeling a bit vulnerable.
At the brother's house, he loaded his machine (vaporizer?) and told me it was ready when I wanted a toke. I put up my hand and said I'm good, thanks. Sister-in-law heard this and asked me if I wanted a cookie (pot laced) instead. Hubby pipes up (no pun intended, haha!) and says, she's on hiatus. Which isn't totally true. To me that word means a break from with intentions to return to. I then say, I've quit all substances. End of subject. They then refrain from use for the rest of the night, which surprised me. She also says they are quitting drinking on a daily basis, only to imbibe once in a while when they eat out. But I think this is for money reasons as Canadian liquor prices are high.
Father- in-law, on the other hand couldn't understand the concept of no drinking. Kept trying to put alcohol in my glass, which was rather annoying. Claims he drinks only a fraction of what he used to, stated he only (ONLY!!!) has 2 glasses of wine with dinner and a brandy or scotch afterward daily. In the meantime, he consumed a beer while cooking, at least a bottle of wine with dinner and 2 scotches after. Hmmm...yeah, right. Can you say denial?
Anyway, glad to be back at home and back at SR. Glad to be sober. And glad to see some new people posting!
All sticky situations were resolved with no problems. Funny how you fret and build up things in your mind. I did the same July 2016 when attending a wedding where booze was served. At the time, I was 8 month alcohol-free and feeling a bit vulnerable.
At the brother's house, he loaded his machine (vaporizer?) and told me it was ready when I wanted a toke. I put up my hand and said I'm good, thanks. Sister-in-law heard this and asked me if I wanted a cookie (pot laced) instead. Hubby pipes up (no pun intended, haha!) and says, she's on hiatus. Which isn't totally true. To me that word means a break from with intentions to return to. I then say, I've quit all substances. End of subject. They then refrain from use for the rest of the night, which surprised me. She also says they are quitting drinking on a daily basis, only to imbibe once in a while when they eat out. But I think this is for money reasons as Canadian liquor prices are high.
Father- in-law, on the other hand couldn't understand the concept of no drinking. Kept trying to put alcohol in my glass, which was rather annoying. Claims he drinks only a fraction of what he used to, stated he only (ONLY!!!) has 2 glasses of wine with dinner and a brandy or scotch afterward daily. In the meantime, he consumed a beer while cooking, at least a bottle of wine with dinner and 2 scotches after. Hmmm...yeah, right. Can you say denial?
Anyway, glad to be back at home and back at SR. Glad to be sober. And glad to see some new people posting!
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3 months and counting!
23 days to go to meet the sober time I accumulated last year. After that will be the longest time sober I've had since the age of 14! Shocking (and sad) when you think about it.
It's been a fabulous, sober summer. I got so much done and met a lot of goals. Lost the weight I gained last winter and looked fabulous on my recent trip to Canada. The best part is how I feel about myself.
Stay sober! It rocks!
23 days to go to meet the sober time I accumulated last year. After that will be the longest time sober I've had since the age of 14! Shocking (and sad) when you think about it.
It's been a fabulous, sober summer. I got so much done and met a lot of goals. Lost the weight I gained last winter and looked fabulous on my recent trip to Canada. The best part is how I feel about myself.
Stay sober! It rocks!
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4 months sober today.
The farther along into my sobriety I get, the less desire I have to return to my old way of life. I like the person I am today.
I continue to work on my sobriety every day, but it's not all encompassing nor does it fill my every waking thought like active addiction did.
At this point, I am certain I would test drug free. Withdrawal was long, but it's done.
My last hurdle was sleep. Sleep has turned into a beautiful thing.
Dreams are fun and interesting, except for the last 2 weeks or so. Have been dreaming repeatedly of having opportunities to toke. I have dreamed of breaking my sobriety with both drink and pot, however the last two times were pot related and I abstained both times.
I believe the increased frequency of these dreams were because of my 2 big
upcoming sobriety milestones. Now that I've reached 4 months free of pot, I hope these crazy dreams will subside.
Besides marriage and childbirth, sobriety rates at number 3 of the best things I have ever done.
The farther along into my sobriety I get, the less desire I have to return to my old way of life. I like the person I am today.
I continue to work on my sobriety every day, but it's not all encompassing nor does it fill my every waking thought like active addiction did.
At this point, I am certain I would test drug free. Withdrawal was long, but it's done.
My last hurdle was sleep. Sleep has turned into a beautiful thing.
Dreams are fun and interesting, except for the last 2 weeks or so. Have been dreaming repeatedly of having opportunities to toke. I have dreamed of breaking my sobriety with both drink and pot, however the last two times were pot related and I abstained both times.
I believe the increased frequency of these dreams were because of my 2 big
upcoming sobriety milestones. Now that I've reached 4 months free of pot, I hope these crazy dreams will subside.
Besides marriage and childbirth, sobriety rates at number 3 of the best things I have ever done.
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Death of a close loved one. Funeral soon.
I know there will be lots (!) of drinking and smoking.
There is just no good reason, no reason at all to get intoxicated.
It won't help or make things more tolerable.
Sobriety is learning to live with your emotions.
I know there will be lots (!) of drinking and smoking.
There is just no good reason, no reason at all to get intoxicated.
It won't help or make things more tolerable.
Sobriety is learning to live with your emotions.
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Back from that funeral I mentioned earlier.
It was a situation I had some trepidation about due to all the intoxicants that would be available. Instead it was uplifting.
A relative told me he was 2 years sober from booze (me too! I exclaimed) and pot and we had a wonderful conversation about sobriety.
This is something I never tell anyone about. It was wonderful to be able to pat someone on the back and be patted.
I think it would be nice to be able to open up to more people. I'm just not there yet.
It was a situation I had some trepidation about due to all the intoxicants that would be available. Instead it was uplifting.
A relative told me he was 2 years sober from booze (me too! I exclaimed) and pot and we had a wonderful conversation about sobriety.
This is something I never tell anyone about. It was wonderful to be able to pat someone on the back and be patted.
I think it would be nice to be able to open up to more people. I'm just not there yet.
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Oh, and yesterday marks 5 months off pot.
Amidst the emotional turmoil, it slipped past without notice.
The nice thing is, the longer I'm off it, the easier it gets and the less I want to start up again.
Sobriety is a very good thing.
Amidst the emotional turmoil, it slipped past without notice.
The nice thing is, the longer I'm off it, the easier it gets and the less I want to start up again.
Sobriety is a very good thing.
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Awwww, thanks happycampers!
It feels pretty good to be racking up some significant time. Christmas day will mark 6 months and I'm not sure I have ever gone that long without pot.
I still get the odd thought of "oh, just this one time", but I keep playing the tape.
Fast forward to the end and I will just be in the same scene I always end up in.
Smoking everyday, all day long and hating myself.
I deserve better.
Stay strong everyone.
It feels pretty good to be racking up some significant time. Christmas day will mark 6 months and I'm not sure I have ever gone that long without pot.
I still get the odd thought of "oh, just this one time", but I keep playing the tape.
Fast forward to the end and I will just be in the same scene I always end up in.
Smoking everyday, all day long and hating myself.
I deserve better.
Stay strong everyone.
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Thanks everyone! I'm determined to stick with it this. Daily visits to SR has been such a blessing and I give complete credit to this site.
I have to admit this time of year is so tempting.
I'm hosting a party on Christmas Eve. I know every single guest will imbibe in some sort of intoxicant. It would be so easy to just give in and partake.
But the very next day will mark 6 months for me and I just don't want to blow it.
I will stay the course and rack up more time and that's the greatest gift I can give myself.
Cheers!
I have to admit this time of year is so tempting.
I'm hosting a party on Christmas Eve. I know every single guest will imbibe in some sort of intoxicant. It would be so easy to just give in and partake.
But the very next day will mark 6 months for me and I just don't want to blow it.
I will stay the course and rack up more time and that's the greatest gift I can give myself.
Cheers!
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