Here we go...again.
Today is day 2.
After quitting for 3 1/2 months, I caved and ended up smoking for another 4 months.
Just a bit more than a little disgusted at myself. Medicinal indica put me in a non-stop eating coma. When I wasn't eating, I was sleeping. Gained 23 pounds! Enough.
So with this added weight gain, I expect withdrawal to be worse than the last time. And I experienced as much yesterday. Daytime hot flashes were many and sleep was nearly non-existant.
What could I have done differently this time to stay off the pot?
I didn't smack down that AV when it spoke to me. I needed to stay firm in my resolve. I needed to play the tape. I just wish the footage was uglier.
Alcohol has an ugly recording. Alcohol breaks down your front door, smashes all your windows, furniture, everything.
Pot just knocks at the door and doesn't stop. So annoying, but not devastating. Just go the frack away and leave me alone.
So I am back to a clean diet and sweat producing exercise.
I have a theory that the severity of withdrawal is directly related to the amount of excess body fat. I was rail thin last time and withdrawal was a breeze. So far, not so much.
Have an amazing sober weekend, everyone!
Welcome back lynnmarie :)
Remember we're here to help :)
Welcome, keep posting
Welcome back! Have a great weekend too :)
hang in there--- it gets easier after a little while!
Day 7 Still not remembering dreams and waiting for the nightmares. Perhaps my "excess fat cells/detox rate" theory has some truth. And I've been losing weight this time around. Perhaps the release of cannabinoids with weight loss is slowing things down.
On the up side, a good sweaty walk yesterday morning held the hot flashes at bay for the whole day.
Sleep still sucks, but I expected this.
I must remember how miserable I am so I don't do this again!
I hope everyone is rocking the freedom from pot!
a week is great lynnmarie :)
Way to go on a week!!
Thanks all! A week is a nice start, but I wish I could turn back the clock to when I had 3.5 months under my belt. Lesson learned.
It's the end of day 9. Still not remembering my dreams, no surprise. The good part of that is the nightmares have not happened either. But that will happen. Great news is I've lost 10 lbs! Which, I think, is why this detox is not as easy as the last time.
But it feels fantastic to be in control, eating right (no munchies) and exercising. My lungs are clearing nicely and the brain fog is lifting.
I actually slept. I think I got more sleep last night than I did the previous 7 nights combined. There is light at the end of this detox tunnel.
Yesterday I was in a situation that required quick thinking. I know if I had been stoned, I would have totally dropped the ball.
I am loving the clear mind.
It may be a small thing, but I need to document the little successes. I need to keep reminding myself of why I am doing this.
Exactly lynnmarie - good call :)
I'm sorry. All I seem to do is complain.
Withdrawal this time is awful! Spontaneous hot sweats day and night, they just don't want to go away. Still not remembering my dreams. Last time they came back on day 6. Is there such a thing as kindling with pot?
I've got to remember this discomfort. It's got to keep me from starting up again. I don't want to do this ever again. Enough!
Insomnia is the one thing I really hate. It took months last time to get a good night's sleep, let alone several nights in a row. Why do I do this to myself?
And 'they' say pot is not addictive. Ppppfffff!
I hope every one is staying on track! Let's rock this!
I sweated a lot too - I sweated with any withdrawal.
Folks will tell you pot is not a physical addiction, but I think withdrawal is withdrawal - it wouldn't surprise me if the kindling phenomenon applied to pot too lynnmarie.
And back again at day 1.
*sigh* Why do I keep doing this? I always, ALWAYS end up in the same place. Disgusted with myself.
Back to square one. I know today will be the worst with the cravings, and I know they will be less tomorrow. I know. But why have I not learned. Interesting.
I will try to post more, keep myself accountable.
I need to hear some success stories. Anyone?
I quit after 30 years, so it's possible. Had to make some pretty big changes tho in who I hung around and what I did for fun.
What drew you back in?
Dee, I would have to say my AV drew me back in. I don't think I have completely shut the door on pot like I did with alcohol. I have left an opening and it sneaks back in. I wish I could kick it completely to the curb. But why can't I? What's holding me back? What am I afraid of?
Perhaps I need more soul searching.
But in the meantime, I will not smoke.
maybe it's worth putting some thinking time in to counter the usual arguments your AV makes?
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